Thinking that friendship and love doesn't really matter anymore?
Feelings doesn't seem to matter..?
Laughing and judging on the outside, while thyself tried to shake it off.. Yet, it hurts a lot. To them probably standing out felt good, but it didn't made me feel the way how I'm supposed to feel. I don't know what to feel anymore.
Didn't understand? Their actions speak louder than words hurt me, and help bad people over-watching them to hurt my loved ones. Especially, old and new ones. I don't have anything what it takes. I don't have any other experiences, my own money account, my right value time to spend with my fiance, unknown insurance, or hardly anything.
It's okay with them to joke and ignore that I need to eat, I constantly lost my appetite due to my depression. To me, I feel so alone inside. I did tried to open up my Patreon page, point commissions, and find the supports that I can.
Yet, why do I failing back down with depression? The thing that stop me was bad people, not my