things of which i have learned to let go

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By violetense
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my past with you
and the future i'll never have with you,
and the recoil of a shotgun.

the trigger.

cordite, copper, basil, beer,
words, the writing on the wall,
penned notes not written in ink.

handfuls of sand.  old seashells in buckets
that sit on the shelf and have no meaning.

buttons unbuttoned and buttons no more,
ends that don't meet, weak links in the chain,
projection, resistance, transference,
expectations, both mine and those of others.

labels, diagnoses.
bruises that bloom like wilted roses
and stain your skin, pounded flat.

scars that fade
and scars that won't,
scars you see
and scars you don't.

lock-back blades between my fingers.

wishes, anger, grief;
and, on some occasions, the shame.

monsters under the bed.
monsters in the bed.

the hotkey for pause, the hotkey for escape,
the doorknob and my foot in the crack.

the idea of
and the pressure to become
someone i will never be.
Written in response to a prompt from my psychologist; a scrap that I never brought back.

Please do not use without my permission.
Comments are welcome and greatly appreciated. Any feedback is great to hear. What can I do better?
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I'm using the mobile app, and I don't see the option to add to favorites. :(
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I like the rhythm and the speed, it's almost choppy. Well done. :)