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I recently went through and read some of my past journal entries on this site, and all I can say 

I like to think I've grown a lot as a person since those entries were written, and that I still have a lot of growing to do. I want to apologize to anyone who ever read my journals back then, and I want to assure you that those problematic views I held have changed drastically. I'm still not a perfect human being by any measure, but everyday I try to work on growing more empathy, understanding, and acceptance. 

I'm going to leave them up instead of deleting them to serve as a reminder for myself of who I was, and how I've changed. All I can do is apologize for my past actions and actively work towards not repeating the same mistakes. 

This will be my last journal entry on Deviantart for this account. 

If you've stuck around throughout the years then thank you. 
I want to start making its pretty again. 
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  • Watching: Hetalia
I desperately need a seamster or seamstress in the Long Beach or Los Angeles area who can sew pretty well. You can message me here for more information or at my tumblr bossykiwi. 
Preferably someone who is knowledgeable in Lolita fashion. 

You would be getting 60% of the profits once we started selling dresses. 
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I do come here to check my messages and occasionally upload art, but I am more active on my tumblr,
To those who watch me for state-tan goodness, like all 2 of you, don't worry I haven't abandoned them, I still love my states very much, but Assassins Creed is pretty much taking over my life, I will come back to them though.

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1). Use Your OC
2). No tagbacks.
3). Tag 6 people and choose one of their OCs.
- - -
1).Hi! What's your name?
William Jones, or the state of Arizona.
I prefer William.

2). Your age?
....since I've been a state 99 years, from the time I was alive...472? I look about 20.

3). Favorite color?
I like earthy colors, mostly browns and reds.

4). Favorite food and drink?
I love barbecue...and well corn. I enjoy a good bottle of coca cola too, beer and iced tea is always good...

5). Who's your crush?
Dani. B-But don't tell her dammit!

6). If you have a crush, did you kiss yet?
FFFFFF No! She doesn't even know I like fact she thinks I hate her...but I don't...

7). Your hobbies?
I like to rockhound, mine, star gaze, and study Prussian. I know, I'm pretty exciting.

8). Who are your friends?
Texas and I get on alright....I consider Prussia a friend but he never really talks to me, and New Mexico and are on friendly terms...

9). Favorite weather?
Like 90 degrees Fahrenheit is a nice cool temperature.  

10). Which season do you prefer?
I like the winter, its the best time for star gazing.

11). Your biggest fears?
America being taken over by Communism.

12). Is there anyone you don't like?
Mexico...Russia....anyone who threatens America and freedom.

I tag Rinkuu, mostly because I want her to interview Saudi Arabia 8D
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  • Reading: Glacier Pilot
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A lot has happened these past weeks.
First of all Anime Expo was lots of fun. I managed to keep myself from buying anymore art except when I saw someone's version of California, I had to get it.
I didn't meet anyone new, but I usually make friends at ALA because its less crowded. The first day when I went as Soviet Russia it was so hot. Especially in that wool uniform ugh. Second day as Ukraine (with shorts) I was much cooler. The only thing I can really say about the second day though is a groping incident that left me quite upset. I won't get into it though because the person has a Deviantart, and my friend has already scared him with her feisty words.

On a lighter note I started my summer reading, The Pearl by John Steinbeck and The Good Earth by Pearl Buck. Let me just say that both of these men are total dicks and I feel bad for their faithful wives.  I do recommend The Good Earth though, especially  if you like Chinese history. All the prostitutes have pretty amusing names.  That is pretty much all I've been doing...besides keeping the apartment clean, and well cooking.

If anyone wants to make playdates hit me up, I've been bored.
Except this weekend, I'm staying home for Carmaggedon.
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  • Reading: Glacier Pilot
  • Watching: Hetalia
I am so excited I can't sleep.
Anyways I may actually be getting a hotel but that is a very  big /may/ if I do I might try to make it for Saturday and Sunday instead of just Saturday like I planned. yeah
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My computer decided to pass out. sorry.
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[ ] January - I kicked

[ ] February - I kissed

[x] March - I touched

[ ] April - I crushed

[ ] May - I whacked

[ ] June - I stabbed

[ ] July - I attacked

[ ] August - I slapped

[ ] September - I scared

[ ] October - I punctured

[ ] November - I scratched

[ ] December - I hurt

Day of birth

[ ] 01 - Feliciano Vargas (Italy Veneciano/ N. Italy)

[ ] 02 - Ludwig (Germany)

[ ] 03 - Kiku Honda (Japan)

[ ] 04 - Alfred F. Jones (America)

[ ] 05 - Arthur Kirkland (England)

[ ] 06 - Yao Wang (China)

