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I've found this new thing that irritates me. People, stop pulling selfies and pictures of your kids and pets on devART. This isn't facebook. This is an art site. If your photos are artistic, it's one thing but a crappy cell phone shot is not art. Using instagram filters does not make a picture art. Sometimes using an actual camera STILL doesn't make your picture art. On devART you expect to see something someone drew or sculpted, sewed or crafted. Pictures of your kid playing with a plastic bowl is not art and does not belong on devART. Just stop and take that crap back to facebook.
  • Listening to: Let's Build podcast
  • Reading: Lots of manga!!
  • Watching: nada
  • Playing: nada
  • Eating: chicken salad
  • Drinking: nada

I borrowed my mom's tablet pen so I've been cranking out pics like a madwoman. I lost my pen :( I'm going to get another one this Christmas.

Let's see... life. I'm single, not homeless, pretty happy with how life is turning out. I'm still drawing my Demon Moon Manga, not that anyone here would know it. No one sees it but me and my co-writer, Kim. One day soon (when I borrow/buy a scanner) I'll think about uploading pages. There are so many though :o Learned that I can record what I'm doing on my screen and put up my first two "How to Color/Draw on Photoshop" vids. Yay me. Because of that I have had to learn the most basic iMovie. I'm a fledgeling vid maker!!

All in all, doing pretty good :)
  • Listening to: 80's Hits
  • Reading: Lots of manga!!
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Food? What's that? *starving* :(
  • Drinking: Honey Lemon Ginsing Green Tea
I'm still doing the exact same thing with my life that I've been doing since before I got a devART account.... NOTHING!! 
  • Listening to: Stargate SG-1
  • Reading: Nothing :(
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Poor people food
  • Drinking: lots of water D:
Nothing much interesting going on. The internet went of for two days because of a storm so I had lots of time to do some coloring. I started a diet. It's not so hard since they put me on some awesome pills that kill my appetite. The exercise part though.... I'm not down with that.
  • Listening to: The Who
  • Reading: Santiago: A Myth of the Far Furture
  • Watching: TV commericals
  • Playing: Alundra 2
  • Eating: healthy stuff
  • Drinking: lots of water D:
Life is good. Working and enjoying life in a positive way. I have photoshop and a tablet and I can't be happier about it. Starting to do a little wire work. YAY!
  • Listening to: ICP
  • Reading: Harry Potter fanfiction
  • Watching: the screen
  • Playing: yo mom nah i kid
  • Eating: Noodles!!!
  • Drinking: lots
It's been two years since I updated my journal and a lot of things have happened since then. I got kicked out of my mom's house, I moved in with Clay, got kicked out of Clay's, moved in with mom, got kicked out of mom's, lived in a homeless shelter for a while, left the homeless shelter to go back to mom's, and am now currently staying with my father in VA because there are no jobs in AL... Clay and I broke up so I went out with a guy named Moogle... well, we were never really going out. We were lovers. He got boring, so I'm talking to my ex Dustin... he worships me, but I dont like him that much... I have been drawing a bit, writing a bit too, but have not had a chance to upload anything... my tablet broke after four years and i think that that was pretty good considering that it moved when i moved. lol so i have no tablet, the computer i'm on doesn't have photoshop, and i dont own a scanner anyways... man, life sucks right now, but i got drunk last weekend and will be drunk again this weekend so i think that'll be great.
  • Listening to: nada
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nada
  • Drinking: still nada
Yeah. I fell down the stairs and broke the bones in my foot... lots. One is shattered in five pieces, and three others are fractured. I had to have re-constructive surgery. The doctor put a pin in my foot and has two screws hanging out of it. It looks really nasty and doesn't feel too good either. They have me on nice meds, but taking them makes me feel guilty since Clay doesn't take pills for his aches so I kinda feel like, "why should I?" It doesn't hurt too much most of the time, but it did when he 'accidentally' sat on it... lol
  • Listening to: Napalm Death
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: turkey bagel
  • Drinking: red koolaid
Wow, last time I did a journal was like... ages ago. I have drawn a few things, but I haven't been near a scanner and I haven't even been at home with my tablet. The majority of my summer vacation I've been hanging out with my fiance, Clay. School starts in two days though so I'm back home. I miss him so much.
  • Listening to: Heart
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: Chicken alfrado pasta with asparagus hearts
  • Drinking: nothing
My loving and sweet boyfriend finally got back from his brothers' and I was so happy! I thought I wouldn't get to see him this past weekend either and he wound up getting his friend to drive 45 minutes to my house to pick me up and take me to swordfighting practice. Then he drove me home and stayed the night with me. My weekend went form prospectively dull and lonely to a dream come true. I'm still on a high thinking of him. I cant wait to see him again. I hope it wont be long. God, I love that man...
  • Listening to: Nightwish
  • Reading: Hobbit
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: Ramen noodles
  • Drinking: coffee
The other day, my dogs dug up a rabbit's nest in our backyard. There were four tiny little bunnies in it. They weren't any bigger than the length of my palm. I knew as soon as my step father went to go look and picked one up that the mommy bunny would smell the human scent and wouldn't get close. I told my mom that we would have to take care of them. I thought that she would see after a while that the mommy bunny wasn't going to come back and would give in. I'd already picked out names. Sammy, Jackie, Jamie, and Bobbi... nice little unisex names. Mom told me tonight that when she checked on them yesterday, they were still alive. This morning, she thought they were dead. She poked them with a stick and they didn't move. I guess she didn't think that they may have been too weak to move. She didn't even touch them to see if they were still breathing. She told me tonight after seeing that this morning. When i went to check, of course, they were all cold and it was evident that they were dead. It's not fair. They were so small. The length of my finger, if that. Their eyes weren't even open yet. The smallest one barely had any fuzz on it. I had such hope for them... that i would be able to take care of them if my mother would let me. I cant help but think that if I had checked them tis morning, I would have been able to save at least one maybe. The poor little things starved to death. I dont think that they even knew what was happening... not that anything that small would. Can you imagine seeing a baby on your step, looking at it, touching it, and then leaving it there and looking at it everyday to see if someone else had come to claim it? Do rabbits make noise? Do baby rabbits cry for their mothers? Were they even able to cry to say they were hungry and alone and that they were being forgotten?

