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Literature
I've No Talent For Happiness
I've no talent for happiness
My smiles are frail at best
And though I try to remember
A time when I felt truly blessed
I can't 
And no matter how I try
There are always times 
When I can't help but cry,
Though even as they fall
I try to cradle the tears 
To see if I can find
Happiness beneath the fears
Reflected 
In these delicate crystals
Of hopeless memories...
But I've no talent for happiness
My heart never wholly mends
And though I dove so far
Dove until I reached the end
Of that vat of tears and miseries
I found only
More tears left to cry...
I've no talent for happiness
My soul cries endless seas
In which I try to drown
Myself and my memories,
But I think I once had it
The bliss you call happiness
And every now and then 
I feel it 
Rise to greet you
And attempt to shine 
From beneath my tears
So that you may know the truth
Of how you make me feel.
So I've no talent for happiness
My memories sometimes choke me
My hearts never wholly mends
My soul
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Literature
Wanna Trade?
Hey wanna trade?
I'll give you my heart
For your smile
They're both so pure 
So beautiful
I think its a fair trade.
Hey wanna trade?
I'll give my virginity
For your words
Both feel so sweet
Both make us happy
I thinks its a fair trade.
Hey wanna trade?
I'll give you my trust
For your lies
Both feel so true
Both feel so real
I thinks its a fair trade.
Hey wanna trade?
I'll give you my tears
For your devotion
Both feel so heavy 
Both feel so unwanted
By each of us
I think its a fair trade.
Hey wanna trade
I'll give you everything
For your heart
You already have two
Mine and yours.
Please?
I think its a fair trade.
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Literature
Humor
Humor is a drug,
it fills you with joy,
Better than a hug,
Or a brand new toy,
they laugh so hard they cry
they roll on thier backs
stand ups dont try
to make them p!ss their slacks
but humor is best all the same
so laugh a little bit
                      it's all a game
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Literature
Can you relate?
On the outside I'm unbreakable but inside I'm broken
On outside I'm comprahendable but inside I'm ill-spoken
On the outside I look good but inside I feel bad
On the outside I'm happy but on the inside I'm sad
On the outside  I'm sweet but inside I'm sour
On the outside I feel energetic but inside I have no power
On the outside I'm motivated but inside I lack all motivation
On the outside I'm determined but inside I've no determination
On the outside I'm sturdy but inside I'm tumbling
On the outside I'm strong but inside I'm crumbling
On the outside I'm laughing but inside I'm crying
On the outside I'm fine but inside I know I'm lying
On the outside I'm living but inside I'm dying
On the outside I'm joyful but inside I'm suppressed
On the outside I'm okay but inside I'm depressed
On the outside I'm happy but  inside I'm screaming
On the outside I seem optimistic but inside life has no meaning
Can anyone else empathise with how I am feeling?
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Literature
The Meaning of Suicide (Poem)

