Listening to: ..
Playing: How to die inside
okay so, i know i havent been active, thats just cuz im a lil lazy, so uh, i NOW HAVE A REASON TO BE LESS ACTIVE. because a problem with internet close freinds..
So yeah, this day, while i was playing pony.town (the game i mostly play on with my freinds), i left my discord open. while i was standing just to see how nice was the day, i looked at the discord tab, it had a notification from the chat me and my freinds are most. and then, i saw it was one of the freinds, who had bad news. everyone else got worried, because bad news are really bad- and that freind said, "My sibling got into a car accident and they broke their leg." ((Because one of my freinds haves a sibling and the sibling is also freinds with me)), and everyone got shocked. But the only one who wasnt shocked was me. i didnt feel totally anything. i went back to the pony.town tab and stayed there for a bit, 1 of them was depressed about that. they said "it is bad?" and the other who was the freind w/ the sibling said "Its not really bad" (dont judge me if i dont remember, im such a bit forgetful) and then i Slammed into the conversation and said "Atleast it wasnt like the Krakatoa island Volcano Eruption, if some of you were standing right there, you would be dead or permanently deaf! *ding*" and one of them was just like "..." and i said "okay then... im gonna leave because im such a nerd..." and that one was still like "..." then the freind who had their sibling in that car accident said "Your emotions are not helping, you Shitbag" and i said "I can leave for long if that's all ya want." And i left the discord server, Way long after, while chatting with a freind who i call red, i told them why i was avoiding the 4 freinds that if they see me, they're gonna fucking kill me. i told them the story, i would do that i was "gone" but while i was in disguise, time after, i received a dm from one of the 4 freinds. i went nuts, i told red "boy im fucked look at this" with the image of the freind notification of that they sent me a dm, i just went to click it and dont look at the dm, just because the anxiety didnt let me, a bit after doing that, i told red "Yo man i need to make my pf invisible but idk how" then red said "i can sorta help with that" and they sent me a screenshot of the color of the dms list, so i could use it as my pf, went good, also changed my name to "/!\ Gone for some time!", but then, i received a message from another of the freinds, i went nuts, again. did the same thing, but before that, i sended the pic of that freind that they sent me the dm, and i said "boi im fucked again" and did the thing i did before with the other, because anxiety kills me and it prevents me of seeing truth, and well, thats all, ... *huff* Man, it sucks to be me because anxiety and bad temper isnt a good combination... Right?
So well, i wont be really active a lot, but i can still be found in ponytown and i would surely upload things here, *Sigh* sorry guys.