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His last song... by wizardotaku His last song... by wizardotaku
This song...hmm I wanted to upload it when I had a video....but...as always I got dissapointed....nobody and I mean NOBODY can do a favor or help me out without failing....Im really thankfull....but then they dissapoint me a lot....

*sigh* its useless, nobody cares for him, no matter how much I effort...it doesnt worth it...The ONLY one who really loves him its me...
so...I'll take him for me then, cuz its not like anyone will care if he leaves anyway...

Yeah, this might sound mean or selfish, but...only the ones who are ''less good than me'' at this, say that he's great, that I should NOT give up...but I cant take it anymore!! Nobody would ever like him, such a simple design...a poor voice, he doesnt have appends...
nobody draws him or uses him...only me....hmm....maybe I did something wrong?

No...he's alright, I love him how he is....

Anyways...I wont put his website down or something or delete him forever...but I WONT draw more of do more public covers....all what I do with him I'll keep it for myself, cuz no one really cares...so...*sigh* I dunno

I really though someone would love him and use him a lot, like...his/her favorite UTAU...but...he's just ''liked'' by a few...and that's all
I know of Vocaloid and UTAU since 2009, Maruko was created since that date...but I release him the 2011...but...5 years of work....for nothing....

nothing....just nothing....Im really REALLY mad and sad....my heart hurts...since....I really put all my attention and effort in this proyect...I even go bad on school cuz I concentrate only on my dear proyect....but for what? for nothing....

I dont have good economy to have a tablet...I draw by mouse, I dont have a good PC to have good video programs...I just can draw and do covers here...I dont have money to buy great things for him!...neither a microphone to record him the appends I wanted to do...

I even lost a friend IRL for caring Maruko....and what now?....Im really tired and sick of this!!....I wont leave the fandom or stop doing covers with other UTAU...but I wont be really active....

UTAU is like my whole life...its the only fandom where I really REALLY felt happy....now its all going down....

The Spanish Fandom are a bunch or mean motherfuckers and bitches that try to look your errors and hurt you!! and the English Fandom is full of stupid fucking popular DIVAs that only care of the fucking power voice or wierd tunning bad jokes and stupid things!!!

you guys go and lick the devil's anus!! Im sick and tired and sad and and...Ugh I want to cry...

So...Maruko will not sing for a while....or forever...I dunno

His Last song..
soundcloud.com/wizard2/the-las…

Bye...

-Wizard...
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Amzsie Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Digital Artist
All I'll say is, and I'm not trying to be rude but, you don't need to be famous to continue and enjoy utau. Maybe you should continue to work to that point. And yes I know, you've worked very hard to, but maybe that time hasn't come yet. I know I think he is a real cutie! But I what I think utau is... I think its a hobby. Something we do for fun, not fame, like artists. Artists would never paint paintings if they didn't like it. So I know it's frustrating, but continue to try being positive with utau, if you continue with hard work, eventually you will get there.
But that thing about Spanish and English utau users was very rude, and if you continue with that attitude then you will get no where.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student General Artist
please dont talk to me about attitude cuz im reaaaally sick of that =3= I didnt say that I wasnt enjoying the fandom anymore, so Im still cool and nice to everyone, all what I did was did as a kind of vent, also its true, I wont be uploading things with him more a while THATS ALL
UTAU for me its no just a hobby as it is for others, for me its really important, so that's why im still working hard, now I just stopped using mine thats all, and letting out what was reaaaaaally deep inside my chest, and thats all, no need to give me the same tips as everyone does, Thank you very much anyways sweetheart, and Im really REALLY glad you like him too...
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Amzsie Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Well, the last thing Ill say is, maybe you shouldnt give up. Maybe just take a break from the public, and come back when your ready :)
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you, and well I guess the only here taking a break is Maruko ahaha xP, im still doing covers but with other UTAU :33
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Yen-mi Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
manito..es una pena no haber leido esto antes ;u;
Pero no debes pensar eso, sabes que hay muchas personas que les encanta AYUME MARUKO, si con mayusculas, y has peleado mucho por el...aunque a mi me dolio esa ultima frase que dijistes del fandom español...y otras cosas.....yo nunca he dejado de amar a maruko ;u; es un gran utau, y no te cierres tan facilmente, tienes gente que confia en ti y te ayuda, no debes decaerte y ni mucho menos hacer como yo y abandonar a la primera, por algo has trabajado MUCHO. Lo que sinceramente...no me gusto mucho es esa aficcion por perseguir la popularidad y solo la popularidad...manito..hay muchas cosas mejores que eso...pero es cuestion de descubrirlas.
Se que ese utau mexicano llamado Ayume Maruko no abandonara nunca y es mas, se que pronto sera reconocido.


