You who see right through me,
Seep into me, and touch these lies
That you know, in whole, untold
For you saw it behind these eyes.
Not once spoken, but not denied,
These lies you seek, that I hide..
Deep inside, behind these eyes.
Whisper to me, so assuringly
Assure me quietly of my demise..
Tell me softly how much you hate me
Although it's you that you despise.
Listen closely, for the wind it whispers
The forbidden thoughts that cross this mind:
Thoughts of lust, and of love unfailing;
Wishes and dreams that you we're mine.
So when you decide to rip me open
And tear this spine out of my back
When you crack the shell that bin
lie to me,
take away the truth once more,
don't leave me alone in this cold dark place,
tell me its going to be okay,
that we will live to see another day.
i blame you,
i blame you for being so love-able,
so perfect,
so amazing,
so terrible,
you were my downfall and it is all your fault.
when i'm with you i get so happy,
its depressing,
knowing that i can't get those moments back.
it kills me,
how you make me crazy everytime i look at you,
i love the way your eyes tell your story,
but i hate how everytime,
they make me cry.
i was falling,
you weren't there to catch me,
you blamed it on anything.
so just lie to me,
and
She is so much stronger
than I am,
and yet so much more fragile
than anyone I know.
She is wise
beyond her years,
and yet she has no idea
what she should do.
Her pale slender shoulders
have born more weight
than she should ever
have to bear.
Her shocking blue eyes
have seen too many sights
that her seventeen years
should not have known.
Outwardly,
she is still strong,
beautiful,
composed.
But she has been left scarred,
defensive,
fragile.
Oh so fragile.
I don't know how to help,
not sure how to protect her.
But I must not let her crack.
I cannot
let her break.
Current Residence: under a dead ohio sky Favourite style of art: no real preference Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: Winamp Shell of choice: whatever skittles have is better than M&Ms Wallpaper of choice: whatever mom likes this week (family computers suck) Skin of choice: pale
Favourite Visual Artist
C18H25NO
Favourite Movies
fear and loathing in lav vegas. ...Fight Club.Girl Interrupted, requiem for a dream, Ginger Snaps
fuck no. ... i hate school sometimes. its not bad up until the last week or two. Finals are a bitch. i have so much work and not to mention no car. whee. but im almost there. wish me luck people, i think im going to need it this time around. got straight As last quarter. this one i dont think im going to be so lucky. but i will pass damnit. and thats what matters to me. maybe not to mom and everybody else, but considering, i think Bs would be just fine with me. none of my classes have been easy. and i still got 2 big projects due wednesday that i havent even started really. one i just need to do, not too hard. or at least it looks that way. b
well, is been a while, so here i go:
1. Nick has been gone for a while and i dont know when hes coming home, but at least now i can talk to him. so im feeling better about it now.
2. been apply to colleges almost done. i think they are going to make me take the ACT again. kill me? had to make a portfolio for Miami (ohio) and for a scholarship for ohio state? yeah i think so. that was time consuming.
3. i got new glasses. im a dork. and they match. hehe. i will put a picture in scraps in a minute.
4. my car is still dead. :( but dad is working on it today. i should have it back tomorrow. but definatly by monday. thank god, i feel so worthl
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