XoShadyBaby22oX

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Value of a Smile by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Value of a Smile

There's no way to determine the value of a smile- no guidelines, no charts, nothing kept on file. Whether it glitters, or glistens, or even gleams; what matters most is how it came to be. Giving someone a hug when they have a bad day, a compliment when their self-esteem begins to decay, or even a simple gift- significant but small- is the best way for a smile to break someone's fall. Expect nothing back, but delight across their face, a sign of appreciation, a tender embrace. For when needed most, those people will be there to give back the smile you willingly helped them wear. It's the time from you day and a piece from your hear

Your Story by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Your Story

I read your story every night, and hope that you are near. I rip out the pages, but my intentions are truly sincere. You left without notice, you left without warning; And you weren't there when I woke up in the morning. All the questions that you left behind, And the answers that won't unwind; I still can't believe that you left me all alone Without the courage to even answer your phone. You always told me that you planned on leaving her, But for how arrogant you are, I knew you would defer. For years, I went along, and believed every word. I lost hope; I gave up; our relationship was absurd. I will never forgive you for all that

I Quit by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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I Quit

Never mind. It doesn't matter. I'm sorry. It's not your fault…it's mine. But let's be honest, there's got to be another way out. Even if there was, I'd probably stay behind where it's safe. Don't touch me. Just leave me alone. I'm sorry; I just can't do this, But that alone won't keep me from doing it. Look- I give up! It's not that I don't want to go, I just can't. I'm scared. Don't make me. You're going to make me, aren't you? You were right. I'm sorry. You win. I quit.

Make A Wish by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

Your Bullet, My Vest by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Your Bullet, My Vest

This is me versus you, and I’m wearing a bulletproof vest. I’m protecting my heart, burying it deep within my chest. Your finger is on the trigger and the pressure is increasing. Just get this over with, the anticipation just isn’t ceasing. The bullet shoots out of the gun, which is aimed at my heart. Taking heartbreak to a whole new level, the newest form of art. It’s too late to run and it’s too late to beg you to hold fire. This is you versus me, and I’m taking off my bulletproof attire.

Familiar Friend of Mine by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Familiar Friend of Mine

I can still recall a time before you, When misery was a familiar friend of mine. Now I’m feeling something that I never knew. I’m smiling, I’m happy, everything’s just fine. You’re the only person I can look straight in the eyes And feel like nothing else in the world means a thing. You make me smile, no matter what color skies This chaos of a world decides to bring. I promise on every cliché in the book That I’ve never felt this way before. You turn to me and give me that look Like you don’t want me to walk out the door. My heart skips a beat when you walk in the room, Yet my breath is cal

Maybe One Day by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Maybe One Day

If you love someone, let them go. Push them away, so their location, you won’t know. But never say good-bye; someday they may return With open arms, and realize their concern. They may regret having feared the possibility, Seek forgiveness, and take responsibility. Maybe one day, they will see just how much They love you. If you love someone, let them go. Push them away, so their location, you won’t know. The truth can’t be undone; spare yourself the pain Of realization, that they may not remain. They may not discern it necessary to regress, And just may find that it was all meaningless. Maybe one day, they will r

Close To His Heart by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Close To His Heart

Not a minute goes by that I can say I don’t miss him, Because each second gets harder than the last. Each night as my head sinks deep into my pillow I know the nostalgia of him will soon surpass. Like the sun warming my back on a warm summer day, I can feel his breath on my neck like the summer breeze. Just the way he holds me secure against his chest If only those moments, we could forever sieze. And all the nights I remember being close to his heart I can hear the tempo, speeding up every time we breathe in sync. Every morning that I wake, I reach to the other side of the bed. He was once there, and I can’t help but let

Never Quit by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Never Quit

The adrenaline rush, the breaking of the skin- It’s an addiction, and I give up, I’m giving in. This self-loathing is no longer evanescent It’s become a habit, and a clinical depressant There’s no longer periods of temporary content, Just moments of waiting for the next sadistic lament. It’s a time of recovery, so the body can prepare For its next means of torture and erotic despair. Destruction is overdosing, chemical abuse, Burning your skin with a flame you produce. Self-destruction is using your nails, instead of a blade, To dig under the scars that just started to fade. Holding your breath until your

