Simple pleasures
Passing time,
Radiance fading
In dreams sublime;
Nature's way,
Glorious day.Sunny smiles and
Unerring truth,
Months of warmth
Memory forsooth;
Eve of pain,
Rustling rain.Angel's tears for
Uttered scars,
Tattered leaves
Under stars;
Moonlit smiles,
Nature's trials.Wasted flaws,
Imperfect mold,
Natural mistakes,
Truth be told;
Every season,
Rites and reason.
Intertwined,
reverse and rewind
seconds, hours in time;
searching for a rainbow
with (yet without) sorrow,
just faith and soul
to keep the spirit moving
and heart still dreaming
for that end
(an imperfect end);
no studio sound
by perfection bound,
an acoustic touch
to the music of such
an amazing (flawed) life.
Myth:
"I seek your approval
in my appearance, in my mind, in my being
I need you to tell me
that I'm beautiful, I'm smart, I'm perfect
I am all you want,
all you'll ever need
I am witty enough not to be boring
but to you I come crawling
my thirst for abuse you feed."Truth:
They tell you how to dress, to think, to act
Complete hypocrisy under thinly-veiled tact
They undermine your confidence
and tell you what to be
They preach free love and tolerance
while downplaying sanity
They confuse and diffuse your opinion
and kick you when you're down
They drape you with silk, satin, lace
and with thorns for a crown
They call you manipulative, whore,...
Silence treads its step lightly through the darkness, even as the winds whisper secrets of life and living through gentle rustles of branches. Dried leaves on the ground fly and soar before dipping, touching and resting, tired yet ecstatic, dancing to the hum of crickets and song of the stars.Moonlight-kissed is the night with jewel-studded skies, writing dreams across the galaxies and painting inspiration in the hearts of poets, of people.Such is the night that dries my tears and makes me wonder, drawing hope and darkness in a single stroke.
I can buy
the vodka to make me forget
the pills to change a mindset
the movies and songs to chase nightmares away
I can buy into a system that leads me astray.I can buy
food to feed a physical hunger
dreams that others put together
false times and news and tailored pain
I can buy into a system that determines what\'s \"sane\".I can buy
the physical, the material to meet society\'s needs
an image I purchase and unwritten rules I heed
Pretension, lies and insincerity to fit the mould
I can buy into a system that makes me cold.I can buy into a system that breaks me
I can believe every lie they tell
I can swollow propaganda and cage the free
I...
I never looked at the sky.
I never thought to,
until you reminded me
that to be pinned
by its sheer vastness
was freedom
in itself.Breathe, feel
and savour
the blank canvas
that covers
and holds you
in its infinite arms.Lean back
and taste
an emotion rare,
even as
the clouds
gently move on,
and the skies
darken a little more.Perhaps being trapped
isn\'t so bad after all.
Not when you have
open skies
to dream with.
Have you heard it lately?
The sweet, gentle sound
that sweeps and touches
your soul
into a whole
new different place
where all is possible
and there's nothing
but smiles and laughter,
a certain joy in forever
in you.Butterflies
and wispy clouds
float in sky-blue skies;
twinkling stars
and whisking comets
that fall and rise
with every breath
and everything,
a rising crescendo
does your heart sing;
Have you heard it lately?
Through the eyes of fire,
Through the flames of life,
I see an ever burning pyre
And wonder if love would suffice.The death of a being so close yet so far,
A spiritual demise through the bars
of a self-created prison of torture and pain,
The hurt dissipates into a ball of flame.
While I feign nonchalance and walk away
My head held high, I shrug and say
“I don’t give a damn, it’s got nothing to do with me”--
I walk through the flames and pretend I’m free.
The ever-burning hate lingers around,
the heart hardens and in loathing is bound;
Through the experience of life and all the fears
The smoke from the fire hides my tears...
Sitting alone
Staring out the window,
A solitary tear slips by
and in the silence so she cries.
The tear is followed by another and another
Faster and faster they fall
She holds her breath and tries to be strong,
But memories flow like the tears she sheds--
Even as she tries to stand proud and tall
The tears continue to fall and fall.
The same song plays over again,
And the tears stream down her face;
She bites her lip to stifle her sobs
but nothing hides the tears, their trace...
So another day goes by,
And still she sits by the window;
However hard she wills herself to try,
A solitary tear slips by.
~Free~Free
Like a cloud in the sky
Free
Like the eagle soaring highFor the freedom I sought,
For freedom I will die;
For the freedom I thought
The consequences let fly.Free
As the tossing breeze may be
Free
To grasp all impossibilities
Perfect LoveIf I should say that perfect love exists
Then I’d be lying to you and to me
‘tis lust disguised, not easy to resist
And bound in chains while thinking he was free.
