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Back in August, I quit my job to try concentrating on freelance graphic arts before I got too damned old to try. Shortly thereafter, a pair of tight new shoes made a small wound atop my left foot. I've had worse papercuts, so I paid it no mind.
It got infected.
The infection spread and worsened quickly, thanks to Uncle Diabetes, and despite weekly wound care and such, the wound got worse and worse. I have progressive photos of the decline of my foot, but, I imagine DeviantArt has some sort of rule against graphic gore (which is what it is) that prevents me from posting them.
About 3 weeks ago, I went for treatment and they decided to keep me in the hospital. The wound necrotized and they had to debride my foot not once, but twice, but the necrosis spread and caused fever, which is why my foot had to be amputated. After that, the fever ended, but, in order to (eventually) get a prosthesis, I had to have my shin amputated to just below the knee. Now, I am out of the hospital and have had the first of MANY cast changes over the coming weeks.

I  am doing my best to keep sane, though, my life has changed irrevocably. I haven't gotten past the shock, I don't think. I haven't cried. I haven't smashed anything or had a long talk with God filled with verbal middle fingers or empty bargains. I'm angry, sure, but I've always been angry. As I told my doctor, earlier, this isn't even the worst thing that's ever happened to me, it's only the most physically visible. The doctors assure me that I will walk again, unfettered and without crutches, but then, they also assured me that they could save my foot. My girlfriend is still my rock. I love her more than my own life. Without her, I would have given up 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with diabetes in the first place, still, even with her love and support, it's getting awfully hard to keep a stiff upper lip about all this bullshit. Still, I press on. It's all I can do.
Unfortunately, anger and depression are doing a number on my will to draw and create. My freelance artist dreams are pretty dead in the water at this point. I'll be around, but, I don't know how much I'll be participating.
  • Listening to: "Changes" - David Bowie
  • Reading: webcomics
  • Watching: Quantum of Solace
  • Playing: with the notion of improvement
  • Eating: chicken pattie on Hawaiian roll
  • Drinking: ice water
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BlackKusanagi Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2018  Student General Artist
I didn't see this until now.

You are a survivor man. I...don't think I would have been able to...well react even remotely rationally. 

I will keep you in my thoughts man.
Speedslide Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2018
Keep at it man. Shitty things will happen, but if you step in manure, you just keep on walking. Stay strong and with the help from your friends, you'll rise above this.
sawred Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2018   General Artist
TheCosmicBeholder Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2018  Professional Traditional Artist
Very sad and speechless about all of this, I'm very sorry man. Stay strong and recover well, sending the best wishes.
burstlion Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so sorry, man.  This well and truly sucks.  And blows.
REZcat Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
cyberkitten01 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I have no idea what to say. 'Thoughts & prayers' doesn't cut it. Good luck with your recovery and don't give up hope
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