I've done and said a lot of things about a year ago, and maybe a year before that. I don't make promises, I just tell myself and other people things that seem ideal at that given moment, and before I know it, I'm off and onto other things. Over the past year, I underwent major surgery and had a massive ~5 lb tumor removed - along with my uterus. I suffered from severe anemia for a long time because of that, and now that I'm tumor- and uterus-free, and fully recovered, I've had energy like I've never had before.
I'm way more productive nowadays, but my real life comes first before I really bother with anything online. I haven't forgotten the game, but nothing's really changed as far as it goes being on the back-burner. I don't really know anyone who would be interested in discussing the game and character-development, and one of the most inspiring things for me is to talk to someone about Creepypasta things and what inspired me to make the game in the first place. It's the journey and character development, and exploring themes and facets of popular creations in Creepypasta that haven't been totally explored before, I feel. It's not a fanservice otome. It's something that's meant to be explored along with exploring yourself, in a way. Immersion.
...But, it's hard to think about things like that when I don't really have anyone to enthuse with or deeply discuss these kinds of things. Besides, I'm more worried about carving out a future for myself currently, given how shaky things have been with my circumstances, and I'm finally taking the reins into my hands. I've been staying off social websites like this one and Tumblr, and I've been feeling freer, more positive, and unhampered - though, I haven't had much inspiration to draw. I don't really have a muse, per se, but I've been digging into old inspirations like Homestuck and OC's to help me get back in the mood. I definitely want to draw more Creepypasta stuff, too. I'm not involved with the CP community the way I used to be, but I like it that way. I like being in the background, it gives me more space and freedom to think and do what I like.
If there's anything I know based on personal observation, it's that the CP community is a mean one full of toe-biters, particularly when it comes to dA. dA is a lot like a tar pit, and I've watched many talented artists get a lot of hate or pressure for their own inspired characters and stories before sinking, sinking, then suddenly vanishing from all that weight. Not gonna lie, the circle of hatred on dA baffles me. Like, if I ever wind up getting as much hate as other artists have for their characters and stories... I am half-tempted to just save everything for a personal album, maybe. Something to giggle at, because I really don't understand any of it.
...Well, that wandered off fast! ovo Still, I'm happy to just be writing about something. Hope all is well for anyone who reads this!