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I am feeling majorly isolated and depressed right now :( I wanted to comment on some of your works today, I wasn't even able to do everything I wanted to... and I'm sick on top of that. Please forgive me :heart:


However, I drew yesterday, so I'd like to share it here:

The Passive by Vivyi
I'll upload this later if I get a chance / can come up with something reasonable to say about it.

It's not much, but it's something to start <3

Anyway, take care everyone! Sorry for well... everything. I've been struggling a lot with my inner-self, and what direction I want to take my life in... and really trying hard to be positive. 

My battle feels bigger than life right now...

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PrideSyn Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
Vivyi, there's no need to apologise. I know what it's like to not do everything you want to do in a certain time frame, but if you need to just take a breather, then do so.
Also, I can't help but say that that drawing is beautiful as heck and that the white lines really make her stand out and aaaAAAAAHHHHH. 

You've been doing a lot lately, so treat yourself and have a rest. Eat some chocolate, it's good for yer brain. Reach out and read from new authors. Hug a floofy doggo. Do things that'll make you happy and relax. <3 If you need someone to just chat with, I'm here, and so are a bunch of others. You're a good person and people care about you.
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: I've apologized so much it's become habitual, unfortunately XD I'll try to resist the urge from here on out. But I really do appreciate it. Taking a breather might be necessary :nod: I'll need a lot of rest and some recollection, I think. Perhaps some meditating, to figure out what's draining me.
Aaaaaaaa I'm so glad you like the drawing <333 Everyone says this drawing is so beautiful, which makes me so happy ;u; Sometimes I worry I don't draw good enough or put enough effort into my work ^^; I guess I'm a perfectionist at heart XD

You know, I really have been, so maybe I just need to relax a little. Haha, sounds good! A whole day of reading sounds pleasant. I must cuddle with my cat. XD

Thank you <33 I'm very glad for the support. So many people have shown their care, which has really honestly helped me feel better. :heart: I've been having a few illogical thoughts about people not liking me, or what not... and I'm glad to see that's not true. :hug:
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PrideSyn Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
I will admit, I apologise out of habit too, so I might be a hypocrite, but you really don't have anything to apologise for. <3
Breathers are a must for us humans, so please take a few every now and again from now on. :) I know robots are cool and all, but so is taking care of yourself. ;) Or do I need to get a plane ticket and bake you fifty cakes?

It's understandable to not like your art and/or feel like it isn't good enough. As someone who arts (occasionally, because it makes me sad when I can't draw hands) too, I feel perfectionism is a given :P I must say though, concerning your works, I always get this storybook feel to them which kinda adds to your story pieces. At least, in my opinion ;) 

Cuddling with kits is a quality way to relax! As I like to say, good kitties get good kissies :D

I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better. <3 You're a very likable person, so I don't think you need to worry about that.Tight Hug 
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I'll do the best I can to take care of myself when needed <3 I take weekly sage baths already, which helps me relax and gives me long term healing and support for a healthier brain. :D I do appreciate the concern though, please know I am trying my best! <33

It's been a feeling which has definitely happened for a while, but that just leaves room for growth, am I right ;) I am already getting excited about drawing again, which is fantastic, I think!

Ahaha that is the most adorable idiom I've ever heard XD

I'm feeling a whole-ton lot better, and I've felt like by letting go of all of the negativity surrounding myself, I've opened myself to a better tomorrow, by learning to cope with what I have :D

:tighthug: Thank you <33 I am very glad to hear that :tighthug:
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Obelis Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
No need to apologize for having struggles. :huggle: It's a beautiful drawing! So sensitive~
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:huggle: Thank you <33 I really appreciate it, honest. I've been feeling very under the weather lately, and I think it's taking a toll on my mood >< I tend to be a very giving person, and I think it stresses me out sometimes, when I can't do everything I want. ^^;

