Hard to describe
to bring to light
swallows me whole
fills my heart warmly
envelops my psyche
a slow progress
astounds my senses
covers me whole
a blanket of loving warmth
as deep as the sea
or outer space
as best I can put to words
L O V E
to myself i am an enigma
i say this because I never know what i want
i am scared and do not know it
i am strong and do not know it
i am a leader and do not know it
i am smart and do not know it
yet i am stupid…and that i know
what do i know? nothing…
knowledge to me is a figment of my imagination
but what then is not my imagination?
the answer is
Been a while since pen has approached paper,
All the while stirring up chaos between ears,
While all these black-hearted fools debate,
Which way to send this poor soul.
For this young man shall soon begin,
The realization nobody can come to,
There's a ragged truth beyond sight,
And a feeling of hopelessness tonight.
What would it ever take to belittle,
False faith created by those ugly men,
As freedom screams chained to stone.
It's the cold shoulder thats brought him here,
Amongst those disgraced.
And a fight that won't even take place,
Until thought is provoked.
Torn between faith imposed,
Could you really see this empty soul
This is to,
dying in another man's arms,
and why I had to try it.
It's to the wire coat hanger
and doing it the right way.
It's for the kiss,
the fuck, and the truck ride home;
the rabble, the grapple,
and the gravel in the driveway;
the enemies, the demons, the
will to survive, and voice of reason
that keeps you from the choices
you know will isolate you.
This is to,
long walks to nowhere
when a friend needs help.
It's to the crying when it's lost
and the looks at the hospital.
It's for the distance known by
heroin addicts 'tween that hit and their last.
The bland coffee, the politics,
the closet and coming out of it;
Hello people. I haven't been here for a while, over a year I'd imagine. I might be coming around again somewhat. I posted a poem today. Life is changing. I am growing. It is just getting better and better.
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