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Life Throws Curveballs / Updates

Thu Aug 16, 2018, 5:43 PM
Heyaaa allllllll

I'm doing alright, well, other than being in what was dubbed as being the "worst air quality in the entire United States" - hence the uprising of new, horrendous allergies, fighting smog with mask-wearing and crippling coughing;;

Yet life must go on, so we shall be working in smog wearing masks till we go on, and doing our jobs despite the horrendous fumes of flames of various fires surrounding ourselves, and we will only stop if it hits our town, because we never quit, never for anything;;

Can you tell how sarcastic I am? Probably;; unusually so, but I am horrendously beat with the fumes curdling the back of my own throat, it's dryness causing me to constantly sneeze, choke, and cough - and certain foods, like peanuts, cause me to become extremely tired and fall asleep at odd hours after catching my breath;; I hate to say it, but I've avoided the health problems for too long, and now I am choking, and it can't be cured easily;;

Antihistamines won't work for medical reasons, and I've too recently had nose surgery for Fluticasone to work;; I must have something else, something better, something more natural;; or at least, something to where I won't suffer quite as badly;; but the problem is, A and B don't work, and there's no C, so I must suffer while using natural remedies;; Eucalyptus can only do me so much good!

However, my last hope - my doctor - shall tell me what is actually going on, and if there even is a C option </3

Wish me luck guys, because I will ABSOLUTELY need it </3

Two other things:

1) The Netheron Series i.e.: Duchess of Tears, Princess of Rain, Kingdom of Nothing, is becoming an online graphic novel which will be personally edited by myself, proofread by a few close friends (and whoever would like to <3), and lastly, uploaded online on Deviant Art, and Wattpad, free of cost, and ONLY free of cost, UNLESS you donate $12 dollars at Kofi for a free PDF.

Publication is not an option for me, not yet, probably not ever... so this is how it's going to be from here on out </3 All of my stories will be online projects for all of you, but still proofread. If you would like to support me, and become a beta reader for my future work, please let me know below <3

2) I am discontinuing the Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket Comic. However, I have not given up on a longer term comic once I have gotten Duchess of Tears published on here. More details later ~

3) I am posting poetry more often, I will get back to posting art more frequently soon. All stories from here on out will now have illustrations <3

4) The "Short Story Compilation" project, will now be posted on dA both as individual stories, and proof read by somebody I care about and then illustrated by me <3 

That's all for now ~ I did write this out, then deleted it because it was not written out correctly;; I hope this is clearer and makes more sense, though I apologize for my little introduction - the sassy sarcasm of my whole situation, probably is not neccessary! Hahaha

Loooooove Wins and so does Recovery

Wed May 16, 2018, 8:08 PM

rainbow heart 2 LOVE WINS rainbow heart 2 

and so does recovery!


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Hey all!!!

About a week ago I wrote a journal describing suicidal thoughts and feelings... and I'm happy to say, I've bounced back and recovered from all of that! (In just a week, which is fortunate!)

Fortunately, I was just going through a phase of suicidal depression, and I wasn't actually intending for anything to happen ^^; There were some scary things that went on for about a day or two, but I feel a LOT better, and I'm stable too!!

Suicidal Depression rarely happens to me anymore, but it is apart of my diagnosis, and it CAN happen! It is, however, just as real and painful as somebody going through suicidal thinking without an official diagnosis of depression, but it's not (usually) permanent! 

Suicidal thinking is never really permanent, but sometimes it can turn a temporary problem into a permanent solution. It's up to somebody like me - who experiences this - to go ahead and seek help when it's needed. :heart:

It's just as painful, and CAN escalate into a suicidal breakdown, with knives and cutting. I did not cut myself during the last journal I sent where I mentioned a knife - but boy did I come close!

I was as careful as I could be in that situation ^^; I took care of myself the best I could, with what I had.

I got help, and received it. Many people offered their support, and I had a whole team of case managers, friends (both online and off) and family ready to help me. :)

But I've recovered! And am currently going through Pride Week as an executive behind it - So if you wonder where I've been, I've been sleeping @_@ I am mentally and physically exhausted from both school and Pride hahaha I sleep... constantly x'D It's my life XD

If you all don't mind, I am going to remove the two previous journals ^^; I don't want/mean to scare anybody hahaha

Anyway, I won't go into too much detail on what triggered it, because I've discussed with the person and we're all good, and she's been very kind about it <3

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I would like to take a moment and share some amazing and motivating quotes from all of you <3

These people shine the brightest, hold a deep level of compassion, and are the most wonderful friends I could ever have. They've helped place a beacon of light into my world, when times were tough - and I feel honored to be in an online community with so many positive and honest people  :heart: 

I want to real quickly tag R-Doll and Summer-Peaches  for especially being very supportive... without you both, I probably would still be feeling extremely lonely and distraught. You've been very helpful with helping nurse me back to health - no matter how slow it may be.  I followed your advice and reached out, and I am glad I did <3

I also want to thank Naysae for being a support system to me during this time as well. Though we didn't talk about it as much, I appreciate you listening to me and my rambles ;u; You're an amazingly compassionate person as well, and I really appreciate you <3

Lasty, thanks to you all, who have shown concern or commented on my last two journals - or the previous journal - and shown a degree of support for me.

From the bottom of my heart, it amazes me the amount of kindness and genuineness I feel from all of you.

Whether you know me as a friend - or whether you're still getting to know me... I just want to say, truly... thank you for being there for me :heart:

I believe no matter how small of an impact you may have on somebody, that even just commenting on a post for someone who is in a deep set of pain, and just saying something nice, is inspiring and helpful. :heart:

Without further ado - 

Here are some of the quotes written by those who commented in the previous journal <3


A smile is free but sometimes worth everything ~ 
Quoted and Given by Solaneae 

“It’s the simple things in life that bring the greatest joys.” -Photo Album Given by :devLevi-The-Badass

Surrendering isn’t always the synonym for defeat, just as death is not always a synonym for an end.” Quoted and given by Levi-The-Badass

“Humanity may have its lows, but it’s best to stand together to build its highs.” - Jespi Given by SerenityRiver135

"Kindness is contagious." Quoted and Given by JohnKasha 

"Home is where community is."  Quoted and Given by JohnKasha 

Even in a time of great pain, a propserous heart is a heart that knows justice. Quoted and Given by Vivyi (me)

Invincibility doesn't exist, and we are all vulnerable to striking words. Quoted and Given by Vivyi (me)

Suicide is not an answer. It is the death of our egos. Quoted and Given by Vivyi (me)


May this be a reminder of how no matter the struggles that we inherit, that there is a definite way out! 

Again, a warm thanks to all of the lovely people who supplied quotes, as well as the people who have commented on my previous journals! Your honesty and humanity is always appreciated. I hope more of you step up, and start communicating more with me and other people in need. :heart:

Lastly, I want to thank YOU, the reader, for reading all the way through. If you're having a horrendous day, I hope these quotes cheer you up and make you happier and help guide you through the day :heart:

To a more positive and healthier living! Pink Heart Icon  

~ Vivienne Waltzer

(If you have a quote you want to add... please let me know, and I will add it to the list~ :D )


Send Me Your Best Quote / Saying

Sat May 12, 2018, 1:30 AM
Hello beautiful people :heart:

If you haven't heard the news, I am going through a series of unfortunate pain. If you could kindly send me a quote or saying that reflects joy, or happiness for you (you can make it up, even), I will make another journal with your quote/saying and say something good about you in return <3

You're all wonderful people, and I wish only the best for you, only the best.

I hope you wish the best for me too.

I'd rather be drunk on joy, than sadness and misery. </3

Netheron Related Updates

Thu Apr 26, 2018, 5:20 PM
To those following the Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket comic (and everyone in particular - read past here for announcements for everyone)

I may have done a lot of style juggling unintentionally, but I'm settling on a paintery style that starts off as a sketch, turns into a vector - then turns into a paintery style.