~Your little sister
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Francamente estoy pensando en aclarar mejor las cosas =3= porque parece que NADIE ni en ingles ni en español entiende una jodida palabra antes escrita...tendria que haberlo puesto en mayusculas o algo PERO NO LO ABANDONARE
quiero que sepas manita y ESTOY SEGURO DE QUE LO SABES, yo JAMAS hize con Maruko lo que otros hacian con los suyos Spameando con la misma cancion solo porque era nueva y asi, YO SIEMPRE hize con Maruko lo que A MI me gustara y las canciones que iban con el, pero si, yo si buscaba la popularidad con el, pero haciendo lo que a MI me gustaba esperando que alguien tambien, ENTIENDE, a CUALQUIER artista quiere que su creacion sea popular sea pintura cuadro escultura LO QUE SEA y MI UTAU NO ES LA EXCEPCION!
ADEMAS, NO LO ESTOY ABANDONANDO, NI BORRANDO, NI DEJANDO EL FANDOM, simplemente no subire lo que YO haga con, por al menos un tiempo no se si para siempre y perdoname mucho si suena grosero pero LEE BIEN porfavor y no te centres en pensar que soy un cerrado ni nada, porque un CERRADO no dice sus sentimientos como YO lo hice aqui gracias!

~Your big brother
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Yen-mi Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
creo que no me entendiste....y mijo no te me cabrees conmigo, a mi te me bajas un tono e.e
lo que me referia no era que lo ibas a abandonar, sino el hecho de que lo cierres solo a ti, y si, me molesto un poco que fueras grosero, pero SI LEI Y LO ENTENDI, vos haces el trabajo mas ajilado ahora que antes, y lo que comentaste '' ENTIENDE, a CUALQUIER artista quiere que su creacion sea popular sea pintura cuadro escultura LO QUE SEA y MI UTAU NO ES LA EXCEPCION!'' ese comentario francamente me parecio MUY GROSERO Y SUPERFICIAL e.e perdona, pero NO TODO EL MUNDO ES UN OBSESO, hay gente que hace lo que le gusta por amor, no solo por parecer pro o por buscar la fama, perdona marco, pero creo que conmigo te has pasado bastante aunque yo tansolo buscaba la forma de ayudarte.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Student General Artist
tu me estas tomando a mal manita, te estoy diciendo que no tiene nada de malo queres que la creacion de uno se haga conocida, y yo no soy el cerrado que no quiere mostrar su talento como otros cuando uno siempre los apoyo cuando SABE que su trabajo ss asombroso, o no hermaniiitaaa???
y esa cita mia que pusiste no fue nada grosera, sino verdadera!~ obvio los artistas quieren que su trabajo se sepa y para mi Maruko es mi obra de arte, pero parece que no lo entiendes y no parece que me apoyes solo me regañas, que tu seas la que siempre esta calladita con la cabeza baja no te hace mas inteligente o sabia como para decirme como hacer esto, perdoname hermanita, pero simplemente no me estas entendiendo...seguro ahora me odias y asi...y eso que yo nunca fui malo contigo ni te exigia ni te fastidiaba, es MAS te alentaba a que no fueras tan modesta...pero bueno...
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Yen-mi Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
a ver, por que no LEES, no digo que sea malo y no me entiendes, con cerrarse no es eso, me refiero a que hagas cosas de maruko para ti adskafdhfj , sabes que apoyo tu trabajo, pero no te molestas en leer ni comprender.
Lo que yo digo, es que tampoco todo el mundo es un adicto a la fama, me refiero, llamas a tu utau obra de arte, y lo crees superior, no estoy en contra de los pensamientos de nadie pero piensa en esos otros utaus, que mucha gente los quiere, no por que quieren que sean famosos sino por que son parte de ellos. yo no te estoy regañando, te estas tomando mi comentario a mal, y tampoco creas que me quedo callada en una esquina con la cabeza baja, manito yo me dedico a otras cosas que no tienen nada que ver con esto ni ilustraciones ni nada, es solo un  hobby aunque ami sea una OC mia desde PE wikia, la prefiero como OC que como utau por que igualmente sigue siendo mi personaje.
