So, wow ok. Nothing creepy or anything guys. But just something I really need to get off my chest.
Many of you have probably noticed that I have been away for a long long time. Many of you also probably didn't.
For a while I was afraid of logging in to DA because I thought I had let people down. But I didn't, so that's a good thing I guess.
I joined DA because I wanted to share the things I drew. For many years drawing was an outlet, a way to get away from normal life and I enjoyed it.
Joining DA was either the best decision I'd made, or the worst one. Positive feedback and people I met made me feel better. Seeing other artwork set a sort of bar, driving me to try extra hard, getting better at drawing all together. I see this as a good thing.
However, for me there got a turning point at where I started drawing things, not for myself anymore, but because others expected me to. After a while I found myself almost unable to draw something random for myself anymore because that said drawing would get much less attention than the rest of the popular categories. And I'm not blaming anyone here. let me be clear on that.
The consequence for me was that I felt unsure about drawing my own things, to the point of not even trying anymore.
I was thinking about closing this account, but I might regret that later. Besides what if I start an new account? I would have no idea for an username anyway.
Maybe locking all of my deviations and start anew. However don't you hate it when you have stuff favourited and you can't see it anymore because the artist has locked it? I hate that x:
Also did you know I'm really not good at writing coherent stories? I blame my brain.
I'll decide on what to do later this week probably. I have to focus on 2 test first..