I had so much hope that they'd be alright. It wasn't fair that they died. They were just babies. They were so adorable it just wasn't fair. I'm not so naive to think that everything is fair and that life is all rainbows and butterflies, but some things just shouldn't happen. Women shouldn't miscarry, kids shouldn't die in accidents, and those four tiny little defenseless bunnies shouldn't have been left all alone to wither away...

Is it wrong to feel like I'm the one that killed them?
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  • Eating: nothing
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I feel as if I'm falling apart a the seams. I have anxiety issues so if I dont hear from Balbadon ((BF's devART account name)) I start getting sick. I'm feeling nauseous and dizzy and my head hurts. If he wasn't so far away it wouldn't be so bad. My hands are shaking so bad that it's hard to type. I cant wait till he gets back. When I see him, I'm probably going to start crying or something equally stupid. Right now, I've been out all day so I've had to be happy and hyperactive or my friends would wonder what was wrong with me. The harder I pretend though, the worse I feel later. I really have no urge to go to school tomorrow. I have to anyways though. I've already missed too many days. I hope he calls me tonight. I need to hear his voice.
  • Listening to: Hollywood Unded No. 5
  • Reading: The Joy Luck Club
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: Spaghetti
  • Drinking: Unsweet tea
My boyfriend is going to Tennessee. Since we live so far apart and he works and I don't have a car, we only get to see each other on Sundays. This Sunday he'll be there and I wont get to see him. It makes me want to just curl up and sleep till I see him again. Life just isn't as colorful when he's not with me. I don't ever laugh and I'm not ever happy. He's the kind of person who makes me want to better myself so I can feel as if I deserve him. I miss him so very very much and it makes me depressed knowing that I wont get to see him. Also, he's thinking about joining the military. If this is just a week or two, how crazy will I get when he's gone for that?

He has a good reason so I don't begrudge the fact that he's leaving. he has to visit his brother, who's having surgery. I don't know for what. He left his knife at me house when he left Monday. I cuddle up with that in bed at night. It makes me feel safe. I dont know if it's because it's his and it reminds me of him, or if it's the fact that it's a knife in general. Either way, I miss him like crazy and I'll keep missing him till he comes back and then I'll miss him again, more, till it either ends for us or we're together forever.

Of course I don't want him to go and would rather him stay with me, but I'm trying to not be so selfish. At least, not in front of him.
  • Listening to: Rasmus
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the screen...?
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: pancakes
  • Drinking: green koolaid
I feel like dookie to put it bluntly.

