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About Traditional Art / Hobbyist Johann-Octavius X. GansMale/United States Recent Activity
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For those wondering, here's the Reader's Digest version.
Back in August, I quit my job to try concentrating on freelance graphic arts before I got too damned old to try. Shortly thereafter, a pair of tight new shoes made a small wound atop my left foot. I've had worse papercuts, so I paid it no mind.
It got infected.
The infection spread and worsened quickly, thanks to Uncle Diabetes, and despite weekly wound care and such, the wound got worse and worse. I have progressive photos of the decline of my foot, but, I imagine DeviantArt has some sort of rule against graphic gore (which is what it is) that prevents me from posting them.
About 3 weeks ago, I went for treatment and they decided to keep me in the hospital. The wound necrotized and they had to debride my foot not once, but twice, but the necrosis spread and caused fever, which is why my foot had to be amputated. After that, the fever ended, but, in order to (eventually) get a prosthesis, I had to have my shin amputated to just below the knee. Now, I am out of the hospital and have had the first of MANY cast changes over the coming weeks.

I  am doing my best to keep sane, though, my life has changed irrevocably. I haven't gotten past the shock, I don't think. I haven't cried. I haven't smashed anything or had a long talk with God filled with verbal middle fingers or empty bargains. I'm angry, sure, but I've always been angry. As I told my doctor, earlier, this isn't even the worst thing that's ever happened to me, it's only the most physically visible. The doctors assure me that I will walk again, unfettered and without crutches, but then, they also assured me that they could save my foot. My girlfriend is still my rock. I love her more than my own life. Without her, I would have given up 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with diabetes in the first place, still, even with her love and support, it's getting awfully hard to keep a stiff upper lip about all this bullshit. Still, I press on. It's all I can do.
Unfortunately, anger and depression are doing a number on my will to draw and create. My freelance artist dreams are pretty dead in the water at this point. I'll be around, but, I don't know how much I'll be participating.
  • Listening to: "Changes" - David Bowie
  • Reading: webcomics
  • Watching: Quantum of Solace
  • Playing: with the notion of improvement
  • Eating: chicken pattie on Hawaiian roll
  • Drinking: ice water

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digitalgil Featured By Owner May 3, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: on my  Smurfette: Scared Smurfless. by digitalgil .  Much appreciated.  if you have the chance, would love any comments back on the deviation pages you liked or :+fav:ed.  Thanks again.  
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GraphicBrat Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Professional
Happy (belated) Birthday!! :cake:
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Xailenrath Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks, man! It was a pretty good day!
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:iconburstlion:
burstlion Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy BIRTHDAY!!

I hope you're having a great day today, with family and friends - and lots of CAKE!
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:iconxailenrath:
Xailenrath Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you!
It was sorta mellow, but still really good!
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:iconburstlion:
burstlion Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Good to hear! :D
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monajenkins Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2017  Student General Artist
Do you accept requests?!?
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:iconxailenrath:
Xailenrath Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Not at the moment. I have several comics that I am involved in, plus one paid gig, so I am only taking paid commissions right now.
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monajenkins Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2017  Student General Artist
Okay!! No Thank you very much!🙃😊
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bogmonster Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
thanx for faving!
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