The quest for perfect love is hard, unfair,
It is more than just proclaiming “I care”
'tis not elusive, tis' not even there
'tis just a beautiful dream we all share.
There’s no such thing as sweet perfect love
‘tis all lies, an impossibility
‘tis the wise who realize that from above
Amid the heavens, in all God’s glory;
Perfect love is divine, as the dawn breaks;
Human love is filled with flaws and mistakes.
Love is
Painful, blind,
Love is
Freedom, kind.
Love is
Crazy, strong,
Love is
Weakness, wrong.
Love is
Magic, choice,
Love is
Thy soul’s voice.
Love;
Entraps, conquers.
Love;
Fleeting, remembers.
Relaxed setting, lack of tension,
Artistic talent, filled with emotion.
I see, I feel, I want to be
One with the art; I see the free
mind loosened, allowed to express
The eyes are opened to more than a mess
Of ideas spilled into a sea
The freedom of expression to the powers that be.
I just want to,
Think, Think,
Find the link,
Just to meet You.I just want to,
Read, Read,
Psalms I heed,
Just to meet You.I just want to,
Feel, Feel,
Love for real,
Just to meet You.I just want to,
Kneel, Kneel,
Pray with zeal,
Just to meet You.I just want to,
Fly, Fly,
Way up high,
Just to meet You.I just want to,
Die, Die,
My last sigh,
Just to meet You...
Embrace her
Hold her
Don't ever let her goFeel her
Be her
Let her seep into your soulTouch her
Think of her
Like the river let her flowKnowledge, books
Poetry and art
She completes and makes you whole.
I dream
Of a person unseen
Unheard, unspoken, untouchedI dream
Of a life which seems
Felt, embraced, fulfilledI dream
Of a heart within
Optimistic, loving, freeI dream
Of a soul, no sin
Pure, gentle, sweetI dream
And in this dream I'm in
I am capable of all things.
I think
In my life, where to go
Drive, destination, homeI think
My passion for life's goals
Engulfs, enamours, enslaves
I think
Of the heart, tender to blows
Brittle, delicate, glassI think
Of love, how it will show
Togetherness, forever, everlastingI think
The soul, still strong and whole
The idealist in me knows.
lemonade
cold winters
the dead squirrel i found in the tall grass
dad's funerallying in the field on a hot day
the warmth of the sun
like your touch on my cheek
wandering through the forestcarefreefalling asleep in your lap
to the rhythm of your soft voice
and the creaking boards beneath usthe day i leftthese memories:
they flood my mind
like the tears down my face
as i try to speak for youbut the memories will fade again
like your ashes in the wind
one tear falls like night
unto life; pain plummets as tree trunks
here i stand for you
arms stuck like branches
sturdy wide, rough, and trustworthy
waiting for you to lean
Current Residence: KL Favourite genre of music: Alternative rock MP3 player of choice: iTunes Shell of choice: cynicism Personal Quote: Live long enough to understand, and not a minute longer.
Three years already?Found my self, and then immersed me in work, at the cost of everything else. In seven weeks, I would have dedicated my life to an organization for three years, trying my best to make a difference without becoming overly cynical. I've done my fair share of travel, seen rubble and tears, the best and worst of humanity.Then life flashed before my eyes one sunny afternoon two weeks ago, and while I have no regrets, it got me remembering.Has it really been nine years?Hello friend. I've missed you. How are ya? :)
It's been ages since I logged in, ages since I found/made time. I hope you've all be nothing but awesome while I've been away.As for me, I lost my soul, so I quit my job to find it again.I'll be searching in Singapore, in Western/ Central Europe, in China, in Vietnam....but I know I'll find it within, when the time is right.First step's mine!
Just kidding, heh.Been back in KL for almost four months now, working for the last two, and trying not to lose my soul in the process.Oh Canada.I hope everyone's had a fantastic Christmas, and here's to an even better new year.Cheers.
I just want you to know, I still come back here every blue moon and read through your works. I enjoy them just as much as I did when I first read them.
thanks saige; I plan, write and edit for a living these days, so I kinda miss that slightly more creative part of my life. I hope all is well with you!
Wow, it's amazing to know that the work you did here probably contributed to what you do for your career. And you know as well as I do, the slightly more creative part of your life is as easily attainable now as it was back then.
I am doing well, thank you for getting back to me. It definitely brings back good memories. Now to go through the 140+ deviations in my watch list. >.<