I had a wonderful weekend. My best boyfriend yet stayed with me from Saturday to Monday and we spent the majority of that time cuddling up in my bed, on the couch, in his car, outside at the park... Yeah... he likes cuddling... more than I do actually. He's really sweet.

I skipped school Monday to stay with him since my mother is in Virginia and left us home. Now, it's Tuesday and I'm very sad. I didn't get enough sleep last night and my stomach hurts since my brother brought a stomach bug form Florida.

I miss him... I hate my brother...

I love you all!
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the screen...?
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
I-I-I... I got tagged. So, here we go, ne?

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
This book is a conglomeration of short stories. Page 18, line 4 states: "... it seemed scandalously wasteful that a craft of such size and majesty to answer to the law of gravity..."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Oh, wow, wrong arm first. Ow. my muscles are sore...

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. "You're really weird..."

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
Um... 9:00?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Eddie playing Monster Rancher. Jamey playing on his guitar...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I was outside last when i got out of kim's car and walked inside.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

9. What are you wearing?
A really colorful huge buttondown and jeans

10. Did you dream last night?
yeah, it was weird and took palce in a gas station...

11. When did you last laugh?
Like... ten minutes ago

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
Spiderman, Harry Potter, Inuyasha, Naruto, Labyrinth, Phantom of the Opera, and some mall store bags

13. Seen anything weird lately?
I saw a dog getting attacked by a squirrel!

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's neat.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Um... Karate Kid. "Wax on... wax off..."

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Some new threads. I only have winter clothes...

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I flirt with everyone but dont mean anything. I'm a terrible tease...

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would give everyone a lobotomy. Then everyone would get along, ne?

19. Do you like to dance?
Yes! i love dancing!

20. George Bush

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Dunno. Leah... Amaya... Michelle... something... Ooo! I know! Fred!

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Jonny... Daniel... ugh, I dont know!

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Sure. I'd love to see the world.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Do you like anime?" or "Do you want to do the new inside color scheme?"

25.Tag people who must also do this in THEIR journal.

I dunno. Do it or dont...
  • Listening to: Distillers
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the screen...?
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: Water
I just wanted to do a new journal entry. I decided that I do want to start doing requests. Just dont make them too hard. Oh, guess what? I've started a diet... I dont know if that good or bad. I may be a ittle chunky, but I'm comfortable with my weight. My mother isn't. I've started doing my favourite thing in the world... sword fighting. It's great. I'm bored with this... BYE!
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the screen...?
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
I was wondering... I haven;t been doing much as of late... maybe I'll start taking requests.
  • Listening to: Devil May Cry 3 music
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: Ed play video games
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: gravy and tortillas
  • Drinking: yucky unsweet tea
I uploaded something! Awesome! I was practicing on my new art tablet. I'm kinda getting the hang of it, but it'll be a while yet till I feel comfortable with the thing. I really do love it already though. If anyone has any tips and tricks to impart upon me, I am most gracious to accept them.
  • Listening to: Dirty Dancing Soundtrack
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: ice
  • Drinking: water
I finally uploaded a picture!
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
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  • Eating: nothing
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Just recently I was scouring the Naruto fanart section of deviantart for random Sakura crack pairings (since I love those best) and I discovered that there are a lot of people who seem to hate Haruno Sakura. I was totally offended and I couldn't help but point out that those people were firstly, stupid for hating a character that does not actually exist, and secondly, idiotic for taking the time to draw a nice picture of her so they could slap a big slash over it, not to mention scanning and uploading it... How fricking dumb can you get? Get a life some of you. If you dont have real people to hate, you dont have to hate anime characters. I'm not saying that I love all of them, but I dont hate any of them. Hating isn't something I have time for in my life, especially not for someone that isn't real.

Goddess, some people are freaks...