Like here:

Yvette Violetti Painting 1 by Vivyi

Or here:

Somebody's Light by Vivyi

Also, I wanted to apologize for my sudden focus on "daydreams" for Marcilyn's character.

That wasn't originally written in the script...

Therefore, while I work on the next page for the comic - 

I am going to redo the previous pages to match the new vector-paint style and redo the interactions.

I feel I did not work hard enough to make it look appealing, and I also feel like the pages don't look "crisp" enough.

Most noteably - I am focusing it to make it look similar to Marcilyn's picture above - unsaturated, paintery, and yet crisp.

Marcilyn's picture only took me an hour, so each page will likely only take 3 hours.

Comic making is something that is new for me, and I think I should give you all my best quality work.

So if you've stopped reading past the third page - don't fret. Improvements are  coming <3

To everyone - 

I am uploading those two pictures soon. This is a close lookup at them.

I've found a way to combine sketching, vectoring, and painting in one go for an effective picture. It will take some practice and a bit more experimenting to make it effective, but I enjoy working on those type of projects more than painting OR vectoring - and it's a happy medium between the two, though I will probably still do commissions in either painting or vectoring, until I can establish this as a new style.

Also - I promised I would do commissions soon, and I'm starting them today! Here's my commission journal:

COMMISSIONS (CLOSED)    
Vivienne C. Waltzer
COMMISSIONS



Status: CLOSED


Accepting offers NOW!
Note that I may edit this with tweaks and such and clean it up some more! Suggestions are very helpful as well, and feel free to ask questions!


About Commissioning Me

I draw character art, comics, vectors, paintings, drawings, book covers, web graphics, and avatar and signatures.
I'm really open to subject matter! But if your work consists of mature content of the explicit degree - (such as sex, or extreme gore) then I will not accept your commission.
I will also not accept your commission if you ask for fetish art, hate art, or suicidal themes. 
I'm LGBTQ friendly!
I will work on your art, no matter who you a


The vector-painting style probably won't happen until later on, when I've solidified that as a style. It may replace the painting style, but I'm not sure yet.

I probably won't promote right away. My focus is the comic, but I figured I would leave it open just to see if anyone would take it.

For those following my short stories - 

I have 2 new projects in the works, among the 2 novels and comic that I am working on.

One takes place during the original Drethathon book - a scene with Estelle and Marcilyn at a picnic. I am currently editing it into a solidified short story about - well - the essence of pure love.

I will note: because this story is old, Marcilyn goes by she/her pronouns. I will try to incorporate elements of the newest book, but Estelle will think that Marcilyn is female - and therefore, it may read so like that. (Marcilyn goes by all three pronouns in the actual novel - she/her they/them and xe/xem - you're welcome to call Marcilyn by any!)

The other? As a result of the new poll that has gone out - Ramsephene and Otto won, so I feel I will possibly write an Otto-specified POV of his mother, and a traumatic encounter. There may be someone else who shows up in the short story - no spoilers if it happens - I will refer to them as "the duchess". If you know who that is, don't tell a soul. ;P

I am trying to turn away from my more LGBT-oriented content, and instead trying to focus on plot-specific elements of the actual story - WITH LGBT elements. I simply want to engage people with a story about love and show that all forms of love are beautiful <333

Novels

It is determined that if I write Ramsphene and Otto's story as canon, it will be apart of my new short story collection called Tales of an Inventing Witch.

If I write it as not canon, it will be posted here.

But it may be the story I select to post as my second short story for Tales of an Inventing Witch.

I am still planning on self-publishing as E-book only. Pricing is undetermined, but cheap.

The Duchess of Tears novel will be more expensive - perhaps published through a publishing company, but still undetermined.

For now, as my experience is still underwhelming - I will say that there is a chance I will send it off to publishing companies - but there is also a chance I will send it off to self-publishing. It depends on the seriousness I have with my writing career, and how much money I want to make with Duchess of Tears and other novel projects.


Duchess of Tears is going smoothly - I finally broke through a major writing block, and I am plowing away at the chapters. I am still on the same version I was, trying to finish... but I know that I will!

Tales of an inventing Witch has been at a standstill for a while - I was focused on the comic. I will jump back to it once I finish the comic, and the short story between Marcilyn and Estelle.

Quick Personal Life Update

I am starting a job as a writing tutor. Every Thursday, I will be there -  but I could possibly be there other days too. It's my dream job, so I am glad I have a chance to do it.

I've had some difficulty with feeling lonely with some personal life issues - gradually, I am kicking myself into gear with my school work - and focusing on that. 

I hope I can remain positive, happy, and hopeful for the future :heart:

- Vivienne C. Waltzer









 

I've failed to meet your needs.

I've failed to be your light.

I've failed.

On Deviant Art, Twitter, and Instagram.

I've failed.

In life, in desire, in motivation.

I've failed.

In likeableness and strength -

in love, in life.

Failure.

Complete and utter failure.

We all experience it at one point in our lives.

But why?

I grew sick in my heart. That is why I failed. 

I grew sick in my spirit. That is why I failed.

I grew sick in my mentality. That is also why I failed.

Part of it was obsessing over the idea of success, and being disappointed when less than satisfactory was thrown at me.

Growing obsessed with page numbers - growing obsessed with the idea of dreams and fantasies.

I wanted to become a world wide known author. 

But the reality is, I will never be just that.

I wanted to climb the social ladder and become a well-known activist for the LGBT community and Mental Health community.

But with the limitations of my mind and fear of being targeted - I will never be just that. 

I wanted to explore and adventure across the world, and meet and greet with new people and get to know all kinds of people.

But the reality is - I'm too ill to be just that.

But am I really too ill, too limited, too disabled for any of these things?

Have you heard of the disabled authors who make it out there - writing fiction about their lives? Some of those books - are best sellers.

Have you heard of the advocates for mental health issues, that - although not the top of the line - deliver such honest and fantastic service to those in the mental health field - when they have a mental illness themselves?

I have had so many opportunities to adventure around in other places - but I don't need to be so afraid to go exploring the world!

We must all understand our limitations in a time where we are weak and unable to properly function.

But we also must not let anything hold us back from accomplishing our dreams.

If that disabled writer can do it - 

If those mental health advocates can go around and help people, despite their mental illness - 

If I have those chances to go exploring - 

Shouldn't I take them?

It's a bit discouraging - you tally up the amount of LGBT novels out there - only about 300 are being submitted per year compared to the hoards of straight fiction - a whopping 10,000 or so. 

And those numbers could vary a little more than I withhold, but it's still the general thinking - LGBT is niche at best for some, and the straight community will only read subtle LGBT - if anything at all.

Why do I only have 190 watchers - for a variety of 5 - 6 years?

Truth is, my content is niche as hell. Not everyone's gonna like reading about the LGBT community, reading poems about mental health, or even hearing about well, my journals about advocation and reading updates on my novel series.

I have actually gotten more unwatches than watches... within the last 3 years of my Deviant Art experience.

Why?

Part of it was my attitude. I had a very sour and depressing - even sometimes pessimistic view on things.

The other?

My behavior didn't match my content. I am highly versatile in my craft. Certain people will watch me for my poetry, for my artwork, for my novels and short stories - and now, I even do comics - which only some people are following as well.

I have different personas for different forms of art.

I joke, I am serious, I am even depressing and optimistic, and foremost - I am honest.

That confuses people.

That confuses myself.

I told myself,

"What if dreams are just dreams?"

The reality? We can live them if we change our mentality.

Years ago - 2013, 2014, 2015 - I was successful. I had successfully worked my mentality.

I met authors. I drew murals. I even had my name in the newspaper!

I became an A student for a full year - I currently still stand a 3.8 student.

I adventured to all sorts of great places - I met all sorts of kind and generous people.

I was at the peak of my lifetime.

I even... quite frankly... felt motivated enough to take risks even in the beginning of 2016.

