Damn, sad to hear that, man :<
That's how talents die in the gray ocean of mass-produced goods.
But I firmly believe that "nearly" is not "finally", so you still can pull yourself together and start create art again, if you haven't extinguished your spark, if you still want to do it.
I hope you'll have free time in your schedule to practice a bit. And I also really hope that you are OK (even if we haven't talked even once). Take care of yourself, don't put work and/or internet persona over your health, mental and physical.
You will be alright.
Good luck with whatever problems you're facing now. We will wait until your return.
Stay home, stay safe, stay yourself.