Ghost of an Angel by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Ghost of an Angel

I was born into a world in which I was already dead with virus and disease attached to my DNA thread. Murder me slowly, because my day is going to come when the ghost of an angel will make my body numb. And the day she arrives, I will know why she came. I will remember her face and call her by name. She has known of me and of my many generations who suffered from the same hereditary complications. Each life that is born is just a risk higher than before to the point that birth is just the same as murder anymore. There’s no longer a hope in escaping the fate I was assigned, because no matter where I hide, my angel will still fi

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Value of a Smile by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Value of a Smile

Your Story by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Your Story

I Quit by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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I Quit

Your Words by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Your Words

You put my life on a whole new degree// When I'm six feet under I can still see// That even the most beautiful day has its sunset// Even the happiest little girl has her upset// Even the brightest star begins to fade// Even the most courageous man is afraid// Even the biggest heart stops beating// Even the strapping flames stop heating// Even the most confident has their insecurities// Even the most undeveloped go through maturity// Even the scariest nightmare is eventually awaken// Even the most crowded city is forsaken// Even the most luxurious item dies in value// Even the smartest person has no clue// Even the most perfect r

Pretty Girl by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Pretty Girl

What happens when pretty girl falls down?/ When she takes a hit soo hard she cant get off the ground// When her best friend trades her in 4 some guy// When all she hears is lies// When her heart stops beating// When tensions begin heating// When no one wants 2 catch her// When no one understands her// When everyone is screaming// When she's left dreaming// When her make-up is smeared// When her conscience isn't cleared// When she's lost in the dark// When she can't find a spark// When her hair's a wreck// When she's sore at the neck// When she lay alone in her bed// When she wishes she were dead// When her life falls apart//

Family Divorce by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Family Divorce

Being born in this world, I was no one's little girl, Try as I might, Heart still broken every night, I'd lie in the dirt, Pretending to be hurt, So mom would come over, But I had a better chance of finding a four-leaf clover, Alone in a corner I hid, Staring at the other kids, Playful with a smile, That stretched for a mile, "Tag you're it!" As a boy touched my shoulder a bit, But I was too afraid, So on the ground I laid, Staring at the sky, It's all a lie, I'm the one and only, That's cold and lonely, Just a little child, Never reconciled, With family and friends, After all life's bends, Feeling little remorse, Abo

-No Title- by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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-No Title-

Footsteps on the street, Hearing my heat beat, Voices in my head, Screaming, "Why aren't u dead", Sounds of alarms, Red tears running down my arms, Flashing light, Body just got tight, Lifted in the air, Why so many stares? A sudden jerk, and we're moving fast, A strange man saying, "It might be her last." A young boy took my hand, "Don't leave, without you I won't stand!" So many sounds, World spinning 'round, "Take her to main base," What's this on my face? Trying to speak, Scared to peak, It was my fault, and my choice, Finally a familiar voice, "We're loosing her, Mister, Sir, Bring her back!" All went black A qu

Gone by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Gone

I shouldn't have to be the one, On my own, not having fun, I thought I found the one for me, But not after you set me free, (chorus 1) Now I no your gone... Don't leave me here, You disappeared, I cannot trust you anymore, I'm lyin, cryin on the floor, I don't know who I'm looking for, Yeah yeah ooo yeah I try to stand on my feet, But the thought of you makes me weak, I wish I had you in my arms, Telling me I've done no harm, (Chorus 1) You cannot make this all my fault, Your the one who called the halt, I can't bear to look you in the eyes, You're exactly like all the other guys, (chorus 2) Now don't 4get to say goodbye..