I had found many friends who accepted me for who I was, it was the start of many beautiful friendships that I still carry today.

I started to grow Netheron into a succeeding novel. People loved what I wrote. 

I remember the day in 2014 when I first put up Netheron online. 

People read it... and loved it. Even if back then, I was a novice writer, but people enjoyed my work!

Then August 2016 happened.

I was in contact with a bad doctor.

I nearly commit suicide.

Why? Because my meds were lowered to nearly nothing.

I almost didn't survive.

I told myself,

"What if dreams are just dreams?"

The reality? We can live them if we change our mentality.


I knew those words by heart - but I felt hopeless and stuck.

I took a bunch of my anxiety pills and came extremely close to shoving them down my throat.

My online world was chaos. 

I kept quiet about my issues - until the day I decided to go into stabilization.

This doctor was abusing me, quite frankly!

It wasn't my fault. But in a way, he also saved me.

He gave me a sliver of hope when he showed me a scale. On one end, was a person who was extremely healthy. 

The other? A person who was extremely suicidal.

He told me - 

"Even if you feel like you are going down to the bottom, you can still climb back up."

I feel that applies not only to folks who are suicidal - but to life itself.

It applies to failure. It applies to what makes us fail, but also to what makes us stand against our faults.

His intent was to save lives, even if in the process he destroyed them.

When I failed to meet my needs...

I started to not appreciate everything I was doing. I started to hate what Netheron had become. I started to hate myself. I started to obsess over scars. 

I obsessed over labels - because I was looking for an outlet to my own pain, my own suffering, my own inner chaos.

That was 2016.

2017 wasn't any better.

And 2018 isn't starting out so smooth, either. A lot of chaos in the wind.

I had, for the first time... accepted failure to meet my needs. I had... for the very time... failed to be an artist, a writer, a creative. 

But here's what I'm going to tell you.

Failure is not always a bad thing.

You have to hit rock bottom to climb your way back up.

If I've failed now, it's not going to be forever.

I'm going to learn from my mistakes.

I'm going to adapt myself better.

I'm going to have a positive attitude.

Who cares what some doctor tells you, right? Doctors can be in a position to care, but they can also be in a condition to harm.

He told me that my behavior was weird, strange, and wrong.

He told me I couldn't wear ties because I had a personality disorder. 

I don't.

I don't have one.

I don't have BPD, Schizotypal, OCPD, or any of the personality disorders that he listed.

I don't have hypochondria.

I don't have any of the illnesses he mentioned.

He told me, it was better to label myself as such because it would help me.

It only hindered me. 

He took advantage of me at a vulnerable time.

I proved him wrong.

I proved him wrong, and I got out of there - I found different care. 

And I'm building my confidence ever so slowly but surely... to where? Who knows. 

I am at a turning point in my life.

I can go anywhere. I can do anything I want. Sky's the limits they say.

The mentality is a bit broken.

The truth is, you can't do everything you want in life. But you can do most.

You can't always make it. You will fall at some points. But you know what? You can get back up again, and try again!

 Will you make it? Only some do. Only some can. 

Do you have the strength?

Will you persevere?

Will you desire to?

I am determined to make it. If it takes my entire life - so be it. 

I am not going to give up easily. Persistence and perseverance is key.

I have both. I will ready myself and become successful. I will not be afraid of failure. I will take opportunities as they come.

I can and WILL be successful... there's no doubt about it in my bones!

I still cling onto the vision I have for myself...  standing for and reaching my fullest potential - it's like a dream I have yet to accomplish, but it's a dream that is not just idealistic, but possible.

My fullest potential might look different from most people- but I will live it. One day, I will live my fullest potential. And that's a promise. 

So will I give up? No. I will not.

I'll fight on.

Dreams will not just be dreams.

And we all have the ability to live them.



 

Brief Tutorial: Folder Icons on dA

Sat Apr 14, 2018, 5:04 PM
Non core members can do this!

Here's a brief tutorial:

Click On Gallery Folder by Vivyi

Click on an icon

Folder options 1 by Vivyi

In the corner there is a box that says "Folder options"

Click On Icon by Vivyi

Click on "icon"

Change Icon by Vivyi

Click "Change icon".

You have an option to change the icon/upload a PNG file for it. Usually, 100 x 100 or 50 x 100 works best. Sometimes you can use 100 x 200. Just depends on what you want. :D

Once you've changed it, click "save".

Usually Photoshop works best, but any other art program can too.

If you want FULL on customization (html backgrounds too), that's a core-only option, and I don't quite know how to do that ^^;

But custom folders are available to anyone. :D

Enjoy <333

(Saw a person asking about this on dA, I was sure there were others who were curious about the same thing. Please let me know what you think below, or if you have any questions!)

*edit* 

Here is the help page on dA for this as well, if you want more details:

www.deviantartsupport.com/en/a…

(edited for numbers because dyslexia XD)


About my sexual orientation

Fri Apr 13, 2018, 6:12 PM
If you've peeped onto my profile for the last couple of weeks, you've probably noticed a LOT of juggling around with labels :XD:

I wanted to clarify a few reasons why I've been juggling with labels so much.

So my current label is Agender "Queer" but you've probably seen Agender "Lesbian" Agender "Demisexual Lesbian" and just "Lesbian" and I apologize for all of this confusion... >_> 

I feel I will either be satisfied with just "Queer" or "Agender Queer" using "Queer" as a sexual orientation.

Why am I identifying as "Queer?" 

A few things: Somebody I dated is going through transition, and if I was still dating them, I could possibly be considered in a "Straight" relationship. I have been attracted repetitively to trans woman, trans men, and non-binary folk. I have also been attracted (seldomly) to cis woman. I have never been attracted to cis males. Therefore, I identify as Queer in my sexual orientation, to highlight all of these things, including what I thought was asexuality, but doesn't fit on any of the asexual scales. 

To clarify: I do feel sexual attraction, as seldom and as rare as it might be... I usually only feel it for one person at a time, similar to Demisexual, but what seperates me is the fact that I can have sexual moments between other people in short term glimpses, similar to sexual attraction, but I never really have urges to have "sex" so per say, or think of it like that... I just get a bit... uh... raunchy, and it seems to highlight as just a strange personality quirk. And I go through LONG periods of having no sexual or romantic attraction at all. (sometimes several years)

THIS however, doesn't mean a thing in terms of my support for the community. I MAY have had a rather unusual streak of submitting a lot of suggestive content, but I promise you - my next piece will be far less raunchy or romantic, and I will probably still do asexual-related works despite my current label. (Estelle will definitely still be asexual too!) Nothing has really changed, other than the label, and if I DO start to submit more suggestive works more often, I will be submitting it WITH nonsexual, nonromantic works as well, I promise you! ^^; (I'm usually good about doing that anyway, so I apologize for my recent submissions!)

Romantic attraction is a bit more tricky... I could technically call myself "Demiromantic" because my romantic attraction works this way, but it's a bit... uh... controversial, so I will refrain from doing so, and I personally think Queer shortens that, and is a bit less controversial.

My gender identity is Agender, which as you might already know - I consider myself to have no gender, and really, what works best for me is using any pronouns and having no restrictions - but all I ask is that you respect that I consider myself to be nonbinary and that you respect the fact that I don't consider myself "cis" but I do consider myself to be androgynous in some ways. ^^;

In the future, I may use gender identity as Queer as well, if I feel comfortable enough and it doesn't stir discomfort. But my main reason for identifying as Queer, is to be more inclusive of nonbinary and trans folk, whom I am attracted to. 

I prefer to remain private on information about my past lover's transition, but I hope that you all understand that out of my dearest respect for the trans and nonbinary community, but also the asexual community, that these changes be made for myself.

I mean no disrespect in anyway at all for all of my label juggling, I just am having a very hard time finding myself as a whole, which is why a general label is best for me, as of right now. I feel like queer doesn't complicate anything, and it's been recommended to me more than once now, so I've finally listened.

