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Worrisome inner thoughts
I am fraught with worry that I will not react in time. I am petrified with fear that I will freeze up and stare blankly in the face of death. Stubbornly I retract that frenzied feeling before it drives me insane. Harshly I tell myself to harden up. I'm worried I don't have enough time. I stumble over my own feelings, and struggle to find meaning in my own life. I'm just trying to stay sane. Though, it's just a matter of time before I finally break myself down.
(MMD/digital) Yuuka Kazami ((touhou project))
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When will this stupid dream end already!?! I want to return to a more fantasy life again. One where I could do whatever I wanted, where I could follow the lines of the inner workings of my own twisted into a pretzel heart. I want to be able to focus on something that could make ME happy, not the money that would make others happy. I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY! I need the emotional attachment of my family, but not their scorn for not getting something I can never rightfully earn myself. They say I can do great things, I used to believe them, but now....of course I've had to rethink all I've ever really known. I can't be special enough for someone t
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Is my heart withered? I do not understand the lies I speak... as they always come as easy as truth. One fatal mistake brought my world down all around me. I still feel the hole in my heart. It's hard to sleep knowing how good I can screw up. I have to beg or I won't run fast enough... I might miss my chance and/or screw it all up again. It's going to come back and bite me hard again... after all, I'm a little slug like I always was. Without that cute little routine, I am nothing. Not even worth noting anymore. I try to tell myself not to give up, but it feels weird. I'm alone anyway...I can't be happy, so why bother? Not like I'll amount to a
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Worrisome inner thoughts
I am fraught with worry that I will not react in time. I am petrified with fear that I will freeze up and stare blankly in the face of death. Stubbornly I retract that frenzied feeling before it drives me insane. Harshly I tell myself to harden up. I'm worried I don't have enough time. I stumble over my own feelings, and struggle to find meaning in my own life. I'm just trying to stay sane. Though, it's just a matter of time before I finally break myself down.
(MMD/digital) Yuuka Kazami ((touhou project))
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Betha (Forget Already)
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Forget Already (RPG Maker 2k3)
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Diedre (OC) from Forget Already (RPGmaker2k3game)
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O'my eyes that burn ((OMETB))
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Vent Poem 2
When will this stupid dream end already!?! I want to return to a more fantasy life again. One where I could do whatever I wanted, where I could follow the lines of the inner workings of my own twisted into a pretzel heart. I want to be able to focus on something that could make ME happy, not the money that would make others happy. I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY! I need the emotional attachment of my family, but not their scorn for not getting something I can never rightfully earn myself. They say I can do great things, I used to believe them, but now....of course I've had to rethink all I've ever really known. I can't be special enough for someone t
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Vent poem 1
Is my heart withered? I do not understand the lies I speak... as they always come as easy as truth. One fatal mistake brought my world down all around me. I still feel the hole in my heart. It's hard to sleep knowing how good I can screw up. I have to beg or I won't run fast enough... I might miss my chance and/or screw it all up again. It's going to come back and bite me hard again... after all, I'm a little slug like I always was. Without that cute little routine, I am nothing. Not even worth noting anymore. I try to tell myself not to give up, but it feels weird. I'm alone anyway...I can't be happy, so why bother? Not like I'll amount to a
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Forgotten Worlds (whatami94 blog thing)
I'm not using DA that much anymore. Yes, I know that. I don't use MMD anymore, or RPG maker...I just draw. Nothing is really really worth posting on DA because it'd be drowned out anyway. No one would care it see it, so I'm using a blog format now. FIRST MISTAKE Forgotten Worlds is the blog title http://whatami94.blogspot.com , and I draw and post fiction based on my OC's. Remember Forget Already? Well...it's one of those worlds...along with a thing called Soul Coin. Remember that???? That's old, but I changed things up when I got into the Gray Garden fandom. ( Ah, but I had a wish long before that I assure you....) I'm ram
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I don't really have much to write about at the moment, but I'm going on a hiatus. I'm not going to be online or working on anything; if you asked, it's a personal decision. I am however writing a canon story on Forget Already, which will deal with a story arc from the unreleased alpha that might not make it into the finished product...(don't worry...) I'll try to deal with my char. issues, and make my OC's seem real. Oh well. Comment if you want a preview or whatever and I'll send a message if I have time. hahaha...time. Also...Em-chan, Anna says hi. <.< IDK...I met her at lunch and she asked how you were doing. >.> There... (A
Finally! A college break!
My college online classes just ended, and since this semester had...issues. Well, at least that's over. I'll be hopeful and post some more promo art for the games I'm developing. It'll be weird, but I think I'll be more active. Unless....I go with my dad over in his truck. (He drives around the country in a tanker truck.) Personal life aside, I think sister wants to make an UTAU. Crud, so I'll comply.

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emerarudosempai|Hobbyist General Artist
Hello human.
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owo Oh a visitor....hey. owo
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Hai x3
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Dang it... >.> let me try again....

Helloos! How's it going? Uhhhh maybe I'll respond sooner so we can have an actual conversation...one day.
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.-. I just realized I'm in the Touhou fandom.....or am I?
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Thank you for the points Rara.. (/ ;o;)/ <3
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Your welcome. I didn't need them anyway. :3
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