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I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife won’t allow it and he can’t be bothered to care. It’s weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

It’s hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

It’s funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. I’m sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I can’t help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesn’t matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. It’s just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didn’t pay for it. Adding to the list of things I don’t have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.

I feel so bitter right now it’s fucking disgusting.
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This strip struck a chord in me that I have not felt in many years.

Slutty mother, weak father.. I went through the same damn thing 50+ years ago.

At first, I was sad. Then I was angry for a very long time. I was told that my anger was not justified and to not be selfish......

What brings me back down to earth, is the realization that I have been given the gift of independence. Not out of delibrate means, but a happy side-effect. Both of my parents are too selfish/self-centered to have any altrusitc goals.

Being socially/emotionally independant, I have created my own family. I don't need them.

The best part is........ They know I don't need them.