[ ] 07 - Ivan Braginski (Russia)

[ ] 08 - Francis Bonnefoy (France)

[ ] 09 - Matthew Wiliams (Canada)

[ ] 10 - Toris Laurinaitis (Lituania)

[ ] 11 - Eduard von Bock (Estonia)

[ ] 12 - Raivis Galante (Latvnia)

[ ] 13 - Lovino vargas (Italy Romano/ S. Italy)

[ ] 14 - Antonio Fernández Carriedo (Spain)

[ ] 15 - Gilbert Beilschmidt (Prussia)

[ ] 16 - Feliks Łukasiewicz (Poland)

[ ] 17 - Heracles Karpusi (Greece)

[ ] 18 - Sadık Adnan (Turkey)

[ ] 19 - Tino Väinämöinen (Finland)

[x] 20 - Berwald Oxenstierna (Sweden)

[ ] 21 - Vash Zwingli (Switzerland)

[ ] 22 - Peter kirkland (Sealand)

[ ] 23 - Im Yong Soo (South Korea)

[ ] 24 - Roderich Edelstein (Austria)

[ ] 25 - Elizabeta Héderváry (Hungary)

[ ] 26 - Natalia Arlovskaya (Belarus)

[ ] 27 - Gupta Muhammad Hassan (Egypt)

[ ] 28 - Holy Roman Empire

[ ] 29 - Denmark

[ ] 30 - Island

[ ] 31 - Norway

Favorite Color: (In his/her)

[ ] Red - Eyes

[ ] Orange - Legs

[ ] Yellow - Head

[ ] Green - chest

[ ] Blue - "Vital Regions"

[ ] Turquoise - Knee

[x] Violet - Arms

[ ] Pink - Heart

[ ] Brown - Feet

[ ] Gray - Eyebrows

[ ] Black - Butt

[ ] White - Nose

Zodiacal Sign: (With a)

[ ] Aries - Plush

[ ] Taurus - Spoon

[ ] Geminis - Book

[ ] Cancer - Tortoise

[ ] Leo - Fork

[ ] Virgo - Bucket

[ ] Libra - Shoe

[ ] Scorpio - Scissors

[ ] Sagittarius - Pillow

[ ] Capricorn - Cup

[ ] Aquarius - Fish

[x] Pisces - Knife

Color of the shirt you're wearing: (Because...)

[ ] Red - I'm insane

[ ] Orange - I like squirrels

[ ] Yellow - I wanted to

[ ] Green - It was my destiny

[ ] Blue - My mother told me to

[ ] Turquoise - I love pasta!

