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About Traditional Art / Hobbyist Johann-Octavius X. GansMale/United States Recent Activity
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For those wondering, here's the Reader's Digest version.
Back in August, I quit my job to try concentrating on freelance graphic arts before I got too damned old to try. Shortly thereafter, a pair of tight new shoes made a small wound atop my left foot. I've had worse papercuts, so I paid it no mind.
It got infected.
The infection spread and worsened quickly, thanks to Uncle Diabetes, and despite weekly wound care and such, the wound got worse and worse. I have progressive photos of the decline of my foot, but, I imagine DeviantArt has some sort of rule against graphic gore (which is what it is) that prevents me from posting them.
About 3 weeks ago, I went for treatment and they decided to keep me in the hospital. The wound necrotized and they had to debride my foot not once, but twice, but the necrosis spread and caused fever, which is why my foot had to be amputated. After that, the fever ended, but, in order to (eventually) get a prosthesis, I had to have my shin amputated to just below the knee. Now, I am out of the hospital and have had the first of MANY cast changes over the coming weeks.

I  am doing my best to keep sane, though, my life has changed irrevocably. I haven't gotten past the shock, I don't think. I haven't cried. I haven't smashed anything or had a long talk with God filled with verbal middle fingers or empty bargains. I'm angry, sure, but I've always been angry. As I told my doctor, earlier, this isn't even the worst thing that's ever happened to me, it's only the most physically visible. The doctors assure me that I will walk again, unfettered and without crutches, but then, they also assured me that they could save my foot. My girlfriend is still my rock. I love her more than my own life. Without her, I would have given up 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with diabetes in the first place, still, even with her love and support, it's getting awfully hard to keep a stiff upper lip about all this bullshit. Still, I press on. It's all I can do.
Unfortunately, anger and depression are doing a number on my will to draw and create. My freelance artist dreams are pretty dead in the water at this point. I'll be around, but, I don't know how much I'll be participating.
  • Listening to: "Changes" - David Bowie
  • Reading: webcomics
  • Watching: Quantum of Solace
  • Playing: with the notion of improvement
  • Eating: chicken pattie on Hawaiian roll
  • Drinking: ice water

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Xailenrath Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Of course! I really like your work!
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the Faves, Johann! Green Dragon
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:iconxailenrath:
Xailenrath Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks!
Have a happy holiday, my friend!
May there be happiness for you in the new year!
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2015   Artisan Crafter
As may you have a safe and happy holiday! Cutie Holiday Smile 
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Chwen-Hoou Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2015
Thank you for the fav.
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birdboy100 Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks for watching!
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Soviet-Superwoman Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2015
Thanks for the Watch Comrade! :iconsovietsaluteplz:
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Dragonwooddesigns Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Let me know when the coloring book is done. I want a couple!Hug Hug  Say hi to Deb for me.
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Xailenrath Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Will do! Big Hugs!
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Dragonwooddesigns Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Same to you!! Have a good Thanksgiving!Hug Hug 
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