Even if I were to come back, there doesn't seem much like there is much to return to.
It looks like there's only a handful of you that regularly use deviantArt now. Admittedly, I do check this site frequently still. I'm more like a lurker. Nowadays I mainly use this site as an extra means of contacting my best friends, and to browse photos.
I just checked my previous journal entry (which I'm probably going to delete after I post this) saying that I left deviantArt because activity here was non-existent. Looking back on it now, that wasn't the actual reason. It was what I felt at the time, but it wasn't the entire reason I left.
Why did I leave? The simple reason is that I was using this account as a place to hide I just got sick of hiding. I want to be more open with who I am. It's still hard but I've been doing that on Facebook and elsewhere. I tried to do the same with deviantArt, but overtime the site just became a place where I'd just hide any part of me that I was ashamed of. And there's no reason for me to be ashamed of myself. There's no reason to hide here. I don't want to say I grew out of this site, and I don't want to say the site was holding me back. It's just that it got to the point where I couldn't sufficiently express myself on here, if that makes sense.
I have thought about coming back, but for me there's two problems with doing that, both of which involve me wanting to become a published author. The first problem is that this is an art site, not a writing site. I'm not going to get a lot of feedback here. I've actually looked at other websites and, well, there doesn't seem to be any website that strikes me as being ideal for me. Fictionpress doesn't provide much in the way of feedback and Writing.Com looks like an absolute mess of a website. I should just start my own website probably. But if I were to do that, I'd actually need fans and readers. And to do that I should probably be submitting to good, reputable and popular anthologies and magazines.
The second problem is I don't want my writings connected with the name WarthogDemon. I want to separate myself from my online persona. I don't know if there's anything about my online persona that would be damaging to me in anyway, but I'd like to play it safe. Demons aren't notable for being professional.
The point is that if I were to use this for literary purposes, I wouldn't be able to use any of it in regards to my real persona.
Despite those issues, I still feel I should use my account for something
. I'm certainly not going to deactivate it. There's way too much history (good and bad) that I want to keep up. Also, this account is a part of me. I'm not ashamed of it. I'm not washing my hands with it.
I just need to figure out what to do with it.