I'm sure you can all understand :heart: Sexuality is hard, especially when you're nonbinary! :XD:

Using Writing Programs for Organizing

Wed Apr 4, 2018, 10:43 PM
VIV WRITING TIPS #1

Using Writing Programs for Organizing


Hey guys!

First off, I want to apologize for the madness of my status updates or journal entries. Life's been really chaotic, and I may have said or done things I really shouldn't have. From here on out, I'm going to retain a moderately positive attitude, and avoid talking about the nitty gritty of my life.

Today, to make up for it, I'm going to teach you all some tricks in Word and Evernote!

Also I will introduce you to a new program called Trello!


What are ways to organize your writing as a writer? (With pictures!)

I use several programs to help me plan my writing, and to keep writing ( and art! ) fun and organized. 

Trello, Evernote, Word - all are beneficial to help you write. I'm a Word fan, and I use it for standard formatting. If you learn Word well, you learn a lot about formatting and it's a powerful tool to make your writing publishable. 

Did you know you can create links within word? Let me show you! Take a look at this image:

Viv Writing Tips 1 by Vivyi

This is a way you can organize your novel pre-write or your novel itself! This is also really nifty for when you are creating e-books, or nonfiction, or even tutorials for your blog! If you have a large word document, you can use these links to organize parts of the word document. Want a deeper look? Here you go:

Viv Writing Tips 2 by Vivyi



See this Link and Bookmark icon in Word? THIS is what you want! Both of these actually! We'll start with the bookmark icon...

Viv Writing Tips 4 by Vivyi

Name a bookmark that you want to save for later usage. I created "characterprofiles" to represent my character profile text. 

It will not work if you have spaces, so keep that in mind!


Viv Writing Tips 3 by Vivyi

This is the name of my text that the bookmark will jump to once I click the link of my hyperlink text.



Viv Writing Tips 5 by Vivyi

Scroll up to the top. Chances are, you'll want the text to be somewhere where you can easily see it when you first open the document.

Here is where I have typed out a smaller font, that I am going to be using for the hyperlink. 

This text (also Character Profiles) is where I will apply the link.


Viv Writing Tips 6 by Vivyi

Open up the Link tool, right above bookmarks.

Now, in the panel, I want you to select "Place in This Document" circled above.

Viv Writing Tips 7 by Vivyi

See the highlighted and circled text? This is your bookmark from earlier. Select it.


Viv Writing Tips 8 by Vivyi

Now, when you click yes, your bookmark should be ready!

Note: You MUST CTRL click your text, in order to get to the other part of the novel page. When you CTRL click "Character Profiles" it goes straight to the other part of the document. Cool right?


Now I am going to share with you a few other tricks too that I've learned too, in different programs. Let's take a closer look into Evernote, a writing accessory I've been using since forever.

Did you know that Evernote has WRITING templates?

blog.evernote.com/blog/2017/10…

You can use these to help support your character development... and even the aftermath, when you are ready to publish your novel!

Another thing you probably didn't know about Evernote, is you can create a table of contents! Just press shift and select what you'd like on the PC version and this will appear:


Viv Writing Tips 9 by Vivyi

Circle "Create Table of Contents" and it will look like this:


Viv Writing Tips 10 by Vivyi


Then you can edit it however you please, to make it presentable!

Lastly, I wanted to share a lovely program with you called Trello!

I'm sure you haven't heard of it, but artists, you can use it for art too!

trello.com/b/TD7MxFeC/vivs-art…

trello.com/b/CEcT0Ne7/viv-comi…

trello.com/b/k1zIJ5tL/vivs-wri…

These are examples of boards you can create with Trello! Writing, Comic, or Art - it has use for ALL forms of creative art, and even school if you so allowed! There are plenty of ways to use Trello, and it has integration with other apps, notably for free! (But do note: you can only use 1 per board on free version).

It's a bit self-explanatory, so I will not go into detail about the mechanics of using Trello... but if you have any questions or comments about any of these programs, I am all ears!

And please, tell me how well I explained this to you! If I didn't explain it too well... let me know and I will rephrase it for you!

All these of these programs are vital to my writing experience. My own way of planning is chaotic and disorganized because I am a huge panster, but if you're interested in my writing process... comment below, and I will tell you more about it in an upcoming journal entry.

Till then you guys :heart:

Viv out!

A Passion, A Desire, A Motive

Mon Mar 12, 2018, 9:09 AM
Hey everyone...

Today I want to share a little more about some self-discoveries I've had, and some final decisions I've made within these 2 weeks of isolation from dA.

Note - I did check back at dA frequently, but I did not leave any comments or replies, only to update minor information.

Personal Life Chaos


Work

During this period of my life... everything was chaotic.

Boss called me up on my final week of work, and told me that I would not be going to work for the next 2 weeks... and that she would call me on Wednesday.

Well... now... 3 weeks have passed.

And not only did she NOT call me on Wednesday... she also didn't call me any day, or answer when I called her. When I tried to reach her, it went to voicemail... every time. 

Unfortunately, I might be out of a job as a result, and I'm currently looking to establish new work someplace else.

Health

I recently became extremely sick with the Flu, or something of equivalence. Therefore, I can't really do anything until I recover - and as I'm out of work as well, this puts me in an impossible position.

I am draining my resources dry as a result, and may need to resort to emergency commissions until I get better and can start applying for work. I am still living with my family, but food and money is so tight, that I am spending every single day eating crackers for lunch... I am actually thankful to be spending $10 a day on food at the cafeteria... because when I get home, the best I can do is cheap pasta or homemade meals that are made of extremely cheap combinations.

Also, my mom is not currently working because of surgery... so my dad is taking over most of the money management in our house.

And I am lucky to be living at home... but I am afraid everyday for personal reasons, that I will be kicked out and test my parent's patience.

School

Suddenly, as luck would have it - I bombed my Chapter 6 test, and now need to  do a retake. As I just recently found out, I ONLY had a C+, and now I am practically FAILING this class. 

As somebody with a 4.0 GPA for a full year, and now currently a 3.8 GPA... THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE FOR ME.

Not only is it unacceptable to not pass this class, I could seriously get kicked out of COLLEGE over this... because of my only scholarship.

But as I've had a very crappy professor this quarter, who may sit with me and talk with me, he is NOT a good teacher for me IN ANY SENSE - and I am failing. 

As I am sick, I missed 2 days worth of important class time as well... with no hope of recovering it, and there is NO WAY that I will be able to pass now, if I don't pass the final, or if I don't pass the retake with at LEAST a B.

Inner-Chaos


Of course, somehow - my mind transitioned all of this to having a lack of desire to draw.

And then, I started to think about all of the times I had failed my future career as a creative - 

For one, 

I have had so many chances to do jobs related to art, or take parts in books, or do amazing things like run a meditative journal class with an author - but of course something happens to block me off EVERY SINGLE TIME from any of those things happening.

For one, could have gone to an expo. Bought tickets... could have gone. Did not - slept in on the day of.

Could have placed my art in a musuem for a student program. Not only did I not get a chance to, I of course - didn't even bother to submit anything. 

Could have been apart of the school's literary magazine. Well, I did submit but of course - it was the FINAL DAY to submit.

Could have been apart of a REAL magazine. Did not even bother to contact them, before the information went down.

Could have pitched a digital art to our local art business. Not only did I not get back to them, I also said I would.

Could have ran a meditative journal writing class with an author. Not only did I not send her an email I also later found she ran it alone, and I could have joined.

Could have been apart of a book club... but I never responded to the email.

Could have attended another writing workshop... but alas, of course... I did NOT even attempt to sign up for it. I didn't even remember to.

It's as aggravating as knowing you've got potential to do something great... but then end up not doing it because of fear, or because of "not being good enough". 

