another year, another update. This past one was stressful and am I happy it's finally, almost, over. I finally finished my bachelor thesis and have only three exams to go until I receive my bachelor's diploma. Although I intend to go for the master's degree in the future, I'm most definitely gonna wait about three or four years before participating in any official education again. I've really grown to love programming and everything related to it and it's such a broad branch with a lot of opportunities.
Due to my full schedule this past year, I almost didn't get to do anything art related at all, which was a silent pain I carried with me throughout the year. I'm really looking forward to finally get my hands dirty doing art again. I think I'm most excited about getting to work on the fundamentals and finally finish what I started in that region, so that I can focus on illustrating more. I am also excited to continue writing my stories. The next years will be exciting, provided death doesn't knock on the door early. Some interesting developments this past year:
- IT Club: I and my cousin started a program to teach Web Design Basics to newcomers last year. This has really flourished within a year and we're about to teach our fourth group. Through this I was able to learn a lot of things regarding providing courses to other people.
- Art Club: I intend to start something similar to the IT Club soon, focusing on more art related subjects. This will include graphic design, photography and tools education as one aspect of its curriculum. The better I get with my drawing skills, I'll start to provide appropriate levels of drawing courses as well. I think currently the most I could effectively offer is a beginners course to drawing, but even that is an exciting thought. These past months I've started the necessary research and am in the planning phase. Hopefully about next year, I'll have enough interested people and potential teachers that might want to contribute.
- Writer's Club: Similar to Art Club, but more focusing on writing stories. I want to offer some sort of education that teaches them proper story telling, character development, world building etc. to be more effective when writing novels. Hopefully I'll be able to start this by the end of this year with a small group.
These three "clubs" will be my main focus for the coming years, hoping to educate or at the very least interest some new people to those fields. Maybe later on, we may work on some joint project together. Who knows.
Looking back to when all of this started, I'm a little amazed where my path took me. I imagined I'd become a more proficient artist way sooner, but even now, I'm still mediocre at the best. But this doesn't mean the years were wasted, not at all. Skills were developed in a plethora of areas, which will become very handy down the line. But now it's time to focus on mastery in certain fields and I realize that. To be fair though, time was on shortage and I did with it the best I could and I'm content with that. You know when people say you could invest more time than you admit to? I think that might be true at times, but there are also a lot of people for which this just isn't true. School, work, family... that's not the only things that keep people busy. There are people out there, which do work that is essential, but might seem insignificant for an outside observer. I've come to realize this over the years and that it's no use to put yourself under unnecessary pressure. The only question that you need to be able to answer is: Am I lying to myself? If you're able to tell yourself the truth, you can always pick yourself up and always see the real reasons why things go the way the do. And knowing allows you to react.
It's been an interesting adventure so far and I expect it to remain interesting going forth. For the first time in a long time I'm able to see the future again and the fear of a failure that might cripple my plans for life isn't as overbearing as it used to be. Even now I realize I still might fail to get my bachelor's diploma, but by now I've come internalize something, a wisdom you might say: Whatever you want to achieve, whatever you want to do, the only relevant factor in the equation is always you. A diploma, a certificate, those are things that will help you, but they won't do the work for you. They're nice to have and useful, but if the the engine behind your goals isn't you yourself, no amount of paperwork will get you to achieve your goals.
I think that is why I don't fear failing anymore. Even if failing to get my bachelor diploma might change a lot of things in my life, it won't change the path I'm walking on, it won't change my goals and me walking towards them. And that's something I think important to realize down the line.
Well, whatever, that's it for this update.
Have a nice day y'all,
Listening to: Message To Bears - Mountains
Reading: The Expanse in German, finished the series in EN
Watching: Doctor Who
Drinking: Big cup of coffee