[ ] Violet, or Purple - I'm bored

[ ] Pink - I'm a princess

[ ] Brown - I love Chocolate

[ ] Gray - I'm very sad

[ ] Black - I'm emo

[x] White - I like it

[ ] None - I'm invisible

I touched Sweden in his arms with a knife because I like it.
I make so much sense.
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[x] You've seen at least one anime.
[x] You've read at least one manga.
[x] You watch anime/read manga on a regular basis.
[x] You think that anime and western cartoons are two separate things. (THREE DELIVERY. That is all.)
[x] You're in anime club.(Otaku Anonymous)
[x] You've cosplayed at least once. (Oh yes)
[ ] You counted Halloween costumes from when you were a kid as cosplay.
[x] You cosplay in public.
[x] You've been to at least one anime convention. (AX was my first)
[x] You cosplayed there. (Ukraine goes boing boing bitches)
[ ] You traveled more than 200 miles to get there.
[ ] You like Japanese food. (Of fuck me, no. )
[x] You like any of the following in particular: sushi, pocky, cheap ramen, ramune. (Lol do you reallyc all that crap Japanese food? That's like saying Lays are traditional American cuisine.)
[x] You know that sushi isn't just raw fish.
[ ] You've made bento lunch.
[ ] You've made a charabento.
[ ] You go to the Asian shop on a regular basis.(I've never been in an Asian grocery st
[ ] You've actually been to Japan.
[ ] You've been to Japan solely for the anime, videogames or idols.
[/] You're learning/know Japanese. (I have the rosetta stone for it orz)
[ ] You're learning it to watch anime without subtitles.
[ ] You have Japanese blood.
[ ] You CLAIM to have Japanese blood.
[x] You're in love with a fictional anime character. (We're all mad here. )
[ ] You claim you're married to a fictional anime character. (Lol I'm not Alex Henriol)
[ ] Anime is so much better than western cartoons.
[ ] You call all cartoons anime.
[ ] Anyone who hates anime is dead to you.
[ ] You call characters by their original Japanese names (The fuck I get confused when they call the Pokemon their Japanese names)
[ ] You call characters by their romaji spelling.
[ ] You defend Pearl Harbour.(Wtf)
[ ] You think Pearl Harbour's a new anime that just started airing in Japan.(That would be amazing. I would watch that)
[ ] You think Japan is the greatest country on Earth. (We're all racist and hate dolphins yay~)
[ ] You think that just because they make the best media.
[ ] You listen to J-music.
[ ] Exclusively.
[ ] You know that it's pronounced "Gakuto" and not "Gackt".(The hell is that)
[ ] You can name all the Vocaloids. (Fucking robots)
[ ] WITHOUT looking it up.
[x] You like Hetalia.(Eheh)
[ ] You think Japan is the best character.(He's actually my least favorite lol)
[x] You wear items of anime-related clothing in public.
[ ] You play only Japanese videogames/watch Japanese shows/eat Japanese food.
[ ] You use Japanese honorifics.
[ ] To refer to yourself.
[/] Your entire room is full of anime merchandise. ( I wouldn't say full I just have a few things)
[ ] You changed your name to something Japanese.
[ ] Legally.
[ ] You want to give your kid a Japanese name.
[ ] You want to name your kid after an anime character.
[ ] You've considered having surgery to look oriental. (ew)
[ ] You've had it done.
[ ] You stalk the Japanese exchange students.
[ ] You've been arrested for doing so.
[x] You use memes in daily conversation.
[ ] You watch abridged series.
[ ] You get most of the jokes.
[x] You use tildes while typing~
[x] You use Japanese emoticons (OTL)
[ ] You make attempt to Japanese sounding by the Engrish typing.
[ ] You claim you're Japanese on your dA/Facebook/Myspace/whatever.
[x] You're not.
[x]You're not even Asian.
[ ] If you're Asian, you think doing Japanese stuff helps you get in touch with your heritage.
[ ] And you're not even Japanese.
[ ] People call you a weeaboo.
[ ] You prefer the term otaku.
[x] You break out into Caramelldansen in public. (I requested it at a dance once lol)
[/] You want to date a Japanese person.(I prefer Asians mixed with something else, got to love those mutts)
[ ] No other nationality will do.
[x] You watch(ed) Naruto.
[x] You wear the headbands. (I used to...)
[ ] Every day.
[ ] You're bitching at me because they're properly called "forehead protectors"
[] You bought said headban- erm FOREHEAD PROTECTOR at Hot Topic.(Mine were gifts from my friend)
[ ] You act out scenes from the show.
[ ] FFVII is the best game ever.
[ ] Sephiroth is yours.
[ ] Kingdom Hearts is awesome.
[ ] AxelxRoxas is KAWAII DESU NE~~~!! (I honestly don't have that much interest in KH xD)
[ ] You wish you owned a real Death Note.
[ ] Touhou rocks your life.
[ ] Anime dubs are the spawn of Satan.
[ ] Vic Miginola is God.
[ ] It's seiyu, not voice actor.
[ ] You use Gratuitous Japanese all the time.
[ ] You add "desu" to the end of every sentence.
[ ] The only thing you draw is anime. (I try to to all things_
[ ] You're taking an art course, and all you submit is anime.
[ ] All your friends also like anime. (Most do)
[ ] You want to become a mangaka. (Fuck no)
[ ] In Japan.
[ ] Most of your manga/anime is hentai.
[x] You know that "hentai" doesn't mean "porn"(Pervert!~)
[ ] You write fanfics for English class.
[ ] Yaoi fanfics.(wtf why would I do that to a teacher)
[ ] You know nothing about Japanese culture except for anime, videogames, idols, music, porn and schoolgirls.
[x] Everyone says you have no life.
[ ] And it's true. ( ; A ; )

Score: 24 1/2

0-10: You probably hate Japan. You're not a weeaboo at all, not even close.
10-20: You like SOME Japanese things but, still not a weeaboo.
20-30: At this stage you probably still hate weeaboos. Good news- you're not one.
30-40: You keep your love of Japanese stuff sensible.
40-50: You're very likely a Japanophile, but you're not as annoying as a full-blown weeaboo.
50-60: You're not a weeaboo just yet, but try and moderate it.
60-70: Weeaboo.
70-80: Please stop it!!!!!!
101: Insane asylum tiems.
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For all those -no one- people who want to know how I name my states, here we go.
First they have to match names people would actually have.
Is not what I would name Kentucky.
Next they have to have the right feel for the state. Like California doesn't come off as a Sarah.
Usually I try to make the names somehow recognizable to that state.
Like Trent is taken from Trenton, New Jersey.
Or Dani is from The Red Hot Chili Pepper's song "Dani California"
Sometimes though instead of a known figure, place, song whatever, I find names that match with the spirit of the state and are popular in that particular state.
Emily is the third most popular name in Maine, and Emily comes off to me as fitting her.
I try to avoid names that I would ever use in naming something so I don't favor them if I find a possibly better name.
Hawaii, Lani Kallilimoku Jones took some more thought though.
I spent sometime looking at the Hawaiian language and saw "Moku" meant island, and I thought that was adorable.
Then Lili or Lily reminded me of all the pretty flowers in Hawaii, so I typed in "Lilimoku" to see of it was a name, it was nott, but Kalilimoku was a last name, so I grabbed it, and then I decided on Lani because it was a Hawaiian name that meant "sky" and I though having island and sky would bring her together as a whole because the Hawaiian island are  spread apart.