I have had so many chances to do so many great things! And then I don't! Because of the STUPIDEST reasons! Do you have any idea how frustrating that is?

I feel like the universe simply doesn't want me to be an artist, or a writer, or a creative in ANYWAY!

So thus... this started to internalize into me, and I started to feel horrible about doing art. 

And thus, as a result - I stopped drawing for several months. Without knowing why I was stopping.

Finally, as you guys might know - I gave up.

But I didn't give up drawing. I didn't give up writing. I gave up the idea of doing it professionally, as a career.

And I gave up the notion that art and writing had to be a driven career with money involved.

Instead... I plan on doing it for education. For love. For advocacy.

And of course, for fun.

I would share that mindset every time, for commission work or for any sort of literary focus that I posted to magazines, or for organizations, or for any sort of business at ALL.

This is just for fun. If I don't get in, I don't get in. This is just so I can grow as a person. 

If I think of art and writing that way then it doesn't HAVE to be a career to me. It can be a side step to my future, and therefore - I can do it alongside something like teaching. 

And it doesn't have to be professional. It doesn't have to be a career.

It can be fun. It can be for money. It can be for publicity, sure. 

But it's not a career to me. Writing and art is NOT a career, not anymore.

I am actually legit thinking about becoming a teacher or a tutor now. I will still get the creative writing degree if I can chance it, and then I'll get a degree in writing and teach that class to either high schoolers, or college level students.

Because I've realized, I am too skeptical and afraid of failure to accept the other world. If I ever want to grow as a person, I have to grow with education. That's really all there is to it.

The Final Decision


If I can't be the one to be an artist, or a writer for a future career... I will teach and grow other creatives, so they can become powerful influences in the creative field as well.

I know the ins and outs, and what it's like to take risks... even if I never took any risks or found any success myself. 

Therefore, I am going to become a teacher of the creative world. I will teach both writing AND art if I have to. 

I know I probably will NOT do well in some means... I feel this is the best fit for me, for now.

In Conclusion


This is all of the crazy things that have been bubbling up inside my head for the longest time. It's a new road, a new adventure... and something I have been wanting for the longest time. 

I feel a new redirection of my life is best. But some things will still remain.

1) I am still going to be publishing Duchess of Tears, Princess of Rain, and Kingdom of Nothing.

2) I am still self-publishing Tales of an Inventing Witch SSC

3) I am still doing commissions. But only in emergency situations.

4) The only thing that changes, benefits you all: all of my other projects will be free and also seen online, including any short stories that I create after any that appear in Tales of an Inventing Witch, and ALL stories of Tales of an Inventing Witch, MAY be posted to dA as well... depending on publication rights.

5) Once I'm published, I would like to be seen as a creative storyteller, NOT an author. Yes, I will likely have my books available for a price (it will likely be small on top of that), and perhaps I will be considered an author, but it's with my most humbleness that I would rather be seen as somebody who creates stories with the intent to educate and share and not for personal gain. For me, it's just a little extra pocket change.

One  daaaay


Nah I kid... it's going to be about Monday or so... or I will gradually return throughout next week. I have finished the coloring for the first comic page of Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket... and I will add in the text tonight, and post it upon my official return.

Until then, I did upload something recently, so I strongly suggest you take a look at it! I would return right now, but I am terribly sick... and finals are coming up, so it is quite a bad time!

The good news however, is that I have a therapy session coming up, and I plan on taking a series of those questions I showed you in the last journal entry... and we'll go through them together. Hopefully, I can find motivation, and stay motivated!

Most importantly, commissions are still happening, but only during limited specks of time. I've decided that I want my content to remain mainly free... and I've thought long and hard about the future of Netheron as well, and I've decided to give a try to reaching out to Harmony Press for my book series, and seeing if they would be willing to pick it up in 2020. We'll see you guys!!

Also, the short story compilation, I've decided, will be an E-book that is avaliable in amazon and other sites. I'm going through Smashbooks, and hoping to publish by November!

Overall, it's been a long and crazy 2 weeks... hopefully by the middle of week 3, I can finally figure out why I was so unhappy during this long string of time!

Hiatus (2 weeks or more)

Wed Feb 28, 2018, 10:37 PM
I feel like I am running away, and I know I am... but I really need to pull myself together. 

Therefore, if you didn't catch my status - I am taking 2 weeks of Hiatus.

I am not leaving Deviant Art... simply trying to find my footing as a creative. I am asking myself a lot of deep questions right now, including which direction I want to head my life in.

Therefore, I need 2 weeks to make my decision.

2 weeks to question things in writing like:

1) What direction I want to go career wise 
2) Who I am as a person
3) Whether art will be a hobby or a career
4) What makes me passionate about art and writing
5) Why do I feel hopeless and miserable about my art?
6) How I can improve my skills, and become better
7) What motivates me as an artist?
8) How much do I care about doing art professionally?

It could take longer than 2 weeks. It  could take 2 weeks... I am not sure.

I just need time to reflect and be away from social media. I will still be on the internet to look up tutorials, and I will still be on Discord and Skype. In fact, I need encouragement, because in my love for art, I am fragile, and I feel like I am breaking as a creative.

This may also mean some very hard decisions. For instance, there is a chance I may leave Deviant Art and go some place else. There is also a chance I will let go of publishing Netheron all together, and simply upload the chapters here for enjoyment. In fact, I am actually beginning to sincerely feel like that might be the best decision, because clearly I cannot stand the publishing world.

Anyway, I'm on hiatus for 2 weeks... could be more, could be less. Whatever it takes to put myself together,  I think I really need a lot of time to reflect and figure out more about who I am, and what I want.

About Commissions (A Clarification)

Wed Feb 7, 2018, 9:31 PM
Alrightie - here's a brief explanation into why I am doing commissions, as well as a bit of a update on when exactly I plan on starting. 

First off - I removed two sections of the commission journal recently. One section, is the section regarding my reasoning behind it. I am deciding to write that here. 

Secondly, I removed the section regarding comic commissions. I may add in a poetry section later on - but I am very rusty in poetry, I have not done one in a long time, and the recent one I uploaded was old. Therefore, I need to refresh my skill and potential before I write poems for other people.

Third, Painting and Cover art will be available at the start of the commissioning sequence.

Lastly, if any of you want to know why I am doing commissions, here is a slightly more elaborated (but also more honest) response:

Truthfully, I see a lot of my friends taking action in commissions, and doing well in them... I wanted to see what would happen if I gave it a try myself, and if my art stirs enough interest. 

Also, it's a bit of a money-related thing as well. Mom is getting surgery, Dad has to take extra hours because Mom can't work, I am left sometimes to pay for groceries and such. Now - I save up like a pro, I'll tell you that. I recently refunded for a Huion tablet, yes, that proves otherwise on terms of my own financial health. Parents won't even think about me paying for their financial needs even if I want to... somehow we end up having money anyway, so I can't really declare anything an emergency, even if they are having financial difficulties. Clearly, something watches over us, because we haven't had any problems at all, despite being poor as heck. But overall, I still think it would be good if I could have a bit of extra money in my pocket, in case something happens that is beyond my family's control.

Plus, I need to save up for a new laptop, phone, and drawing tablet. A lot of my funds I have saved up right now, are for after I graduate and begin to study at uni. (I am going into a Creative Writing degree) they also count as emergency such as new electronics, drawing tools, supplies, and college books.  I am NOT paying out of pocket... in fact, I plan on getting some scholarships to help pay for my experience!

Anyway, that's the basics of it. When do I start commissions?

I am still deciding on a specific time, but since I am very busy now... I am thinking February 20th. Do NOT count me on that (I am horrible with deadlines) but  I will try to notify you of when I do open. 


Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket Comic WILL ALSO be worked on and revised this weekend to match the new style I am uploading on Friday. I will try to upload it by Monday.

