I'm sure many of you have seen amazing pieces of art and thought "Wow, I wish I was that good!" Many have idols and favorite artists, whose level of skill they wants to achieve.
As many most likely have thought that "I can't", "I can't learn", "I can't do it". I fight with those thoughts whenever I draw something. I am not skilled enough to fully realize the image I have in my mind.
I want to be better. I want to draw the images as I see them. I know getting there takes time, hard work and practice. But I really don't have much time for something like daily sketches.
What I have even less, is patience. I am very impatient. I want to be able to do it now. If I need help on drawing something when I actually draw, I go and find a tutorial.
If I don't find one, or it does not help, I can sometimes use brushes I have downloaded on my laptop.
Brushes. Last weekend I finally finished Lianoros the Searpent. I found a tutorial for making water, but it did not work for me, so I used water brushes to save my work. Now I feel like I cheated.
1. What do you think? Is using premade brushes cheating? Please comment below.
Yesterday I had aikido. When it was ending, the man who has occasionally taught me on my basic course when its main teacher wasn't there took a fight with two of the experienced aikidokas, who were the attackers, ukes. It really looked epic and seriously awesome, I mean it! And I could not help thinking "Damn, I wish I'd be that good someday!"
I am just a beginner. On next Monday I will graduate from the basic course and receive the lowest grade, 6th kyu - given that I pass the test (I'm so flipping nervous!!!). It will take years, maybe even decades, to reach such a goal. But brushing the impatience aside, I am ready to work and practice all these upcoming years along my fellow aikidokas - it really is fun! Even though I most likely will practice among the local people only for the next two years after this one, then I will move away and go to a different club (is that a good word for it or should I use 'society' or something like that?).
That time is still far away, but with the fond memories I've already made during these three months I've been into aikido, I will really miss my fellows when I have left. Really.
Ok, I have my impatience, but I am ready to work to become a great aikidoka (I admit that I have started to kinda dream of a day when a beginner like I am now would look at me with the same respect as I look at the experienced aikidokas of the local club). But what about making art? Am I ready/willing/patient enough to work for it?
I was supposed to write this journal entry yesterday, but I did not have time. Therefore my thoughts have had time to develop and mature. I made some notes to remember what I was going to write about, but now I have come to this conclusion: If I wanted to, I could really improve my art. But I don't feel like doing it. What's the problem?
Actually, what's the difference between practicing aikido and practicing making art?
I've thought about it. When it comes to aikido, the things needed to learn in order to reach a certain rank are defined. The level of skill is easily determined. The thing is supervised and it's easy to decide what to practice; you know what you need to know and can identify what you currently are not able to do. With art I'm completely on my own. No one is there to watch what I am doing and thus there is no one to correct and instruct me. Actually I don't even get feedback on my works almost at all (the amount of whatever tips and feedback anyways is very little), so it even lessens my possibilities on seeing what's really wrong and what really should be corrected or changed. Also it's much more difficult to decide what to practice, when, where and how. I don't have art courses aside from the four I can choose at my school, and whatever courses are available outside of school I don't attend to for different reasons. So where to find instructions or tutorials and which of them should be followed?
I now believe my ultimate problem is not my impatience after all, but the lack of practice due to the fact that I don't have any fixed subject or time on practicing making art.
Isn't it great how one moment or thing can inspire thoughts like these in one's mind? Until this I have thought that my problem is impatience, but it seems that it is not that. Now that I know my real problem, I can get to fix it.
Though then there comes the more binding problem: lack of time. Well, that can be fixed too. I better see about it after my holiday starts...
2. What do you think about this? What is or has been your biggest problem with practicing making art? Have you found something to help you? Any tips?
3. What does inspire/motive/etc. you to improve skills, whether it's art or something else?
Hearing your opinions, tips, stories whatsoever on this subject would be really nice to hear!