I'm very glad you like the drawing too :tighthug: Since I called into work today, I can probably upload it :) 
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The-Almighty-Muffin Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw... I hope that you can feel better... And that drawing is lovely. I love you, and I hope you can feel better. *sends hugs*
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:huggle: Thank you <33 And thanks for understanding :) Glad you like the drawing too. I'll take care of myself, no worries :heart:

In the meantime... bed! I am dozing off writing this comment XD
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The-Almighty-Muffin Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
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R-Doll Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I find your new picture to be passionately charged for starters. More importantly, while I do not fully comprehend what you're going through, I just want you to do what you must. Rule #1 as my dad once said, "take care of yourself". It's not good to over exert yourself. I pray things will sort things out and that your health stabilizes. 

You don't need to apologize. Life does get out of control beyond human reasoning. However, as I read from Gladwell, a journalist who wrote theories on psychological and humanity, humanity possesses a certain amount of control no matter the situation. I know you have control and furthermore, power to overcome your struggles.

I'll leave you be. I'm sure you need some space and a focus on practical solutions. Sympathy can go so far. If I could, I would like to treat you to some cooking. That's my hospitality speaking ^^;
Take care Vi. I'll be here when you need a friend/listener/person to chat with.
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you <33 It is alright, to sympathize, but not understand is probably best - it's best if I don't explain it, but like you said - taking care of myself, and regaining control is important. I'm glad you understand that some things really shouldn't be explained, that practicality makes you a good person. 

I guess apologies aren't always necessary, considering how much I  sprout them now-a-days. Still, the level of guilt  I've felt, has been a large magnitude as of late. Your  viewpoint on control is interesting, and I would be glad to read some articles from Gladwell as well. I am a huge fan of psychological readings. 

Practical solutions perhaps, but I would believe- also a new mindset. Sympathy goes farther than you think :hug:
:huggle: I'm very glad you would like to cook for me! You remind me of my best friend. He cooks me all kinds of meals, and they are absolutely delicious - especially when I'm down. We'd make the perfect platonic couple except due to a family emergency, I can't see him for 3 months after next week :') I guess that's partial to my sudden depression. D:

:huggle: Thank you <33 And thank you for offering to talk to me! I can talk about the more physical things behind my depression if need be, but to explore the more spiritual side of things might be discomforting - I'd prefer notes about such, if need be. <3
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R-Doll Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome. There are some things that a person shouldn't disclose to others unless he or she is ready to. Practicality is something I still need to build since I tend to be impulsive or too idealistic. 

Gladwell also writes books, compiling his findings. One of them is called, "Blink: the Power of Thinking Without Thinking" and where I drew the insight from.

Sympathy is capable. It can do only so much though. If my sympathy has been meaningful to you, that's comforting to know. 
Human compassion is important.

Awwww, that is a very friendly gesture of him. I'm a little jealous. That's just my bit. I can't complain really bc with the knowledge and cooking degree, I can make stuff for myself in addition for my fam and friends. Thing is you got a specific bestie to feed you when you up and down. LOL It's good to hear about these types of relationships. It warms my heart. :) 

You're welcome. I'm going to send you a note quick. Just something to keep in mind in terms of contact. ;P
Lovely Shoujo Emoji (Huggy Hug) [V2] 
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I really hope things get better for you soon <333 And I really like that picture! 
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:huggle: Thank you <33 I'm very glad to have your support :) And I'm glad you like the picture, I think I will upload it tomorrow if I get the chance. I can't promise anything, and my fatigue is over the limit of what I usually deal with... but I'm working on it. Thanks for understanding :heart:
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome <333 You definitely have it!
And ah I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully you get a good rest soon <3
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahaha I tried with the rest, the rest was very toss-and-turnish but at least I'm in the mood for fish XD Thank you regardless lol :heart:

I'm always glad to have people's support :tighthug:
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ah hey at least you tried! XD You're most welcome :tighthug: 
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Vivyi Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep! And I had chicken patties instead... with Sriracha Mayo. My poor-mans lunch XD
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Arasteia Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oooh still sounds good!
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