It's been a while since I've even touched any of my projects... so hopefully it  goes well! ^^; I also have a sample of TOAIW Compilation (Tales of an Inventing Witch) coming to Deviant Art and Taptastic this weekend, after a few more revisions. Samples of Duchess of Tears to follow once I finish the draft of it. I ALWAYS appreciate critiques on my stories, and it would be the world to be if you could critique and give me your honest input for TOAIW + general reactions on TOAIW's content. This story in particular I am uploading, means a lot to me. I will need beta-readers for the finished draft of TOAIW Compilation to catch any errors in my writing of any of the re-written or completely newly-written out stories. 

Anyway... that's all for this journal everyone <3 I have something new to upload this weekend, and then I will get back to all of your messages on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Again, my fault for the disappearance, I got behind a little in math, but I am almost all caught up now. :)

So I promised I would write a journal describing my final decision for the Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket Comic.

I'll write more about Commissions on Monday - after the  craziness of everything my status said (if you didn't read, I am going through what I call "Math Hell" where I have to do 5 sections in 3 days, and a test all at once. ) I just need to stay low in activity until then.

I really apologize for the sudden hiatus with this... a bit my fault truly. I really want to be more active on dA, but it's so hard because of the math disability. Even my PROFESSOR (who coincidentally also has a mathematical disability) is telling me I am handicapping myself for not pushing myself to learn my times tables, and Factoring requires times tables;; so I've resorted to printing off a multiplication chart UNTIL I can get myself to see patterns, but oh my lord, it is so hard because I was traumatized in childhood over math and I always become super anxious as a result whenever I see things like Factoring T_T At least he is willing to help me work through it by sitting with me for several hours and working backwards with me. My god, he is so understanding ;n; I am so thankful for people like that. OTL

Anyway;; math ramblings aside: let me explain a little bit about the poll results.

The poll for the Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket comic was a tie - telling me either style could work for this  comic! I just wanted to post more info about the pros and cons of each one. 

Pros on the comic style:

1) I could greatly improve with my art skills over time. 
2) It's colorful, and possibly fits the style of the  comic a little better than the vector.
3) It's very adorable, and really represents the characters well.

Cons of the comic style:

1) For some reason, lineart frustrates me, and I think my style looks cleaner without lineart. 
2) I'm not sure this style REALLY appeals to the general audience, it has very subjective taste.
3) It's not the style I 100% want to improve upon in the future. Perhaps with improvements, I would use it... but I'd want something without lineart.

Pros of the Vector style:

1) Clean, colorful, and attractive. It could definitely become a very worthy style over time. 
2) It seems to be the more popular of my styles - minus my painting style, which seems to be the most popular.
3) I can get comic pages done faster, and be more productive. It encourages productivity, and it's very likely I would not quit.

Cons of the Vector Style:

1) I'm concerned I will never improve as an artist if I pursue a Vector style, because the way I do art would drastically change, and perhaps not in a good way.
2) While  I would get pages done faster, it would incite laziness to clean up edges, so I might never improve.
3) People might accuse me of taking "the easy way out." XD

My final decision? Mix both.

I think it's completely doable to use a combination of vector and drawing for a more effective style. Faster, but you still improve as an artist. Art looks crisper, cleaner, but also very much you are placing your own skills into the mix, so it's still improvement over time.

Art  should not be a handicap - and with my new tablet, I have been struggling for a long time to find a style that works for me. Therefore, I will try this approach.

And something that's big with this comic for me, is improvement. So if certain parts are vectored, and others are not... perhaps I can get the lineartless look I desire, right? Right. 

I avoid digital lineart like the plague and hate it truthfully. I do it well, but I just have a hard time with the patience behind it. It's just not fun for me to clean up constantly - lineartless is more fun, it's like an adventure... but in traditional  art, pen and ink / markers / colored pencils is the way to go.  

With lineartless, I find that I enjoy it so much more. I don't mind cleaning it up, it feels more natural to me. But get me to paint traditionally, and you will find that I pretty much - again - hate it, because cleaning up constantly is an issue for me x'D

Anyway, ramblings aside - I am going to place a few experiments within the next couple of days. Right now, still going through Math hell... but I'm taking a break from Math hell to write this. It didn't take me too long to write after all. 

I will probably experiment for another hour or so, than around 4, disappear and continue my adventure in Mathematics. x'D





COMMISSIONS (CLOSED)

Tue Jan 30, 2018, 11:32 PM

Yvette the Strange by Vivyi   A little hint of what's to come by Vivyi   estelle and Marcilyn cover 1 by Vivyi



Vivienne C. Waltzer

COMMISSIONS


Status: CLOSED


Accepting offers NOW!


Note that I may edit this with tweaks and such and clean it up some more! Suggestions are very helpful as well, and feel free to ask questions!


About Commissioning Me


I draw character art, comics, vectors, paintings, drawings, book covers, web graphics, and avatar and signatures.

I'm really open to subject matter! But if your work consists of mature content of the explicit degree - (such as sex, or extreme gore) then I will not accept your commission.

I will also not accept your commission if you ask for fetish art, hate art, or suicidal themes. 

I'm LGBTQ friendly!

I will work on your art, no matter who you are, or where you come from. ALL people are allowed <3

I put a lot of effort into my work, and I hope it shows! 

Communication is email, Discord, or dA notes. Please feel free to contact me!

I accept paypal and points!


Points conversion:

(1 :point: = $1.00)

What are my prices?


Sketch - Digital Drawing Sketches 

Commission Example by Vivyi  

We shall Rule and Unite Starrech and Netheron by Vivyi



Starting at $5.00 USD / 500 points


Add a Character: $3.00 USD / 300 points

Information:

The default is deep purple lineart against a yellow backdrop.

If you would like color added to it, let me know. I will do it for free.

If I need to tweak it for proportional reasons, it will not cost you extra. 

Headshots -  Painting / Vector-Draw / Vector-Paint Headshots


Estelle Mari Violetta Avatar 2018 by Vivyi
   

Vector-Draw: $10.00 USD / 1000 points
Painting: $10.00 USD / 1000 points

Information:

I will offer more examples later on. With painting and vector-draw, option of surrounding by a border or a graphic of your choice. Vector-draw may be more suited for websites, where as the painting style might be more for a illustration.

Waist Up - Digital Painting Waist Ups



 Yvette the Strange by Vivyi   Romantic Encounter by Vivyi  

(updated examples will come soon!)

$30.00 USD / 3,000 points 

Add Character: $10.00 USD / 1,000 points 

Information: Typically takes more than one day to complete, so price is higher. Will be done in a semi-realistic painting style. Tends to be less colorful and more dark. Good for darker works.

Backgrounds tend to be mildly painterly and abstract. I will try my best to match your image. If you want something more complex, it will cost you extra.


Waist Up - Vector-Draw Waist Ups

 
Paint thy Rainbow by Vivyi  Vector Estelle by Vivyi


First Meetings Commission for R-Doll by Vivyi

Vector Draw: $20.00 USD / 2,000 points

Add Character: $10.00 USD / 1,000 points 

Information: Vector drawings. This is a new area for me, so I will price cheaper. Simple backgrounds only.

May be paired with graphics, text, for extra depending on the thing needed. Tends to be very colorful or same hue - depending on what you want.

Full Body Character Portraits and Backgrounds - These full bodies will consist of non-complex backgrounds.

     Monster by Vivyi


A little hint of what's to come by Vivyi

Painting: $40.00 USD 

Vector-Draw: $30.00 USD 

For now, NO TWO Character Option for Fullbodies. 

Examples are old, and will be updated.

Fullbody portraits of your character in each of the following styles: Painting, Vector-Draw, or Vector-Paint. Characters are generally in an abstract, simplistic background.

If you need a more background-driven scenerio, please consider my experience on the subject, and supply references.


CLICK HERE FOR COMMISSION FORMS


Thank you for viewing <3


If you have time and money, please consider donating to my ko-fi as well!

