♥ I wonder..What's wrong with me? And all that surrounds me?
Last night I've seen a guy I liked and I just stared at him like a creep. He stared back...None dared to speak.
My friend behaved as we're a couple even though he knew I liked the guy in front.
Tried to find him on facebook -- failed.
That's a good thing, I'd have nothing to tell him.
Now my father broke one of 4654651416 plants my mother had.
Tears, hysteria, curses, threats...Everyone is shouting, swearing at each other. I'm just lying in my bed, wishing I was dead.
And tomorrow it's school again. Last week. Theater practice daily. Christmas fair the council I belong to organizes. Two tests. The awful loneliness. I hate it.
From tomorrow on for three days I'll be eating rice only. Hoping to lose at least some more little weight. I can't face myself in the mirror. I'm so awful, so fat, so ugly. I don't deserve to live. ♥