I bet if I ever asked you to move closer to me, you wouldn't. You wouldn't give up everything for me. If I were in trouble you probably wouldn't travel far to see me in a time of crisis, a time when I need you. You wouldn't want to leave that precious family in Mexico to see me, would you? You say you love me but, then why did you go and have another family? Was it to replace me? Was it because I've disappointed you? Or was it because you never really cared for me, my siblings, and Mama? Why else would you leave us? Don't say it's because Mama wanted nothing to do with you. You could've moved somewhere else, somewhere nearby so you could still visit us. Instead, you lie about you cheating and put the blame on Mama. You were never there when I needed you, how could you? Being there is a sign of commitment, and you'd rather hide away than do that. I love you with all my heart but I wish I didn't. I have faith in you but you give me disappointment.You make promises and end up breaking my heart. When my friends ask about you and I tell them, they tell me,
"You need to let him go. He's caused you enough heartbreak." Why? Why can't I let go? Why are you, my Dad?
I've never really been brave enough to tell my Papi how I really felt, I just sent him this as a message and I'm waiting for his response and honestly, I'm terrified. I've never really told him how I felt till now. Wish me luck.