Even 3 dollars helps :heart:



About Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket

Wed Jan 17, 2018, 7:32 PM
:iconnetheron-chronicles: Presents

Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket




"When I express how I feel inside, I feel like a tree. Strong and determined, but also faceless.

"There’s something about a tree that I find beautiful… 


"But sometimes, trees fall from the ground...


"And even then, they rise again with a new seed. 


"Sometimes I feel like that with you and me."

 - Royal Inventor Marcilyn.



Meet Royal Inventor Marcilyn - a hobbyist artist  and a young inventor who's best friends with Princess Estelle. 
Xe are in love with Princess Estelle - who's a avid reader of dry books, and also helps out occasionally with the inventors.
But does Estelle love them? And does Estelle accept Marcilyn for who xe are?


Find out in Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket!


Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket Commentary 

I've been waiting to get this out for a LONG time, and I apologize for the wait! I was thinking of actually having this out around February
 or March - so I'm actually ahead in that regard!

Many of you knew me as the person who used to write stories that were very heartfelt and honest, but also pure in the sense that they are written for both young and old ages alike, and I missed that with Netheron. 

The Novel itself - seemed to be taking a different direction - a far more gothic-centric, and dark one with more mature content that made me miss what the core of Netheron was - the light hearted, fluffy and pureness of these  characters.

I felt so apart from Netheron for quite a while, because even if I thought I was writing something that I really enjoyed, at the heart of what I write, is the soft-hearted, and adoring content of these characters, because that is what I've realized Netheron actually is, and what I want it to be. 

Although I still do - and love - to write darker works alike with Netheron and other stories - I've decided for this comic, a light-hearted and pure approach was intended to reach to audiences of all ages.

Therefore, as for the novel version - I'm still deciding what to do about it, because the current version doesn't satisfy what my vision of Netheron actually is, although I do believe it is well written in any regards. 

As a whole, I hope you enjoy this work. I know it has been years since I've last released a project, and it is my apology for such. 

I've decided that my main focus will be on this comic as well as future commissions, and everything else will become secondary... including the novel <3

I'm sorry if my deadlines haven't be quite on point, I am trying - truly to stay on deadlines. As you might see from my twitter post on @vivdrawscomics - I am NOT the best at making deadlines, haha!

I hope you love my content and enjoy what I have to offer. I am trying my best to reach out to each of you :heart:

This is my first time doing a long term comic, so I would appreciate all critiques for improvement, and of course - the inspiration to keep on going ;)

If you see plotholes - let me know. My best friend and I checked profusely over Discord several times for several hours just to catch all or most of them XD I consider him almost like a co-writer... though he'll just tell me: "I'm just a critic!" But it's thanks to him that he's made so many of my projects a possibility, so I really thank him for bringing this comic to life :heart: 

NOW: when is the first page coming out?


Well you see, I am already IN THE WORKS of the first page!!


=Lock Me  Away Marcilyn Locket Page 1 lineart by Vivyi

I did a massive re-do of the script once I realized just how crappy it was - I wanted something genuine and fun to read, even for me!

The ending even got me to tweet this:

twitter.com/vivdrawscomics/sta…

And if you know as well as I do, when I get excited about  a project, I know it's going to be good!

So I hope you stick around for the premise of this  comic series... because it's been a lot of fun scripting and planning for it. 

It wasn't really what I was expecting to do, but sometimes we need a new direction in life - and hey, I discovered I actually quite like drawing comics!! :love:

I may need to invest in a new tablet AND PC because mine are getting too old. 

Being in a financial hurdle with my family, I really can't afford to spend much for my emergency / school funds for one. I'm working in place of one of my parents right now, and barely make $100 dollars per paycheck XD

So anyway... I at least need a newer drawing tablet. So if you use something that is just as good as a Wacom Intuos Pro 2014 edition, please let me know. I was thinking of a Huion brand, because from the sounds of it, people like that tablet brand better now apparently XD But I can't get anything that's like a Cintiq because I have no room on my desk for anything bigger than a small tablet :'D

The Programs I use include: Clip Studio Paint, Photoshop - and I'm currently testing an illustration / graphic design program too by Magicx XD It wouldn't be the  end of the world, though, if I couldn't use that Magicx program because it isn't really the best x'D

I also need something that's gonna be stable. So basically here's what I need:

1) It's stable and quick to install

2) Can use Clip Studio Paint, Photoshop, and any other Adobe or Manga Studio program

3) Doesn't cost anything more than $300 dollars. ^^;

Please help me out... because the current tablet market is SUPER confusing :P

Guess who finally finished the Comic Script for Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket? Meeeeeeee :heart: 

Want proof? Here's a screen shot!

Lock Me Away Page 1 by Vivyi

It's about 57 pages long, and full of cuteness! :love:

I really hope you guys will like it! It's an alternate universe, and very much is romantic, but it  definitely has some things that the original story did not! 

I'm going to do a quick spelling / grammar check with my best friend on Discord today as well as some minor revisions, but for the most part... it's done! :D


Today I also work on the very first page! And guess what? You guys get to see it!

I am aiming to get it out by January 10th!

It's going to be a WIP - but still completed page of this first page shown here. You may have seen other versions of this page if you've seen my blog - however, I am going to put a different spin on it this time, and truly think about the style and effort that I want to invoke from this comic.

I truly hope you love what I do! :D

[CLOSED] Looking For Constructive Critiques?Christmas is on the way, so it's time to do some giving (and receiving XD)! This is my Christmas Critique Exchange! :la: The aim of this event is to get you some helpful tips on your art from my other wonderful watchers (and me!) as well as give you some practice writing critiques and helping others :)
How Does It Work?
1. Post a comment with the work you'd like critiqued (just one, to avoid mass confusion XD)
2. I will write at the end of this journal a list of participants including how many critiques they've given and how many critiques they've received
3. The aim of the game is to have each participant give as many critiques as they receive or vice versa
4. You'll be put into a group - every FIVE comments will count as a group - first five = group 1, second five = group 2 and so on
5. Once I finalise your group (will tag you all in a comment), you must critique all four of the other works in your group - this way, everyo


My friend Arasteia is currently in need of 1 more writer, and 2 more artists for her critique exchange!! And if you are an writer, you will receive a critique from me because I am apart of the group! :D

What is the critique exchange?

Basically, you are in a group of 4 other people and you must critique every work, even if it is something you are not specialized in.

This is a good thing, and even life changing, because to me - I've always been a bit picky to write a critique to only works that are in my interests, and now I've discovered, once I analyze a work, I begin to like what I see, but most importantly really respect the artist who does the work too :D

You see all of those groups who only require you to critique what you like, and I think now that it's a good idea to challenge yourself by critiquing different styles, because not only does it grow your empathy for the  artist and art style, but also helps develop a mind's eye to be able to pin point improvements for a person's work. 

It's also a great way to get to know people, and explore new art styles, and I think that's great :D Ari is always a good person to help set up new and challenging contests and she's a really great person too who I highly recommend you check out :heart:

So by all means, please stop on by Arasteia 's journal for some more information about her critique exchange! :D

[CLOSED] Looking For Constructive Critiques?Christmas is on the way, so it's time to do some giving (and receiving XD)! This is my Christmas Critique Exchange! :la: The aim of this event is to get you some helpful tips on your art from my other wonderful watchers (and me!) as well as give you some practice writing critiques and helping others :)
How Does It Work?
1. Post a comment with the work you'd like critiqued (just one, to avoid mass confusion XD)
2. I will write at the end of this journal a list of participants including how many critiques they've given and how many critiques they've received
3. The aim of the game is to have each participant give as many critiques as they receive or vice versa
4. You'll be put into a group - every FIVE comments will count as a group - first five = group 1, second five = group 2 and so on
5. Once I finalise your group (will tag you all in a comment), you must critique all four of the other works in your group - this way, everyo


(By the way, if you are both an artist and a writer, you are permitted to sign up for both the writing and the art critique exchange if you don't mind doing twice the work XD)

New Years Resolutions!