The days lived in sorrow
All compound at this time
With mercy at its end
Does life not seem sublime
Because the heart has been shattered
And with nothing does it heal
As emotions run rampant
As the being starts to keel
The pain is too much
And the future seems bleak
For us to carry forward
With our bodies so weak
One last escape
An enticing last action
That will end all your pain
With one simple impaction
Yet why go to such lengths?
As drastic as so
When the mind is encumbered
By Petty Earthly woes
Why give it all up?
When there is hope to be had
To continue on living
To no longer be sad
Because the pain is too much
And the future is so dark
With no hope for change
And a fate that's gone stark
Suicide is the option
For all those poor souls
Who have suffered the insufferable
And with hearts no longer whole
And in their tears as they leave
This world we all live
Does the dark blot out a light
With nothing left to give
For the world will not mourn you
Except the people who did care
Fo
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Literature
Three Words
Is it wrong to say, "I love you"
Having never known what it truly means
To love another individual, other than myself,
To feel the trickle of insanity
Flood from your flummoxed brain
Out your mouth in a stream of words
That you may regret in five seconds,
Not because they were negative,
But rather due
To the incomplete processing of information
That causes insecurity as to whether it was
Witty, stupid, or outright insane,
And whether in ten second if she will
Still be seated across the table.
Is it so wrong to be unable to imagine
A life that she does not exist
Commingled? That each breath
You long to take after each carefully crafted
Phrasing of words is not simply for me,
But rather just to express a mundane thought.
The idea that life is empty and infinite,
Filled with boundless opportunities
That I do not wish to bother with,
For I know there is one out of the
Infinite possibilities - specifically for me.
Is it really so wrong? I hope not,
But if it is, I long to be wrong
Infinitel
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Literature
I Love You So Much
I met you on the internet
Looking for friendship but I found more
Over time, we grew so much closer
Very quickly did I fall for you
Even though we live so far apart
You make me smile, laugh and even blush
Only you ever found the real me
Understanding, kind, gentle, loving
So now we move from our virtual world
Our wish?  To be together for real
My darling, I'll make you so happy
Unusual though our courtship was
Certain I am, of my love for you
Heart to heart, together forever
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Literature
Online Lover
Everyday when I come home
I lock myself up in my room
Turn on the screen and there you are
My online lover, near and far
On your page ten times a day
Searching for a perfect way
To tell the things deep down inside
Waiting to be undisguised
Never met you, I don't care
It still feels like a love affair
My mother says I waste my time
But loving you is not a crime
People know you in real life
Stabs my heart just like a knife
And I long to make you mine
Evermore till the end of time
But you are still far away
Leave me waiting for the day
To tell you what's inside my heart
So let's make this love story start
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Literature
Online Relationships
Although your face I have never seen
Your personality comes through so clean
You love rock, don't care for rap
And when it comes to romance, you're such a sap
But it hurts me to know, you're so far away
The words you speak, I'll never hear you say
Is it so wrong, to love a computer screen?
It's not as bizarre as it seems
Because you've made me laugh, cry, smile, and ponder
It only made my love for you grow fonder
And although I'm sitting here alone, staring at a minature TV
You're still here, right beside me
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Literature
psuedo
i would fuck you for the beauty of two
bodies falling in love with hearts screaming
/obscenities/
scene-scapes scrape nails across my skin like it's
a chalkboard and you're the artist but
i've seen you draw stick figures and i am so much more
you would fuck me for the sake of insanity and
among unsanitary wardrobes of forgotten costumes
you kiss me like a memory i never needed
the musty smell of regret brings back uneven stubble rasping
against my barricaded emotions of something between
disgust and desire
(we're both fucked because you have someone and i have ghosts
and we're so dysfunctional we're not even friends.)
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Literature
sic
sometimes, i can't contain my loneliness.
[sic]kness/six words
cannot articulate
this numbness i feel
and some nights:
i fall apart
and the rain
from my head
is a tsunami
that chokes me
from the nose
down.
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Literature
Why Can't You Love Me?
I have tried,
and tried,
and tried to fit into your definition of perfection.
slowly but surely,
in doing so, I have lost myself.
among the fragments of my personality,
are the “qualities” you want in me.
my smile no longer touches my eyes,
I’ve lost my laugh
you’ve drowned the fire in my heart.
I am not perfect to you, but you are perfect to me.
The hours I waste thinking about you,
trying to imagine,
filling in the blanks,
trying to guess the endless mysterious questions
you refuse to answer.
Like a locked chest where the key is buried,
buried with the rest of those women you broke.
But all they wanted was you,
all of you,
even your flaws and your passionate temper.
but you used them, to feed your cracked and dishevelled ego.
and in holding on to you, they lost their sense of self,
I have now fallen a hapless victim, and by God I wish I had never met you.
never did I think that one day I’d be staring up at my ceiling,
3.13am
blanket on top of me but stil
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Literature
The Human Body
The human body is a wonderful thing
How abstract thoughts and feelings
can manifest themselves
in an accelerated heartbeat
...
or how a song or poem can stir
something inside us
and raise the hairs on our arms
or how a few words spoken
from a special someone
can alter the colour of our cheeks
how pleased I am to be breathing...
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Literature
Depressed Friend (poem)
come closer dear,
for my hands are warm.
a comfort to your soul they'll be
as you wage this war
inside your mind.
a prison where there is no key.
come closer dear,
for my kisses will
heal your broken heart;
a sanctuary I'll be in your world
of despair and hate
I promise one day
your happiness will be great.
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Literature
Jack smells
There was a boy I knew,
His name was Jack.
I walked towards him
And I had to turn back.
His smell was so strong,
And I knew all along
I just didn't have the heart to tell him
He smelled so very wrong.
Now 7 months down the line
And nothing has changed.
His rotten cabbage smell
Still has me enraged.
Homeless men in the street
Smell better than he.
On his shirt I just found
A tiny little flea.
Inside his bathroom,
There lies a shower.
He seldom uses it;
He smells worse by the hour.
I really ought to tell him
His smell is offensive.
Doesn't he know
Soap ain't expensive!
But his personality is great
So at the end of he day.
After all he's put my poor nose through
I am here to stay.
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Literature
[SWS] Six word story - Lampshade
Quick! Turn it off!
Someone's coming...
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I have yet to write a new journal... it has been a very very long time indeedio!
And also, I was reading ALL of my old journal entries on this thing and BOY was I cray cray! Jesus Christ! well things have changed now, I'm definitely not that person anymore... maybe a little bit but for the most part, I have changed, and probably not for the best idk...

