Today I was looking through some of my older works here and it was interesting to see indeed just how much my life has changed. The last entry I posted here briefly discussed how much my life has changed, but I think it is actually worth reiterating. In the three years since my last post here, my life has undergone even more changes.
For most intents and purposes I feel like I am no longer the same person that I once was. It has been interesting, but also somewhat saddening to see the kind of person I was and the kind of life that I led when I put up each of these pieces of art, and wrote each of these journals. It is disheartening to go back and remember what was going on in each moment. Knowing that when I created some pieces I was on the verge of suicide, or recognizing my growing obsessions, or seeing just how much of an asshat I was in some of the chats shown.
Since 2010 I have gotten help for myself, gotten out of some intense situations and generally just grown as a person. I'm still just as crappy an artist as ever, but I have gained a real appreciation for good art and artists, something I definitely lacked back then.
Life is still stressful and of course I still have demons to deal with, but I'm happier and more stable now than I ever was back then. Given that none of my friends still really use DA I can't imagine a ton of people will read this, but its a good addition to what, to me at least, is a time capsule showing who I was and how I changed as a person growing up.
Here's to another five years of relative peace.
Haxor ~Zell Faze~
Listening to: The Thrillseekers - Dreaming Of You
Reading: My old journals
Playing: Kerbal Space Program
Eating: Networking Cable