Tue Jan 2, 2018, 12:40 AM

It's been quite a week, everyone! Between the discovery of financial issues, and scrubbing toilets for 7 days a week, I've got quite a bit of news for you -

I'm taking drawing commissions starting January 10th. I just need to finalize my journal, and get my paypal ready. I'm really excited and nervous all the same! Whenever money is involved, I get nervous. Please wish me good luck!

And if you're interested in receiving a drawing from me, let me know! I try to charge average price - but I'm new to pricing, and need a ton of research.

And if you'd like to help me set up / have had experience with commissions - let's communicate via Skype or Discord!

Anyway - here are my New Years Resolutions <3



Goals


:bulletpurple: Completely finish Duchess of Tears by November 31st, 2018 so I can get it prepared for publishing.
:bulletpurple:Work on the Lock Me Away Marcilyn Locket Comic and upload a WIP by January 15th
:bulletpurple:Grow more this year, and be more productive. Make deadlines and follow through.
:bulletpurple:Save up a ton. You'll need every penny.

Mantras, Resolutions


  • Don't take anything personally anymore. Just go with the flow of things, and try not to stress out. Life happens - people change, circumstances break us, mold us, shape us - we have the ability to be stronger through our actions.


  • Spiritually grow and be kind, nurturing, and self-sufficient. Give more, and enjoy the little things! :) Be both nurturing and be nurtured - don't be afraid to explore spirituality, but also don't forget who you are!


  • Learn more lessons and be practical! Don't forget to be yourself. Love who you are, and don't be afraid to listen to other people when they need to tell you something important! Love your friends, your enemies, your loved ones.


  • Dream big and explore vastly - don't take anything on a whim. Life is a journey - explore it willingly, practical, ruthlessly - make things happen you've always wanted to happen. Don't be afraid to listen to the little voice in your head.


  • Remember that people live different lives than you, and may make different decisions! Even a close family member might take a completely different direction with their life if they desire for a different way of living. No two people are the same, not even if they are twins! Keep yourself afloat, and make your own choices today. Make sure they positively affect both you and others!


  • Enjoy the little moments in life, because they truly matter <3

Dreams, Wishes


  • Become a published writer by 2020.
  • Help out in the community more, be giving, and be kind to everyone.
  • Never lose sight of the things that matter the most!
  • Don't take things personally, be fearless, and overcome challenges.
  • Overall, try to make it the best year yet!

Reflecting Upon 2017


This year was a struggle for me emotionally, physically, practically, and spiritually. But I grew in almost every single way - and I've found success in nearly everything that I do.

I lost a lot, but I also gained a lot more - I had to let go of some people in my life that wasn't making me happy, and it was truly horrible for a while, but I'm very glad I let go too. I have nothing against the people I've let go of, and I wish them well.

Life to me is a challenge - a  circumstance to grow from the impossible and build yourself into something stronger. I've found myself growing and growing into somebody wonderful to get to know, all through my small and large challenges in life. There is nothing you can't do, and I know this and have learned to take it to heart. Although I have had moments of relapse and hurt and angst and pain - I have overcome so, so much, and I'm very glad and I hope other people have overcome their pain too.

When I see people who are hurt or in pain or sick, I sincerely just want to help them grow.  This new year started off quite a bit rocky, but I ended up truly making it into a good day. It doesn't matter what gets thrown at me - because I'm always prepared for it because I think about things ahead of time.

Most importantly, I would like to thank my followers, friends, and family members for supporting me and helping me grow through these rough spots in my life. No matter what lies ahead on the road, I am eager and willing to go through it, even if it means making some sacrifices.

To 2018!


What are your New Years Resolutions? :D Tell me below!



Hey guys!

Really important you read this - especially towards the end... I have some announcements to make regarding my last journal entry, and it affects my future attendance here.  If you have time, please read through this journal entry, it would mean the world to me!


What I Learned from My Hiatus



Sometimes we all need a break, and do I ever believe it. 

I soak up emotions and feelings like no other. Sometimes when I get overwhelmed, I start to think irrationally. Hence, why I really needed to go on a hiatus.

What I  found after being in the hiatus - was a far calmer place. 

Here are some note-worthy things I've learned after being on hiatus for more than a week:


#1) Being away for long periods of time on social media actually made me less miserable. 

#2) Not worrying about replying to comments or how socially inept I am... made me happier and more productive.

#3) I don't feel like I constantly overstate myself, or overexert who I am. In fact, I like the little bubble I place around myself, a little bit of privacy is nice too!

#4) I can actually focus on my life goals and get things done. I like not having to interact with people for what feels like 24/7, it's actually surprisingly not lonely and I can still talk with my online / RL friends on Skype/Discord and invite my RL friends out to places.

#5) My empathy isn't extremely exercised to the point of where I become cold and overwhelmed about why I cannot be more empathetic to people. 

#6) I don't worry about what other people think of me. It just doesn't bother me. 

#7) I don't take things personal anymore. And I enjoy that. 

#8) I am noticeably more clear-headed and more able to make rational decisions.

#9) Anxiety is reduced as well, majorly!

#10) I literally have more time to myself, more time to be productive, and best of all - I READ more, I write more, and DO more.

In all honesty, I rarely miss Deviant  Art. But it's not because I don't like being social. I love to be social, but lately I've really been having to retreat and take a lot of breathers to myself. I've been through a lot over the years, and I've befriended a lot of people since day 1 of my time on here. 

I've felt like over the years, I've gone trough a period of time where I am incredibly social, and able to interact regularly and even sometimes do things that I never have to take a break with. But I've also gone through a period of time, where the only thing I really can do is rest and relax.

But from what I've discovered, rest and relax is so important. I once had a dream that the world didn't relax, and we were all so connected, we couldn't shut it off even if we desired, and it eventually drove the world mad. It's because we decided to constantly be at a busy rate, that  suddenly rest and relaxation were just things of yesterday.

In any sense, it's important to remain calm and level, and to stay at sync with who you are. That's one reason I am going to start what you call a "detox session."

I'm going to have detox sessions every two months on all of my social media accounts.
6 weeks of social media usage, 1 week without any level of social media usage.


I've had to take this extreme, so I can get more work done - but also for the sake of my well-being as well. During this time, I will not visit any social media, or really use the internet much outside of research purposes. So I will not be able to talk to any of you guys at all during this time, but I will still be able to send messages on Discord and Skype.

Exceptions include if:

1) I am doing a contest or commission work for somebody and they specifically want it  during a time where I am detoxing. I will give it to them by this detoxing time, but then I will immediately disappear again.

I really encourage more people to try this out with me as well. It really puts things into perspective. You CAN live without social media. And I plan on doing it at the end of every 2 months.

I also turned off pageviews because I was so sick and tired of obsessing over how many pageviews I had, and comparing it to other people. (I know I have a lot... but I want to eventually forget my number XD)

I will also notify you all about my detox sessions via a status. (or a journal entry, if it's requested) And I will no longer use statuses for anything other than art or writing related purposes - my life is going to be a lot more private from here on out.

Remember: this is to assure you that I am going to remain calm and civilized XD

When I'll Be Back


I'm going to start clearing out my inbox today (and replying to all of your lovely messages <33 ), but don't expect much more activity than that until after December. I did mention earlier that my mom was getting leg surgery, but it's going to affect me too - there's a chance my mom won't be able to walk ever again, which honestly is horrifying to imagine, because she loves to be really active D: 

But to end this on a positive note, I am very much thrilled to return. I may not have missed dA within it's self, but I do miss talking and interacting with you all. A lot of you  are amazing people, and I really feel strongly about that :heart: I know I've said a lot of things as a result of having no break since last year, and I am well aware that I've run myself thin... but hopefully these detox sessions will help both you and me, because I will be healthier as a result, and more pleasant to be around. :D