The last few years have been remarkable ones for me in terms of self-discovery. My academic career has taught me a ton about myself, about life, and about what my passions say about myself. I'm able to now analyze the reasons why I do the things that I do, and that's a very rewarding (although occasionally devastating -- it's hard to look at the parts of one's self that are negative or abusive, you know?) skill to have.
What does all that have to do with my dA account? Well, I've realized recently how much art was a means for me to socialize. I used it throughout elementary school up to the end of my junior college career as a way to interact with people; to break the ice, so to say. My last semester prompted me to do a project that I could draw for, and I took it as a challenge to draw for myself. To create what I wanted this particular poem I was illustrating to be. It was liberating. And the last week or so, I've understood even more how much art was one of my primary tools to befriend people. I created characters out of my friends, and showed them how I drew them. I got sucked into doing things for OTHERS instead of myself, since it made me feel good to get their feedback.
I'm taking my art back to satisfying myself. I lost the point of why I like to draw, and I need to recover it. Thus, I will no longer be updating my dA account with anything for some time. I feel that this is an extension of my tendency to garner attention through my artwork, and I need to close off those channels until I can regain my desire to draw and create for myself.
Thank you to everyone who has meandered my way and liked, favorited, commented or friended me here. I'll still keep the account as a repository of ye olde days, as well as seeing what amazing things other artists do, but it's time for me to soldier onward on my own for a while.