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Don't Be Selfish

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I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife won’t allow it and he can’t be bothered to care. It’s weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

It’s hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

It’s funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. I’m sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I can’t help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesn’t matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. It’s just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didn’t pay for it. Adding to the list of things I don’t have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.


I feel so bitter right now it’s fucking disgusting.
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Rigidsttructure's avatar

I may be years too late, but I wanna say it anyway: I hope everything is okay, and I hope you prosper. You are incredible, don't forget that.

Heroworker's avatar
Hi. I saw this post years ago. This account of my is new but its not the first time I had DA account before. I sometimes make new ones because I somehow forgot the password from last time but I digress. My point is, I really emphasize with this artwork of yours and the fact that your sharing something personal with everyone to see. Even though I might not understand what you with through, I just wanted to say what I wish I got to say all those years ago when I first saw this at sixteen browsing Pinterest: It's going to be okay. Even though you lost your first family, you can always find a new one that will treat you better. I hope you're doing better now and enjoying the life you have with your art while looking forward to a better future. P.S. Your comic "Fisheye Placebo" is pretty good, though I haven't gotten into for years and have forgotten key parts of the plot but nice work with your art. I like how it envisions the perfect cross between cartoonish and realty. At least for me. Have a special life worth living.  
AuroraLaLune's avatar
Have you found the light at the end of the tunnel? Have you found the people who become your family in life? I hope so. They exist. Even if they never accept and treat you like family ever again we must keep walking forward, one step at a time, and if you do there are people to find peppered in the path you walk. We all find them eventually. The people who earn there place as a family by showing with there actions that they are. Just be mindful. Some assholes try to use such things to be manipulative too. 
NoriMori's avatar
I still think about this all the time. It boggles my mind that any parent can be so callous towards their own child, and seemingly without even realizing it.
cwilson221's avatar
I'm so sorry this has happened to you, it's just not right :(
GarrettRS's avatar
Wow, very powerful.

I saw this on Instagram and I thought I recognized the style as yours.  They took off the end (the most powerful part no less) and put in an add.

I thought you'd want to know. 
WhitePedal25's avatar
I'm so sorry they put you through that, I hope you're doing better now.
daisyperez0954's avatar
The one thing that your dad didn't pay is your creativity.

Sometimes speaking out comes in many ways. If they can't see or hear the meaning then it's their fault.
kazumikikuchi's avatar
At least you are better than them right now.
Catscratch809's avatar
This is outright disgraceful of a parent to do

I believe it's possible for you to be able to report your mom and take this to court. She doesn't have the right to not let you see your father, and she doesn't have the right in saying and making you feel like you're no longer part of the family
Pagewolf's avatar
This can't be looked down upon. I would like to hug you.
By the way, you have great skills as an artist.
Marchwiu's avatar
I have no words to describe it. The best work I've seen in dA. 

It's unfortunate what your family life looks like, but I believe that a person with such an amazing talent as yours has a clever look at the world and can deal with this situation. Whatever you decide, I keep my fingers crossed for you! 
perfectbright's avatar
woow, that was really great, too sad but too realistic, i love it!! 

I think Christ is the only way to get a happy family (the real christ) 
doobbledobble's avatar
Hey if you ever need anyone to talk to about literally anything. You can always let me k ow. My mom left when I was 2 and I have no memory of her. I'm 23 now and she hasn't bothered to find me on Facebook or anything. I've struggled a lot. Not the same way you have. But I definitely know what hardship feels like. And who knows. An extra friend could save my life one day :D
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goldenlucario1's avatar
I'm sorry.....
I don't think writing a cheap Deviantart comment will help you in any way, or comfort you. I've been through a divorce situation too, but my life has been very good (despite that), and I can't understand that big amount of pain and disappointment you had (have) to face-
but I will pray for you.
And thank you for posting your lovely art- so many people love to look at it and admire it- even if it's (only) online--- it's still a great joy!
Thank you, yuumei!
(I especially love the city-at-night paintings- absolutely gorgeous!!)
Wolfs rain howl 
YangXiaoFan457's avatar
Sometimes I wonder if your parents, especially your mother has seen the beautiful art you create and the money you make from it. I am curious about how they feel about that now.
AmberArt212's avatar
They have no heart for art. 
AmberArt212's avatar
Do you really believe egoistic people like that running solely after money would "understand" art???
kazumikikuchi's avatar
exactly those are the types of parents who don't really give a shit about their children.
gellyrollmonster's avatar
This just hit home pretty hard....fuck... ;_;
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