Friday Night by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Friday Night

It's another Friday night// Nothing but a street light// It's a lonely site// But still I struggle in a fight// I fight against my own life// A fight to avoid a knife// A fight to overcome a fear// A fight to hold back a tear// As people are dancing at clubs// Trading in their tickets stubs// Walking down the crowded streets// Sitting in the theatre seats// I sit on the solid curb// With not one disturb// Listening to a far distant talk// Legs and feet to weak to walk// I hear laughter of screams// My mind slowly begins to dream// Dream of a happy ending// Something I'm not comprehending// How could someone be so content?/

Cursed With This by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Cursed With This

Buried under all the lies, The only ones who listen, hear my cries, Drowning is my own puddle of tears, Just open your eyes and open your ears, You'll see reality, And that life is filled with brutality, You won't believe the truth, When I tell you how life is even when a youth, You'll wish it were all a nightmare, Then you wake up to find nothing there, But reality is here to stay, Haunts you in the day, Your life is cursed, You remember the worst, Never the best, 'Till the day you're put to rest, 'Till the day, God takes you away, The life is rough, You'll be a failure if you don't stay tough, You'll be bleeding on the s

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Neurocracy by XoShadyBaby22oX, literature

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Neurocracy

The other day I met a boy, who bled cold with lies. He told me that those who never live are better off when they die. At first I didn’t believe him, but then I began to think as the empty bottle shattered on the floor and my pills fell down the sink. And as they buzzed around the drain, dropping down one by one, His whisper haunting in my head. “You are not the sun,” He said, “You and I, my friend, we are not the sun, But empty vessels surrounded by the desert. Neurocracy!” he cried, “My friend, that is not a word, But you’d be surprised what you find when you dig down in the dirt.” My frie

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About XoShadyBaby22oX

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 17 years
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Current Residence: In My Pants, but what happens when I'm not wearing pants? hmmmm...
Favourite genre of music: EMO haha
Favourite cartoon character: Danny Phantom
Personal Quote: This is all that I've got, and it's not enough

Favourite Movies

The Notebook, Accepted, The Naked Mile, Let's Go To Prison, RENT

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Kill Hannah

Favourite Writers

William Shakespeare and Edgar Allen Poe

Other Interests

Writing, Singing, Playing Guitar, Music

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XoShadyBaby22oX

Oct 4, 2008

You See, No Beauty Could Have Come From Me.

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I'm a waste of breath, of space, of time... HELLO EVERYONE =) if you're still alive and interested in reading. I haven't been on here for most of the summer.  Alot has been happening, ups and downs, working on priorities. I'm officially all caught up on everyone's deviations, so I appoligize for the delay in comments. Better late than never. I hate to say it, but I think I've made a decision.  I think I'm only going to come on here like once a month, if that, and just do everything at once.  I may stop by real quick to submit a few things, but unfortunately I don't have the time to be on here alot. I've been so busy with school, my new ph

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XoShadyBaby22oX

Jun 28, 2008

This Is The First Day Of My Life

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Well well well...It's been awhile, hasn't it?  I know that nobody reads my journals anyway, but just in case anyone cares if I'm alive, I'm still here! Life is going fast but my writing is kinda slow.  I've discovered what I like to call "The Writing Spectrum" : Emotionless                 Hysterical I-----------------I------------------I Since I began writing, I always found myself dead in the middle of that line, which is the 'happy medium' in which a writer has enough emotion to know how he or she feels, but is not so hysterical that he or she can't place his thoughts in any logical order. Since roughly november, I was at the left end

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XoShadyBaby22oX

Jan 17, 2008

Some Day I Know This Pain Will Fade...

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It's been extremely long since I updated this thing. I read my last one and realize how long ago it actually was but it only seems like a few days ago.  This year went by so fast.  O yea, I guess I should say Happy New Year to everyone that actually reads this. So much went on in the last few months of '07 that I wouldn't even dare to write it all down on here. I lost so many people, gained a few.  Made so many horrible mistakes, got hurt too many times, but learned from it.  I've changed alot, and I can see that by reading my last journal.  I have yet to be happy, but I guess that really isn't the purpose of life.  We all want happiness but

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GBanks91

Jan 8, 2009

For sure.

Its good stuffs indeed.
And plus... your cute.

!
But yep.

XoShadyBaby22oX

Jan 10, 2009

aww you're sweet, thank you <3

Anytime

np and thnks

you're welcome, it's a really nice piece (:

Bbirdmank

Oct 16, 2007

Maybe im just losing my touch...

Or maybe im losing my mind. Lol!

BryarRose

Sep 28, 2007

I made comments are several poems. None are meant to be taken personally and remember my opinions are my opinions; someone else might see things another way.