So now brings my question to YOU.
I am now deciding on a name for Puerto Rico, I have decided her first name to be Carissa.
However she is not a STATE, and therefore in my weird book of rules can't have the last name "Jones"
I need a last name, preferably something historically notable.
And Spain's last name is a no.
Help meh |D
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Drawing Nevada at
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I'm making a slide show about Californian History, watch me at
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I made one and I'm drawing the Ukraine, I listen to strange music. Be warned.

I should make one just so you guys can watch me amusingly do history projects.
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The Euro! Will bring death to us!
England knows what he's doing by keeping the pound! Now Southern Bragoslavians unite to take down this horrific tyranny imposed upon us by the EU!
We will not back down!
We will not accept your filthy money!
Vive Bragoslavia!
Vive le resistance!

We will not be socialist with you northerners!
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  • Reading: Glacier Pilot
  • Watching: Hetalia
That Russia's female outfit is really adorable.
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[ ] = You have blue/green eyes.
[X] = You blush a lot.
[X] = You giggle.
[X] = You're quiet.
[X] = You say random silly things.
[X] = You have a baby face.
[X] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[X] = You don't wear halter tops or anything too showy.
[X] = Your under 5 feet 6 inches tall.

[X] = You're a virgin No duh |D
[/] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush. depends ... >3
[ ] = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[X] = You sleep with a stuffed animal.
[X] = You like to cuddle.
[ ] = You've never played the Nervous game.
[X] = You don't even know what the nervous game is.
TOTAL SO FAR: 12 1/2

[X] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[/] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors. (Usually a bright t-shirt under a dark hoodie and/or bright socks under dark jeans. Don't want to stand out too much.)

[X] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[X] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[/] = You like happy upbeat music.
[/] = You like "Cutesy" music.

What YOU think is cute:
[X] = You like small animals
[ ] = You like babies a lot
[X] = Small/mini versions of things make you go "Eeeee!"

Multiply how many you got by 4
76 % If I was asian that would be an f.
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I had a lot of fun at Hetalia day, and made some new friends :V

Hawaii has probably slept around as much as a regular country.

Maybe she hasn't slept with all of them, but she's had relations with Japan, America, England, France, Russia, China, and well Polynesia what not who has no character.

>C And now she has Alaska and Cali and her whim.

She's gonna take over the world even though she's tsudere.
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Is my favorite color obviously, so I enjoy the purpleness.

Also California and Illinois totally support this message since they're such fags.

On a different note, I got surgery on my neck and it hurts. A lot.
The doctors were like omg a lump in your neck, it might be cancer, but it wasn't, it was just swollen lymphnoids.Go figure >.> I'm going to Hetalia Day in Los Angeles, so if you're going hope to see you there.

I'll be going as Ukraine after the Polish-Ukrainian War. Which was basically a war about some land left over when Austria and Hungary split. Poland kicked Ukraine's ass, so I'll be in a cast, crutches, head bandages, and my new neck scars |D
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  • Reading: Glacier Pilot
  • Watching: Hetalia
Not even for a second, everything in life is a joke to me.

WHICH IS WHY. I can't make a nice fanfic if my life depended on it. I have made several attempts to do some kind of Russia/California fanfiction, but no matter how hard I try, it's always crap, or begin laughing at the retarded sex scene I had just made. Other people's fanfics can bring me to tears, but my own make me crack up with their lack of talent.


If someone can write me a Russia/California fanfiction that mentions their history, and displays their relationship in the correct manner, I will draw you anything you want. I will even draw yurilolwhut.

Russia should see her as a garden, not a human being. California should just be ignorant and loving.

This is mainly directed to like :iconrockpup5: and :iconrinkuu: I don't expect anyone to take this seriously.
  • Listening to: Starstrukk
  • Reading: California
  • Watching: Hetalia
  • Playing: Outlaw Tennis
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: WATER