cada persona se puede tomar las cosas como cree, por que todos no somos iguales, a mi me parecio que me hablaste de una forma grosera, cuando yo solo te respondi a el comentario, no es que te odie, sino que no me comprendes lo que trato de decirte, talvez sea que la forma de expresar las cosas aca es distinta  a la de alla o el vocabulario (definiciones de palabras) .
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student General Artist
hmm...perdoname pues...ademas yo no creo que sea superior...
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irodesu Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Faveé la deviation pensando que se trataba de un simple cover/dibujo. Y al leer la descripción o_o
Me parece un poco triste que te sientas así, aunque no te culpo, ese tipo de cosas de cierto modo afectan. Pero no deberías abandonar a Maruko, en mi opinión es un UTAU que me gusta bastante, de hecho primera vez que veía un UTAU que cantaba en español y me pareció algo realmente genial, lástima que lo descubrí hace poco. Y las críticas las encontrarás en todos lados, sólo que a mucha gente le encanta "destruir" en vez de ayudar constructivamente. Sin embargo creo que es una decisión un poco extremista, no deberías irritarte tanto por cosas como los "views" y comentarios puesto que eso te impedirá disfrutar mejor tu trabajo... Has dado un gran esfuerzo por él y realmente se nota. Sin embargo, ya que lo has decidido de esa manera... Se le extrañará un poco, o por lo menos de mi parte.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014  Student General Artist
Aaaugh =3= me dan ganas de poner una descripcion en español...pero me da flojera, Maruko no desaparecera ni nada, simplemente dije que ya no subiria nada nuevo con el (aunque si haga cosas nuevas pero me las guardare para mi)
Francamente, si puede que me importe mucho los views y comentarios, pero en normal no? a mi me hace estupido que la gente te diga que solo es un programa y mas, pero Maruko es MIO es mi creacion, SEA el fandom que sea, o profesion, un artista ama su trabajo y CLARO haria lo que fuera porque este se hiciese conocido y amado por muchos! eso no es exclusivo de los ''artistas'' y pintores y asi, para mi Maruko es MI obra de arte y quiero que todos lo conoscan eso no es un crimen ni nada malo, ni compulsivo!
pero ver el fracaso que estoy siendo si desgana mucho, te repito NO voy a abandonarlo, simplemente me guardare lo que YO haga con el para mi...ya si la gente que si lo quiere (y eso lo aprecio MUCHO) quiere seguir usandolo y mantener su escencia, esta bien para mi
Pero no esperen actualizaciones de mi parte...no se si para siempre...pero al MENOS por un tiempo nada mas...
Perdoname si te preocupe o te hice sentir mal en algun aspecto, y realmente aprecio mucho tu cariño hacia el. gracias <3
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PiosanK Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014
Baah I like seeing him in my YT subscriptions though.  XvX/
However, the choice is yours. Do what makes you feel better?
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you, actually i feel better and less stressed, though I wont upload more of him...I dunno for how much...I dunno if forever or just a time...but I WONT delete him
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Live-and-Dark Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Professional Artist
D:
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AkiraChal Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I do like him and all.. But how you are wording yourself here sounds like you only have him to gain popularity and I don't say it's wrong but if you only do what others want you to use him for and not for what you want to use him it will dragg you down further. To be honest, it is your decision on what you do.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
you're right in that last part is my decision...so why you comment anyway? =W=

