I wish I could erase them,
The memories of you, of us.
Not that there ever really was an us,
But over time my feelings grew,
And I kept them hidden along with the memories.
No one will ever truly know,
Know about us,
Know about my feelings,
Know about the memories,
That we shared together.
I try not to love you,
And yet my feelings can't help it
You will never know my true feelings,
Nor will you ever read this so,
I don't even understand
why I'm doing this anymore.
Pain only brings darkness,
Makes me want to end it all.
Give in and give up.
I doubt.. I doubt anyone would notice.
Even if they say it would be.. I feel no one would miss such a girl as I.
I am not worthy of love,
I am not deserving of it,
I don't even know what love is anymore.
I want to erase it all, every memory of every person who hurt me..
Then...disappear myself.. Into the void darkness of the shadows.