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'I can make you feel pain, Daniella' by Zigge13 'I can make you feel pain, Daniella' :iconzigge13:Zigge13 7 1 Staff-wielder by Zigge13 Staff-wielder :iconzigge13:Zigge13 1 4 hotgirl.png by Zigge13 hotgirl.png :iconzigge13:Zigge13 2 4 why is she not moving by Zigge13 why is she not moving :iconzigge13:Zigge13 1 0 Vriska by Zigge13 Vriska :iconzigge13:Zigge13 5 13 Sketchbook sketches 8 - Mark by Zigge13 Sketchbook sketches 8 - Mark :iconzigge13:Zigge13 0 0 Sketchbook sketches 7 by Zigge13 Sketchbook sketches 7 :iconzigge13:Zigge13 0 0 Sketchbook sketches 6 - NAKED DUDES by Zigge13
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Heroes - Kristoff Bjorgman by davidkawena Heroes - Kristoff Bjorgman :icondavidkawena:davidkawena 2,879 326 Never Let Me Go 10 by Nesskain Never Let Me Go 10 :iconnesskain:Nesskain 840 43 Never Let Me Go 11 by Nesskain Never Let Me Go 11 :iconnesskain:Nesskain 250 11 One hour a day 14 by LeoLeus One hour a day 14 :iconleoleus:LeoLeus 248 12 Shin And Rov by CrimsonBlood-Z
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Random10 by buzujima Random10 :iconbuzujima:buzujima 131 17 Believe In Magic by Verahnika Believe In Magic :iconverahnika:Verahnika 30 9 Mommy's Little Girl by sabishiidesu13 Mommy's Little Girl :iconsabishiidesu13:sabishiidesu13 2,542 316 I'm Badass by CrimsonBlood-Z I'm Badass :iconcrimsonblood-z:CrimsonBlood-Z 545 15 Lets Enjoy the Music by CrimsonBlood-Z Lets Enjoy the Music :iconcrimsonblood-z:CrimsonBlood-Z 496 12 Unzip me by CrimsonBlood-Z Unzip me :iconcrimsonblood-z:CrimsonBlood-Z 279 23 Trade : Fire Dash! by CrimsonBlood-Z
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Boxer by CrimsonBlood-Z
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David stay in heaven
David stay in heaven
jump in the sky find marvels from
tortoises
playing cards
in a barbershop
but don't bring your angels here
when you come back
you know where the line goes
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"I wish I was as good as you", I tell him, instantly realizing that I sound like a stupid fan. Which I guess I was, but who wants to sound like one?
"You're pretty good. You have the anatomy down", he says. At first I get happy, of course, but then I realize what actually happened.
"Oh, no", I start to explain, "These aren't my pictures. I haven't drawn these."
I proceed with giving him a link to my dA, where the drawings that I've made are located.
It takes him about a minute or two before he replies.
"Haha", he says after the pause. "Yeah, you need some practice."


That's all I can remember from our conversation. It's almost two years ago, now. I still haven't recovered from that. I try to get back into drawing, I try to practice more, but his laugh and that comment damaged me so deep that I can't even draw a single line before I feel like a failure. I've managed to draw a couple of times, but after each time, I always have at least a month's pause before the next time I try. That such a small, idiotic thing could do damage so deep is still surprising to me. The fact that I considered him an idol and his skills a goal probably caused it to damage deeper than it normally would've, though.
I want to give up, find something else to focus my energy on, because I don't know if I can do this anymore. I don't feel like I'm moving forward, especially not now that he made me practically stop drawing. I don't know how to recover from this and I don't know if it's worth trying to, to be honest.
Seeing his art makes me bitter, even though I still love it.
Is it even worth it?

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Zigge13
Mikael
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Sweden
The grass is greener here.

miektastic@hotmail.com

Favourite genre of music: Alt. Rock/Indie
Favourite style of art: Manga. Although, I prefer a more realistic manga style. I hate chibis.
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: Phone
Favourite cartoon character: Tonytony Chopper
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Hatredboy Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey,it's me again the one requested you make to Vergil x Daniella for me,remember? I'm using Xps now so I wonder if you can send me your stash with Daniella model? Because After I found her and click the link,the site is being invalid.

So,do you mind?
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Zigge13 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I would love to have done that, but unfortunately, my computer crashed earlier this year. I've lost all my models, scenes and pictures, and I'm forced to find them all over, yet again. So unfortunately, I cannot help you. My apologies.
I'll let you know if I find a Daniella model, though, unless you've already found one.
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GritBat Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Grattis här också dårå <:
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Zigge13 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Tack :3
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TauristicMonkey Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:heart:
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B-Male Featured By Owner May 27, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks for watching!! :)
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Zigge13 Featured By Owner May 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My pleasure! ;D
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EmilyCammisa Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Professional General Artist
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EriMed Featured By Owner May 25, 2012
thanks for the fav
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BukkoroshiteYaruZo Featured By Owner May 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
For faving, I hereby thank you with a rather weird English. Yay!
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