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The Masochist

By yuumei
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I always wanted to draw a picture that explores the personality of a masochist, but not someone who physically abuses oneself; I wanted someone who enjoys emotional abuse.

I imagine that person to be someone who does contradicting things. It wants to be with other people, but locks itself in a bathroom. It doesn't want to be wet, but turn on the facets and opens an umbrella. It wants friends and cuts out little people, then tears them apart.

The gratifying pain is symbolized through the bleeding paper dolls.


I wanted to try a new drawing technique with this picture. It lacks the thin lines and smooth colors of my other styles. I drew it with a canvas texture but it's hard to see because of the small size on dA. The actual image is very big with detailed textured lines that looks like it was made with charcoal. :D

Drawn in Paint tool SAI


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KehXKeova's avatar
This is absolutely amazing!! :w00t!:
Kimiski's avatar
Dark. Deep. Beautiful. 
Jikazushikikuta's avatar
This art is so meaningful, Great Job!
Justice-4-L's avatar
Most of your artwork seems really deep. Love exploring human emotions.
ratsharq's avatar
Oh my goodness, this is absolutely amazing! 
ricesniffer's avatar
thank you for inspiring me to make a character who loves emotional abuse?? Your symbolism is so great!
KawaiiRuby235's avatar
Holy crap this is good! So jealous! OMG watch that o_O -above- :awe: 
Epicchief15's avatar
Bloody hell
Ps Looks cool though
RainCloudsCome2Play's avatar
amazing, ur really great at anime
IPeacyyy's avatar
I know this is old, but the way your mind works when creating illustrations is beautiful . The contradiction of her being in a bathtub filled with water, yet holding an umbrella so water does get on her is just amazing ! Your work and mind is truly genius !
QueenParkJimin's avatar
I really like your drawling and it looks like I could use ur talents. I was wondering if you could drawl me a few pics for a book Im writing I can explain what I generally want. I really hope u can help. Btw  I cant drawl very good.
AlexisYoko's avatar
Cool painting.  P.S. I`m a masochist too, but is just about physical pain...
And I now that the masochistic comportment is about sadness too, and I do not exaggerate with this...
mikumikukitty's avatar
this is a really cool and unique idea! 
noodlesandbiscuits's avatar
The drawing is great but there is so much spam in the comment section.
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(that is the noise of approval) 
existentiallife's avatar
I honestly think this is my favorite art account on deviant art
Catsperri's avatar
Absolutely beautiful! I just absolutely love all of your ideas!
TheColdplayer's avatar
reminds me of me
MasKOfFlaminTwilight's avatar
It's such a masterpiece...the loneliness of the faceless character under the umbrella is the perfect synthesis of someone that's covered and annihilated in his pain...also almost drowning, judging the quantity of water that is rising in the room
And the bloody dolls swimming on the surface, like fragments of the sorrow emerging from the deep
That person feels the way I often am...
KatouMiwa's avatar
Wow~! Looks like my bathroom!

I'm kidding, btw XD

Shannia98's avatar
I reallly love how you draw, and this image really reminds me of myself sometimes, it's a pretty great idea what you meant.
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