****I just wanted to add a small edit!
Since I mentioned the anime "Free!" and how my friend
introduced me to the series, I thought I'd give a little shout out to her and her written works!
She has her own DA site of course, but you can also find newer stories on the site "Archive of Our Own" as seen here: archiveofourown.org/users/SamC…
. I've enjoyed her Yu-Gi-Oh related works in the past, and I'm looking forward to checking out some of her Free! stories soon myself! If you're a fan of any of the series that she pens for, be sure to check them out! You won't be disappointed!
How are you? I hope that you're doing well! It's been a long time hasn't it?
Much too long...
I apologize for being away, but alas, real life has been hectic as of late.
Work continues to be stressful at times, and I fear that it'll become even more chaotic in the near future.... >< Aside from that, I've been helping my in-laws, who are about to move into a new home. I've continued to try to help my husband
with his endeavors, and I suppose our biggest challenge is right around the corner....
I know I've briefly spoken about my husband and I trying to have a family, actually for quite some time now... But unfortunately that has yet to come to pass.
And so, we decided to bite the bullet, and move forward with medical assistance. We tried this, to a lesser extent, last summer. But again, to no avail. But this time, we're ready to jump right in! It's all or nothing! The downside of it all, is that the medications and especially the related procedures are VERY expensive.... Because of that, it was rather difficult to acquire the funds...
But I think we're just about ready to begin, maybe as early as next week even!
I'm feeling a lot of different things in regards to it though... Excited, anxious, a little scared, and also a little worried that I'll be disappointed yet again; after so many disappointments so far.
But I'm going to try to be as optimistic as I can be, and hopefully in the coming months, I'll have some good news to share!
Please please *please* wish us luck everyone! Thank you so so much!
As I said in my last journal, things have stabilized a bit with my family, especially after the tragedies of last year.
It was a trying time, and though there's still sadness, even now, I think it brought us a little bit closer in a way.... At least I'd like to think so.... Once more, I thank you all for your encouragement and your incredibly kind words during that time. I know I said it before, but it really did mean a lot to me. I still love Deviantart, even if I'm not as active as I once was, and I still consider many of you wonderful friends! No matter what, I hope you never doubt that!
In recent weeks, I have been making more of an effort to frequent the site. I was soooooooo incredibly behind on messages though!
I still have some catching up to do, even now, but I am FINALLY starting to get caught up! About time, huh?
And again, I'll try to be around some more if I can be. I really don't want to lose touch with all of you, or get as backlogged as I did!
In terms of my own creative process, it seems that I've slowed down quite a bit, especially in the last several months, and years even... It's a shame, but I find that I just don't have as much time as I used to. Admittedly the job I had back in 2015, which I had for over a decade, allowed me much *much* more time to work on art! And to be fair, that was also before I was married!
Now I find that I really need to consider where to go from here....
Truth be told, the older I get the more discouraged I become... I guess I can say that when I was younger, I always thought that I'd be able to do *something* more with my artwork, something that would give me a sense of accomplishment. But then I wanted to do art work for fun too, artwork that I could share with all of you! Artwork in which I could express my love for things like Sailor Moon, or Yu-Gi-Oh or anything else that left a little hand print on my heart.
I found that I flip flopped quite a bit on that, and time continued to pass me by.... Now I wonder if I ever will do more with my work, or if I should just accept that I won't, and do art solely for enjoyment. Not that I'm saying that's a bad thing or anything! Please don't misunderstand me! I guess I just put a lot of expectation on myself, and I think back to when I was in art school, and my teachers were SO sure that I was going to be some famous artist or what not.... Maybe I just didn't have the drive. I don't know.... It's something I've been thinking about a lot lately, I suppose. Especially when I see my husband still trying to pursue art professionally. I guess at the end of the day, I was never able to find my niche, something I REALLY wanted to do; a dream that I had to accomplish no matter what....
I know they say it's never too late, but maybe I am just suppose to do art for enjoyment and for sharing. I always did love discussing my works with all of you, and attending conventions, though I wonder if I'd be considered too old for that now.... I wasn't able to attend any events in recent years either, due to rejection and not having a new series of works to display. It was pretty discouraging....
<SIGH>.... Sorry to go on everyone. I guess this is one of the reasons I've been slow in creating lately. I've always known that I loved doing fan art and related works, but in truth sometimes I feel guilty doing it, like I'm letting people down by not doing more. Sometimes I try to motivate myself. I look at art tutorials on occasion (a little shout out to Proko, on youtube, which teaches a lot about art www.youtube.com/user/ProkoTV
) I tried taking a local art class to try to better my technique (but to no avail) and I even tried taking some online art classes on sites like www.udemy.com/
. I guess I was at least looking for a way to get really excited about art again. Find some kind of new level, or have an epiphany that would make me want to draw non-stop again! Whether it was fan art or not. Maybe I should just go with the flow and just draw what I want to draw... Or maybe I'll have a little girl or boy someday and they'll want to be an artist themselves. Heh, of course I won't force them to, but if that is something that interests them, maybe I can help them build the confidence that I never had growing up... Who knows?
Anyways, anyways! I do still have some upcoming works that I hope to do, even if they are just for fun!
I'll keep mum about a few of them, but I hope to get on the ball really soon! Oh! I will saw that I've sampled some new anime in recent months that I've enjoyed! I began watching Ancient Magus Bride, which I still need to finish, I LOVED the film "Your Name," I started "Your Lie in April," a little while ago, and most recently, I watched the first two seasons of "Free!" which was recommended by my good friend,
. I have to say! I didn't expect to enjoy that series so much, but it was definitely heart warming and the animation quality was just beautiful! Wow! I only have good things to say about it, all the way down to the gorgeous soundtrack!
I know a lot of people know it as the "swimming" anime, but really, it was more about the bonds of friendship, and following your dreams. It may seem cliche, but how it was presented made my heart melt a little, which hasn't happened in a long long time.... If you haven't seen it, check it out! Surely there's a lot of fan service, with the men's defined muscle tone, but even if the art hadn't been as good, the story was well worth it, I'd say! Especially in season 2!
It seems like I lucked out with my timing, since season 3 premieres tomorrow (7/11/18)!
I'll be looking forward to it for sure!