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Waiting

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Waiting

If you would face me, If you would venture into the shadows, You would find me there, waiting. I am with you wherever you go. You try to run, to hide from my stares, Yet I'm always trailing you, watching you, waiting. You avoid me as a cat does water. You are afraid of me like a bird caught in a storm, Because you know that I'm here in the shadows, waiting. I slither throughout your mind like a snake, Creeping, crawling, climbing toward you Yet frightened you turn away, but I'm still here waiting. I am a black mark on your purity. A worm in a fresh apple. So until you face me I'll be here, waiting.

A Key but No Opening

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A Key but No Opening

A piano without any keys to press, A song without a singer, A spotlight with no focus, A pitch perfect performance but no audience, A single solid storm cloud yet not a drop of rain, A lovers touch that is never enough, A pregnant woman's hunger as untamed as a beasts, A strict parents ever-expanding expectations, A teacher but no students, A mother's dreams for her children, A sinner crying for forgiveness like a man convicted, An addict's craving for his next fix, A wallet with no money, A beach on a stormy day, A child with a box full of toys but nothing to do, A hive without any bees, A question without an answer, A scientists endless cu

The Hidden Reason

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The Hidden Reason

She spends all her nights crying, As she is tired of the constant lying, Each time only speeding up the process of her dying. He is called faggot and gay, Yes this is what he hears everyday, And now in his suicide note, he has something to say. "I am what I am, I was what I was, and all I ever asked was to be accepted." She's pushed to the limits everyday Forced to sell herself so she can make ends pay No one understands she has to make her money so not herself but her baby brother can last another day. Not only is he beaten but tired and defeated, His only thoughts are "Why am I still living?" As he's about to pull the trigger he

What's the point?

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What's the point?

What's the point of singing a song if you're singing it wrong? What's the point of writing if no one reads it? What's the point of talking if no one is listening? What's the point of listening if you don't know what you're listening to? What's the point of saying, "I love you", than taking it back? What's the point of arguing over nothing important? What's the point of your opinion if no one thinks it's true? What's the point of a fact when everyone has their own opinion? What's the point of staying when everyone wants me gone? What's the point of leaving when no one will even notice? What's the point in having questions with no ans

House of Strangers

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House of Strangers

In this house I am a prisoner In this house I am forced to tell my story I am stuck in a place where I've lost myself I can barely recognize myself. I promised I wouldn't change I said I refuse for my life to be rearranged These strangers welcomed me with open arms Although all I can think is what if they mean me harm? After what brought me here I have an ever growing fear That someone will look at me I'm afraid they'll read me like a book I don't want them to see that side of me They took me to a court room to finalize the work That's when the judge asks me to tell how my life turned into a nightmare. I shudder and shake and t

Why

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Why

Everything I do is stained by you After you sent me away I was in pain for days Nothing seemed wirth while I felt as if I'd died You left me to fight the night alone Yes you left me to die but now I see why. I see why I was left in my tears I, standing alone, am here to fight my fears Now I realize after sitting here for years Through all the hurt and all the pain You're the reason I'm going insane. I'm turning inside out, letting my feelings sprout They grew to the size of heaven's gates Inside, I know it's much too late Too late to go back and change I realize it wasn't me, you just coudln't accept the truth I'd do anything f

Fall

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Fall

I sit here and gaze at the moon and the stars I sit here and a stray leaf catches my eye I watch it as it hangs on to the branch for dear life Just like I do. I imagine myself as that leaf yearning to be accepted But as the leaf falls to the ground I feel myself falling as it I feel the neglect of something to hold on to Something to keep me focused on. I than watch how the wind comes and throws the leaf around The leaf has no say and just takes it Just as I take the taunting, and mocking that comes everyday Why, Why couldn't the leaf just hold on for a bit longer? Why, why can't one person just accept me Than you came along and

The Ending Point

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The Ending Point

She grabs her teddy bear and holds on tight As she cries herself to sleep everynight She tries to block the noise, to ignore her emotions being thrown around like broken toys She thinks why, why isn't she good enough Why does her life have to be so tough? She just wants one person to see behind her smile She yearns for someone to understand and is tired of people and their fake sympathy She goes to school to get away from home, she goes home to get away from school She never gets a break. She tries to reach out for help but more fake symapthy is all she gets She is never understood She has no one and she thinks of what would she ha

