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About Traditional Art / Hobbyist Johann-Octavius X. GansMale/United States Recent Activity
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For those wondering, here's the Reader's Digest version.
Back in August, I quit my job to try concentrating on freelance graphic arts before I got too damned old to try. Shortly thereafter, a pair of tight new shoes made a small wound atop my left foot. I've had worse papercuts, so I paid it no mind.
It got infected.
The infection spread and worsened quickly, thanks to Uncle Diabetes, and despite weekly wound care and such, the wound got worse and worse. I have progressive photos of the decline of my foot, but, I imagine DeviantArt has some sort of rule against graphic gore (which is what it is) that prevents me from posting them.
About 3 weeks ago, I went for treatment and they decided to keep me in the hospital. The wound necrotized and they had to debride my foot not once, but twice, but the necrosis spread and caused fever, which is why my foot had to be amputated. After that, the fever ended, but, in order to (eventually) get a prosthesis, I had to have my shin amputated to just below the knee. Now, I am out of the hospital and have had the first of MANY cast changes over the coming weeks.

I  am doing my best to keep sane, though, my life has changed irrevocably. I haven't gotten past the shock, I don't think. I haven't cried. I haven't smashed anything or had a long talk with God filled with verbal middle fingers or empty bargains. I'm angry, sure, but I've always been angry. As I told my doctor, earlier, this isn't even the worst thing that's ever happened to me, it's only the most physically visible. The doctors assure me that I will walk again, unfettered and without crutches, but then, they also assured me that they could save my foot. My girlfriend is still my rock. I love her more than my own life. Without her, I would have given up 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with diabetes in the first place, still, even with her love and support, it's getting awfully hard to keep a stiff upper lip about all this bullshit. Still, I press on. It's all I can do.
Unfortunately, anger and depression are doing a number on my will to draw and create. My freelance artist dreams are pretty dead in the water at this point. I'll be around, but, I don't know how much I'll be participating.
  • Listening to: "Changes" - David Bowie
  • Reading: webcomics
  • Watching: Quantum of Solace
  • Playing: with the notion of improvement
  • Eating: chicken pattie on Hawaiian roll
  • Drinking: ice water


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fradarlin Featured By Owner May 17, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for fav my animation! :D
Animation commission - Freedom by fradarlin  
Xailenrath Featured By Owner May 18, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Of course!
It's spectacular!
burstlion Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OH GEEZE it's your birthday?!  Happy Birthday!

Damn, I had intended to do up a render for you as a birthday gift but I haven't even started yet... I've got an idea though so we'll see if I can make it happen!  It might be a little bit late though XD
Xailenrath Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's quite alright. I appreciate the sentiment!
vladen13 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2016
Happy B - Day! :cake: .. and you might find my latest post of interest ;)
AWRowland Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the Added to my devWatch! !
pink-ninja Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2016
Thanks for the fave! :D
TULIO19mx Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch! :D
SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2015   Artisan Crafter
            Party Happy New Year! Party

Green Dragon Thank you for the Faves of 2015! :D (Big Grin)
johnnyharadrim Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2015
Thanks for watching!
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