I realized that, though I make a few exceptions, I dont really read/look at yaoi/yuri even though I support them and even claim to like them. I'm not so sure now. I mean, i have all of this time to look up those things that I claim to "love" and then I dont. I'm confused at myself. I also used to claim that I'd read any fanfiction. Now I've discovered that it has to have #1) good spelling, grammar, capitalization, and punctuation before I'll even look at it, #2) a totally ensnaring plot with twists and no boring bits or no plot at all since it's a raunchy bit of lemony goodness... #3) a definite ending, meaning no long drawn out thing, #4) no Goddess forsaken weddings! I seem to hate the damned things, #5) no having the heroine be a flighty female who cant even tell her own mind "oh, do i love him? Yes... no...yes... no... I'll sleep with him anyways!", and lastly, #6) no heroine whores... if they need to sleep with someone to get a job done or for some fun time, them by all means, go for it, but no one likes a loose one... It seems that over the years I've been hardened and am simply unable, physically, to read crappy fanfiction. I've also developed the knack for sorting all of that out through summaries. Let that be a lesson to all those careless summary writers. I see your lack of caps and periods and immediately don't even want to know what's behind that link. I'll admit that I may have lost one or two good fics that way, but I'll also bet that I skipped a lot more terrible ones too.

I love Sakura and I want everyone to know it. I also want everyone to know that I've paired her with (almost) every Naruto male (except for Naruto and Sasuke and most of the people who were dead before the series began, and the women, and the 4th Hokage. He was old, and not sexy old like Jiraya...) and I liked it! Mwahaha!

You know what I just realized, in amine, manga, books, cartoons, or movies, I seem to choose one character to hold higher than the others. I dont take the time to look at the others and say I dont like them so I like the one. I just pick the one at random and forget the rest. Analyzing that little trait of mine pushes things into perspective about other aspects of my life. Take love for example. I love a guy named Cookie. I chose him, not because he was better or because I didn't like anyone else, but because that's what I do. I find one, like them, and then no longer care whoever else may be out there. That is where the greatest heartbreak for me lies. I picked one but he did not pick me. I was sad for awhile but now I'm trying to help him get the girl he wants so that he can be happy and so i can have a reason to be near him. Now take family. My favorite is my brother, Jonathon. I dont have a real care at all for the rest of them. Now for friendship. I have a friend names Kimi. I chose her, not because she was more popular(neither of us are really), nor because I even genuinely like her company. I chose her and that is the only reason her proximity to me is bearable since I inwardly hate being around her. I like Cookie. I like Jonny. I like Kimi. I wonder how many other people I would actually like if i took the time to look past the ones i decided to like. I doubt that I will actually put that speculation to action, but maybe I will read a Naruto fanfiction where Sakura isn't the main character, or maybe a Harry Potter one where Hermione isn't. Goddess forbid, I may even actually read a pairing that could be considered canon... No. No... never that. i have a brain, one that is constantly thinking though only nonsense may drip from my lips. I would never be so boring, so unimaginative to even actually consider doing that to myself. i dont think that I will, in truth, read a fanfiction or look at a fanart where the character I chose, the one that I decided to like, is not the main. But, once again, I look at my little relationships and I see that i do love one more than other, but I also dislike one more than others. In Naruto, I dislike Sasuke. In Harry Potter, I dislike Ron. In friendship I dislike the girl named Dominique in my third block class for no reason at all. In family, I dislike my brother Edward. In love, this one is most confusing of all... I dislike myself. Still I am the one who caused myself the most hurt in that area of my life so it's only to be expected.

On another note, yeah, still nothing uploaded...

Give me a break, it's 5:30 in the fricking morning and I've nearly burned my eyes out on this Goddess-cursed computer screen.
  • Listening to: my Nightwish playlist
  • Reading: fluffy Sakura/Lee fanfiction
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: cookies
  • Drinking: water
Um... journal entry... right. Well, I do a lot of nothing a lot of the time so I'll spare the life story. I doubt that I even remember it. I'm 17. I like to cook, read, write, draw, and sleep. I love sleeping. I'm almost constantly on the internet. I like fanfiction. I know i don't have anything uploaded at the moment, but i will soon.

Favorite Characters:
NARUTO: Hoshgaki Kisame, Haruno Sakura, Aburame Shino, Rock Lee (now Chouji too)
INUYASHA: Naraku, Sesshomaru
HARRY POTTER: Severus Snape, Hermione Granger (Lucius Malfoy)
FRUITS BASKET: Sohma Ayame, Sohma Shigure, Sohma Hatori
S-CRY-ED: Straight Cougar

I cant think of anything else at the moment...
  • Listening to: Phantom of the Opera soundtrack
  • Reading: dirty Kisame/Sakura fanfiction
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing (I wish ramen...)
  • Drinking: orange juice