It Was Never You...

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By WordOfChen
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It really wasn't...

And I know that I can twist this truth as much as I want...

Whenever I'm sober, when I know I can put up that fake plastic smile;

Just a few formal words that burn like acid from a liar's lips!

"Differences in personality, a divergence in ideals..."

Please, fucking, SPARE ME!

Because when I look in this mirror, I know.

When I see myself looking back at me, I know.

Right here, right in front of my own blackened self;

Those eyes that both reflect and stare into my dingy soul.

I was the problem.

I was the instigator.

I was the perpetrator.

And when I had broken every last bit of her,

I was the one, who let it all fall to pieces.

So please, you don't have to feel sorry for me,

I am a bastard and I've got a very special place in hell waiting for me...

- Word of Chen, Darkest Hour, 16th February 2015
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Author's Comment:

Alright my dear readers,

As promised, here is my next release for Darkest Hour.

This poem is about my personal feelings, especially because I am burdened with what I believe to be a sin of a past. For me, I honestly think, there will never be redemption and what suffering I endure in life is mere penitence.

If you too carry such a burden, then may we be brothers or sisters in hell, as we are now in life. Warriors till the end, may our blades never dull. FOR HONOUR!

- Your Boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:

P.S. Forgot to add my fave target. Since I'm still climbing the road to the good old days. Last time I blew past 100 so let's go for 150 tonight. Not sure if I'll hit it, but let's give it our best, Ooh-rah! x'D
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Thank you very much for enjoying my work ^^

- Chennie
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it ish Leo hai!~ hehe
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Epic! x'D

- Word of Chen :iconwordofchen:
Dashieandluna's avatar
Aww yes this happens to a lot of us
tzaroth's avatar
We burn for what we've done. Redemption an idea we despise, and refuse the hope of salvation. Our memories stoke the flames that never fade.
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This made me think of the song "Oh My Dear" by Tenth Avenue North
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amazing your truly amazing could you possible check out my work

*litature folder*
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Hehehe, dude... you've already reached past your goal! You're only 6 favourites short of 250 now, at the moment I'm writing this! Great going. :XD:

Also, I love this poem. It's very wonderful. Keep writing, Chen! Can't wait to read more of your latest poems you'll come up with! :D
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When its all 
been Said 
and Done

All Backed up 
And very
truly Saved

And when
Your final lovers’ 
Lies and Sighs

These points
always ever,
Finely Shaved

Be ye King, Queen
The Ace
or the lowly Knave

The Truth at Last 
Will boldly out Last 
Your true Heart,

Love is the color 
of the rose that you
lay upon their ....
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Thank you kindly, I'm really glad you liked it ^^

- Your boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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This is beautiful :O
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Thank you kindly for enjoying it ^^

- Your boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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Whoa~! This is beautifully written and has a very meaningful message!
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Thank you kindly for the comment, I am glad you enjoyed this piece ^^

- Your boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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^-^ of course I enjoyed it it is wonderfully written!
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Hehe, I'm glad you think so ^^

- Your boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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This is a blow to the stomach. With every word you're knocking the breaths out of us and filling us with raw emotion. The poetry itself is exquisite.

On the subject mattered: I think guilt is a raging monster. Whether or not you have sinned, whether or not you deserve hell, you feel bad about what you did, and that's true repentance. That is all any man can do, unless time machines become a thing in the near future. 
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Thank you so kindly for enjoying my poem ^^

I am really glad you felt that raw emotion.

On the one hand I do feel guilt, but on the other hand I also have some seriously baaaad habits x'D

-Your boy, Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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