How did this happen? Saskia was too stunned to move. Too stunned to speak. There was blood. So, so much blood.
But what shook her the most...was watching Colleen drowning in her own pool of blood.
Not again. I don’t want to see this again.
Thoughts of Isabel and Farlan littered across her mind. How Farlan waved goodbye, how Isabel called for Levi before she was brutally cut off.
Why do I always lose all the ones I care about? Why?
And now, the experience, the tormenting thoughts...it was starting to resurface; only this time, it was Colleen’s turn.
“I’ll never forget the day we met,” Colleen had smiled kindly at Saskia that day, “And whatever it may be: fate, god, or perhaps it was only a mere coincidence...I’m glad that we did.”
She was always there. Always.
And now...she’s just going to disappear?
“I don’t think we’ll ever know what happens next. But I believe that everything happens for a reason.”
She remembered coming to Colleen the day after Levi arrived.
“He’s going have the work cut out for the Survey Corps, don’t you think?”
Colleen smiled sheepishly, gesturing for Saskia to come sit. The green-eyed female complied, and Colleen began combing through the soft dark locks.
“Perhaps. But who knows? He could be the one you spend the rest of your life with.” The comment was so blunt, so innocent, so teasing, that Saskia momentarily lost her voice.
“You guys are different, but similar. It’s just a feeling, but I sense a strong connection between you two.”
“Erwin will have your head if he heard that.”
“I won’t argue with that fact,” Colleen’s laugh was akin to the twinkling of stars as she continued. “He does always approach things logically.”
“And are you saying that’s a bad thing?” Saskia asked, turning in her chair to eye the blue-eyed female.
“Not at all,” Colleen had just finished with the braid, tying it with a ribbon produced from her own pocket. “I’m just saying that there’s some things that can’t be explained with logic. And one of those things...is love.”
I never knew how strongly those words would resonate with me now.
But that doesn’t mean I wanted to say goodbye.
Colleen didn’t believe in goodbyes. And recalling now, Saskia had never once heard her utter a farewell.
“I’ll see you later, Saskia.”
Saskia woke up with a start, but firm hands kept her from sitting up.
“Thank god you’re awake. You were thrashing and crying in your sleep; I thought you might be having a seizure.”
“Levi…” Green eyes met steel orbs, and she knew reality had been pulled back to her. It was only a dream...or rather, a memory.
“Did you have a nightmare?”
“No, it was…” she trailed off, but Levi seemed to pick up on her thoughts.
“Was it about Colleen again?”
She could only nod.
Levi sighs and sits up, pulling Saskia into his lap. His arms fold over her, and he rests his head on top of her head.
“I didn’t get the chance to become acquainted with Colleen properly, but I do respect her,” he starts, “We talked once, maybe twice, but from those two meetings, I knew she wasn’t a shithead like the rest of the Corps.”
Saskia lets out a bitter laugh. How Levi-like to make her feel better by being himself. But his next words almost made her heart stop.
“The last I talked to her, she asked me to watch over you.”
“Let me finish.” Levi cuts Saskia off, turning her in his lap so that she would look him in the eye. “She asked me to do that, but only if I watched over you out of pure genuity. If not, she asked that I ignore her request.”
“You can put two and two together.” his eyes meant that nothing more needed to be said. That she had already confirmed it, that he had confirmed it. “She was in our life for a reason. Don’t forget that.”
Saskia nods, and Levi lays them both down on the cold sheets, where moonlight peeks through. She can see her eyes reflected in his, and he can see his in hers.
You were right, Colleen. Thank you...for bringing us together.
“So on the off-chance that we do become a couple, shall we propose a bet?”
“I don’t gamble when it comes to the game of love,” Colleen winked teasingly, but she seemed sure about something. “However, should you two come together…
...I can say intuition won over logic, yes?”
It looks like you lost to Colleen before the bet could even be proposed, Brother.
Even in death, Colleen smiled. In death, she looked at peace.
Levi and I too...we will not let Colleen die. We will...prove you wrong.
And standing a little aways from all that bloodshed…
So please. Keep on watching over us, wherever you are.