always being the nice guy....Im sick of it! YES I do wanted Maruko to be popular! its that a crime?? I love him and how is he and I hoped people might like him too, so I will feel that people love something I did, I always did with Maruko what I loved not what others want me to do, and I wanted to be liked for that, but it didnt worth it...so if you think im just an attention whore now then THANK YOU for not getting the real point of this =3=
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AkiraChal Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I never said anything of that o.O I did comment because there are still many others that do like Maruko and all.
I never said you were an attenion whore nor that gaining popularity is wrong or wanting it is wrong. I only said that if you only do what others want you to do and not what you want to do may make you lose interest and all. And you are a good person too! I'm sorry if I seemed rude.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
*sigh* No Im sorry...you mean right and I attacked you, you listen, if you read that well, you should have notice that Maruko will NOT DIE or dissappear or something, I said that I'll NOT publish anything that IIIII DO with him anymore, you may use him if you want...but I wont pulbish anything with him anymore, just keep it to myself
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AkiraChal Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aaah. I'm sorry!!! I must have read it wrong and I'm really sorry!!
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TianaKoopa1 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I care about him
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
And Im glad....a really do, but I tired...c-cuz....he doesnt have the attention he deserves....
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PeachUnit Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Yeah ok no, I normally don't comment on things like this because it's all up to the creator if they want to continue a project or not, but I'm sorry, I'm gonna have to call you out on something. 
The way you're wording yourself sounds like the only reason you're in the fandom is to become popular, and that will eventually only lead you where you are now.

"Yeah, this might sound mean or selfish, but...only the ones who are ''less good than me'' at this, say that he's great, that I should NOT give up...but I cant take it anymore!! Nobody would ever like him, such a simple design...a poor voice, he doesnt have appends...
nobody draws him or uses him...only me....hmm....maybe I did something wrong?"

Yes, this does indeed sound extremely selfish. Especially the part about everyone liking him being inferior to you, and then not being satisfied with the fact that anyone likes him at all. 
And I can tell you now that what you're doing wrong is you're not doing utau for your own entertainment, but for others to notice you. That takes all the fun away from it, and it'll drag you down even further if you don't get to where you want. 

I'm sorry I haven't been around for as long as you in the fandom, and I'm sorry to hear you think I am inferior to you for liking your utau.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
No im sorry...but first yes it was for fun....but I really wanted to get noticed...is THAT bad to have ambissions? YES I wanted to get popular...cuz I saw...I saw how everyone loves those who are popular, and I was like ''I...I want people to love my work too! ;W;'' and I always do what I like, I do the songs I like and drawings Im happy with

I REALLY appreciate everyone who likes him, but Im really tired, i really am
and I didnt mean to call anyone inferior, I mean I only get like 100 views on youtube, and the ones who like Maruko I see they have like 40, I was just a bit honest...actually I HATE saying things like that....but Im really upset and I cant take anymore, so DONT NAG me!!

Im sorry Oneesan...but im done! and I dont think you're inferior for liking him...I guess you get the wrong idea....you just got what others  got...the only part where I mention others like you just take that part...
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PeachUnit Featured By Owner Edited Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Please direct me to where I said having ambitions is a bad thing. Because I can't see it. 
All I said was striving for popularity will get you nowhere 99% of the time. Some people are lucky, some have connections, and some of us don't. That's life. 

You should be happy people actually like your utau, regardless if they have less followers than you do. 
The way you're wording yourself makes it seem like it's not good enough for you unless the person posting a cover with your utau gets a boatload of views. And while it's perfectly fine to think you deserve more attention, it is not fine to basically shit all over people who do things for you just because they're not "as popular".
I'm sorry for sounding like a huge dick, but did you stop to think maybe this attitude is why you've come to a halt?

I'm gonna leave you with this. vocutaucommunityconfessions.tu…
Thank you for your time, and good-bye.
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Student General Artist
ALSOOOO, I didnt make this for getting attention or something, I just wanted to take that out of my chest.

and WHAT is going to happen and what I REALLY meant was that I wont upload anything I do with him now, I may NOT delete him or leave the fandom if that was you were thinking, I just dont publish anything IIII do using him, others can use him if they want, but I wont upload anything new, THATS ALL
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wizardotaku Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Student General Artist
Ugh...you really dont help...also dont understand, you're just making me feel like an attention whore! and thank you for making me feel worse!
btw Im ALWAYS happy for those who like him, but yes, I feel that is not enough, IS THAT BAD??
Also, you're aware to sound like a dick, so why dont you said nothing at all?
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