My Heart

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My Heart

MY HEART My heart is yours. You owned if from the start, I just can't believe you would, have been the one to make it fall apart. I trusted you, you know. Was it because I moved too slow for you? I just don't think I'll be able to let go, of all we had left to show. I thought you'd be my knight in shining armor. I thought you'd be the last to call me yours. I thought our love was to be forever. I thought wrong didn't I? You're just another fake, Another frog, Another thing to add to the list of Mister Wrong. You never loved me did you? Sad part is thats probably true. Now that I think of it maybe this isn't the end, We coul

Dizzy

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Dizzy

DIZZY My heart skips beats, My actions are not mine but their own. My mind spins out of sanity. My soul wishes to be important to you. I wish you could see me as I am. I wish for you to realize how much I feel for you. I wish for me to be your lover. I wish for us to become one. Why can you not see it's killing me? Why do you not see what all we could be? Why can you not accept me for me? Why do you not realize I love you? I cannot explain how much I'm inlove with you, Yet you won't take me to be yours. Explaining why I'm inlove with you is like, Trying to explain how water tastes, impossible. I love you so much. Do you feel
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Waiting

W

Waiting

If you would face me, If you would venture into the shadows, You would find me there, waiting. I am with you wherever you go. You try to run, to hide from my stares, Yet I'm always trailing you, watching you, waiting. You avoid me as a cat does water. You are afraid of me like a bird caught in a storm, Because you know that I'm here in the shadows, waiting. I slither throughout your mind like a snake, Creeping, crawling, climbing toward you Yet frightened you turn away, but I'm still here waiting. I am a black mark on your purity. A worm in a fresh apple. So until you face me I'll be here, waiting.

A Key but No Opening

A

A Key but No Opening

A piano without any keys to press, A song without a singer, A spotlight with no focus, A pitch perfect performance but no audience, A single solid storm cloud yet not a drop of rain, A lovers touch that is never enough, A pregnant woman's hunger as untamed as a beasts, A strict parents ever-expanding expectations, A teacher but no students, A mother's dreams for her children, A sinner crying for forgiveness like a man convicted, An addict's craving for his next fix, A wallet with no money, A beach on a stormy day, A child with a box full of toys but nothing to do, A hive without any bees, A question without an answer, A scientists endless cu

The Hidden Reason

T

The Hidden Reason

She spends all her nights crying, As she is tired of the constant lying, Each time only speeding up the process of her dying. He is called faggot and gay, Yes this is what he hears everyday, And now in his suicide note, he has something to say. "I am what I am, I was what I was, and all I ever asked was to be accepted." She's pushed to the limits everyday Forced to sell herself so she can make ends pay No one understands she has to make her money so not herself but her baby brother can last another day. Not only is he beaten but tired and defeated, His only thoughts are "Why am I still living?" As he's about to pull the trigger he

What's the point?

W

What's the point?

What's the point of singing a song if you're singing it wrong? What's the point of writing if no one reads it? What's the point of talking if no one is listening? What's the point of listening if you don't know what you're listening to? What's the point of saying, "I love you", than taking it back? What's the point of arguing over nothing important? What's the point of your opinion if no one thinks it's true? What's the point of a fact when everyone has their own opinion? What's the point of staying when everyone wants me gone? What's the point of leaving when no one will even notice? What's the point in having questions with no ans

House of Strangers

H

House of Strangers

In this house I am a prisoner In this house I am forced to tell my story I am stuck in a place where I've lost myself I can barely recognize myself. I promised I wouldn't change I said I refuse for my life to be rearranged These strangers welcomed me with open arms Although all I can think is what if they mean me harm? After what brought me here I have an ever growing fear That someone will look at me I'm afraid they'll read me like a book I don't want them to see that side of me They took me to a court room to finalize the work That's when the judge asks me to tell how my life turned into a nightmare. I shudder and shake and t

Why

W

Why

Everything I do is stained by you After you sent me away I was in pain for days Nothing seemed wirth while I felt as if I'd died You left me to fight the night alone Yes you left me to die but now I see why. I see why I was left in my tears I, standing alone, am here to fight my fears Now I realize after sitting here for years Through all the hurt and all the pain You're the reason I'm going insane. I'm turning inside out, letting my feelings sprout They grew to the size of heaven's gates Inside, I know it's much too late Too late to go back and change I realize it wasn't me, you just coudln't accept the truth I'd do anything f

