I wonder how all of you are doing and how have you been? Good I hope.
Seasons Greetings to you all and to my old DA friends Nyurt, Mazena, Denjinsnake, shinjason & etc ya all still around?
I've been missing from DA for over a year. I'm not sure if I'll be getting back to drawing groove anytime soon, and hope you all understand.
Long story short, lots of things happened this year, I'll be honest and say first love came along unexpectedly and it was extremely messy and I was messed up emotionally, mentally & physically. I was literally incapable of bringing myself out of things even though I wanted to. He got people involved, I got people involved, things got complicated. But right now, maybe things are okay. I don't know about later, but right now it's...somewhat okay perhaps. I can only hope for the best, but I may get the worst result still in the end, but right now... anyways,
Because of what happened, I lost interest in a lot of things i used to love to do, and art is one of those.
This year I'm 23. Time passes by quite fast when I think of it. Next thing I know, I'll be 30 and I'll go, what have i done in life? Not long it seemed I had just started into my degree course. University life overall...has been full of a lot of sad things. Good things, but sometimes I think I could have lived without taking a degree. Then again because of the bad things that happened, I might not have met some of the nicest, supportive, kind and understanding people I know, or feel more confident about my people skills. I still have not lost my touch in making friends on my own no matter where I am, and that's great.
I've made mistakes, mostly unintentionally. And I've come to realise certain things about myself as well such as the fact that I am an emotional type. When I'm happy, I'm really happy and when I'm sad, I'm really sad. Because I've always generally never come across anything too hard to get past, or never really experienced the things most people would have gone through early in their life (teenage drama etc) perhaps I still can be called naive. Even now.
Anyways, just some updates, but I know my friends who've been with me since kindergarten, know me best and love me still and I have lots of friends and people who love me and I thank them for still being there for me. For those who haven't and who stopped being my friends because of this matter and judge me for it, I'm sorry you feel that way.
In case I don't log in till the new year, Happy New Year everyone.