This year has been the worst year of my life, early in the year, only a couple months ago, I sank into the biggest depression yet, lost almost a stone in weight, couldn't keep any food down so I stopped eating, survived on 3 hours of sleep a night. if any year has tested my will to live, it's this year for sure. never thought I'd ever tell myself that I want to die, but that's passed now, thankfully. any more hardships in the future will have to be compared to this awful year, and it'll put things into perspective for me that things could be MUCH worse, which they were. I've learnt a lot this year too, about myself, about what I'm capable of, how strong I am, because I am still here typing this.

So anyway :D I finished my performing arts course! and I got a BBB grade in spite of what I was going through for a year and a half of this 2 year course, vewy vewy proud of maself! oh look, the old Sian's way of typing is creeping back HAHAHA oh dear!

Plus, I have met someone, not gonna say anything about who it is, but he is unlike any other person I have ever met, and I've not felt this way before about anyone.

And for the rest of this year I promise to work more on my book ;D

That's it for now :)

Seeya,
  • Listening to: please don't cut
  • Reading: what I just wrote
  • Drinking: coffee

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Sian
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United Kingdom

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Welcome to my page~ c:

~ My name is Sian, pronounced Shaan, emphasis on the "aa".
~ I'm eighteen, kekekeke~
~ I live in the rural country of Wales.
~ I love drawing, writing and music.
~ I'm an observer.
~ I am fluent in Welsh, English and I can hold a French conversation no problem.
~ I hardly ever fave things, so take it from me that if I faved your work, it's really good.
~ I would love to be an English teacher.
~ My english teacher once told me I have hidden depth, which made me happy. :3
~ I have a yearn to travel, France is on the list first.
~ I have brown hair, and teal eyes (so I've been told).
~ I may seem painfully shy at first, but give it a few and I'll be loud and then you'll regret sayin' anything. ;D
~ I am highly critical of myself, which is my worst habit.
~ I'm a huge worrier, and I hate it. >.>
~ Sleep deprivation helps me come up with strange yet-to-be-posted poems.
~ I'm a control freak; if I find something new out about myself, I feel obligated to write it down incase I forget. Or if I notice a change in my opinions or opinions then I'll write them down incase I lose myself.
~ I'm quite introverted as I've been told, I keep people at arms length which is unhealthy.
~ I'll only let the people I want; in.
~ I don't talk much, though I'd love to change that. :P
~ To people who don't know me, I seem impolite when really I'm just shy. D;
~ PROCRASTINATORS UNITE! ....tomorrow.

This dA isn't completely for drawing as I first set it out to be, this has poetry, photography, cosplay and self portraits, and I don't aim to be 'famous' as people on dA eventually become, this is completely and utterly because I love writing primarily.

[ ] single.
[ ] taken.
[x] married to the boy in the green tunic, the Hero chosen by the Goddesses.

REAL DA LIFE FRIENDS.
:iconsmoozyn::iconcolonelpudding::iconkirari-kitsune::icongezwaldo::iconteam-taka::iconuzumaki-1987: and more I cba listing them ;P

I may not have many friends, but the friends I do have, they're a tight-nit group; Sioned, Lyndsey, Glyn, aaaaand Ieuan.

"Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way when you criticize them, you are a mile away from them and you have their shoes."- Unknown

The higher you build the walls around your heart, the harder you fall when someone tears them down.
Never get your hopes up when it comes to love, you're only opening yourself up to dissapointment.
Expect the worst of everyone, so then, you'll never be hurt again.

Current Residence: The countryside that is Wales ^^;
Favourite genre of music: Rock, alternative rock, metal, j-pop, christian, electronica (Owl City) just generally music I can relate to.
Favourite photographer: Photographer? no idea, yet.
Favourite style of art: Any type c:
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: My Xperia X8
Shell of choice: Sea?
Skin of choice: Vampire... not the sparkly kind either.
Favourite cartoon character: Hinata, Haruhi Suzumiya, Mion Sonozaki and tons more.
Personal Quote: Everything is also more beautiful reflected in your eyes. - Azuzephre.
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:party: Happy Birthday!! :party:

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Happy birthday! :D
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