Fall

F

Fall

I sit here and gaze at the moon and the stars I sit here and a stray leaf catches my eye I watch it as it hangs on to the branch for dear life Just like I do. I imagine myself as that leaf yearning to be accepted But as the leaf falls to the ground I feel myself falling as it I feel the neglect of something to hold on to Something to keep me focused on. I than watch how the wind comes and throws the leaf around The leaf has no say and just takes it Just as I take the taunting, and mocking that comes everyday Why, Why couldn't the leaf just hold on for a bit longer? Why, why can't one person just accept me Than you came along and

The Ending Point

T

The Ending Point

She grabs her teddy bear and holds on tight As she cries herself to sleep everynight She tries to block the noise, to ignore her emotions being thrown around like broken toys She thinks why, why isn't she good enough Why does her life have to be so tough? She just wants one person to see behind her smile She yearns for someone to understand and is tired of people and their fake sympathy She goes to school to get away from home, she goes home to get away from school She never gets a break. She tries to reach out for help but more fake symapthy is all she gets She is never understood She has no one and she thinks of what would she ha

My Heart

M

My Heart

MY HEART My heart is yours. You owned if from the start, I just can't believe you would, have been the one to make it fall apart. I trusted you, you know. Was it because I moved too slow for you? I just don't think I'll be able to let go, of all we had left to show. I thought you'd be my knight in shining armor. I thought you'd be the last to call me yours. I thought our love was to be forever. I thought wrong didn't I? You're just another fake, Another frog, Another thing to add to the list of Mister Wrong. You never loved me did you? Sad part is thats probably true. Now that I think of it maybe this isn't the end, We coul

Dizzy

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Dizzy

DIZZY My heart skips beats, My actions are not mine but their own. My mind spins out of sanity. My soul wishes to be important to you. I wish you could see me as I am. I wish for you to realize how much I feel for you. I wish for me to be your lover. I wish for us to become one. Why can you not see it's killing me? Why do you not see what all we could be? Why can you not accept me for me? Why do you not realize I love you? I cannot explain how much I'm inlove with you, Yet you won't take me to be yours. Explaining why I'm inlove with you is like, Trying to explain how water tastes, impossible. I love you so much. Do you feel
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My Bio
I'm your regular typical teenage girl. I complain (sometimes too much), I have mood swings (not all caused by mother nature), and I'm uncomfortable with myself. But I am also shy, compassionate, and have a good personality.

Current Residence: B-town
Favourite genre of music: 80's
Favourite photographer: I can't remember his name
Favourite style of art: Photography
MP3 player of choice: mine.
Shell of choice: a turtle shell....lol
Skin of choice: huh?
Favourite cartoon character: Gir
Personal Quote: You no longer walk alone

Favourite Visual Artist
too many
Favourite Movies
Corpse Bride
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Black Veil brides
Favourite Games
Mario super bro's
Favourite Gaming Platform
um...........
Other Interests
Alot of things.

What am I doing so wrong?

What am I doing so wrong?

Why am I never good enough for anyone? I swear sometimes I'm just stuck. I'm only fricken human. Well journal alot has happened since we last talked so let's have a chat. I'll give you the short version. My friends who had the boyfriend I had a crush on? They broke up, we dated, broke up. She dated one of my exes broke up and I'm dating him again. The journal has been gone since now we're in high school. Freshman to be exact. And it's hard to keep it going. Also I'm done trying to live up to everyone's expectations. I try so hard to please everyone that I rarely, if ever, get to please myself. Maybe it's because I'm just too much of a nice pe

Journal

Journal

Dear journal, I have finally finished a poem. Although it wasn't the poem I planned on finishing a poem is still a poem. I know all things considered it isn't one of my better ones but I like it so I'm going to put it up here hoping to get some feedback. All my friends and me are good again. The one who complains about never getting a boyfriend has one but the bad thing is......I am starting to develop a crush on her boyfriend. I don't think they'll last long though no offense. My other friend is grounding from seeing her fiance. I feel bad for her. Than 3 of my closest friends and me have started a journal so we can learn more about each o

Devious Journal Entry

Devious Journal Entry

Dear journal,      I should be done with this poem I've been working on soon so that's good. Lately I've been saving alot of art and I thank all the awesome people who make such wonderful art.      Still single, but over everybody. I like no one right now and I am extremly proud of myself.      My emotions are more under control and I think I'm finally stable now.     Made a new friend and she is so awesome!!! Went to the movies with her last night & 2 other friends and we watched I Am Number Four. It is a kick-butt movie.   Not much to talk about this time.                                                                          

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