Vindhov

Many of you have probably already seen 's journal:
  Cringey Pony OC Challengefigured my last status would work better as a journal SO
I've got a little challenge for all my artists that love making MLP OCs~
if you want to, i'd sure appreciate if ya'll would design the "cringiest", most "mary-sue/gary stu" pony your brain can concoct, and submit your design to this journal in a comment. I'd like to do a piece about how cringe culture restricts our freedom as makers and consumers of content, so I'll be picking one of your "cringe" designs and drawing it! I'd like to make clear that this is not meant to be mean-spirited, your mock OC will be drawn respectfully, and hopefully be used to get those haters of "cringe-y OCs" to question why they feel the need to mock other people's harmless interests.
You can go however nuts you want. Break every OC-designing rule, design however you goddamn want. Wanna show me a rainbow-haired alicorn with jewel eyes and two sets of wings? Go for it! Make a black and red overpowered dark lord that cries ink black tears. leading up to this picture who I recommend you all read the description of: 

This journal was made to challenge people to draw/show their own characters that could be considered cringey in a way, and to bring to light how unecessary and damaging the cringe culture can be. Everyone should feel allowed to draw whatever they want without having to feel judged or fear that it will be accused of being cringey. 

I haven't had any of my art called cringeworthy online, but I'm constantly feeling this overhanging fear of showing my art to people in real life because of what I draw. I draw ponies. Colorful cartoon horses in probably way more complicated and 'mature' stories and scenarios than they would ever show in the actual kids show. Why? Because I like it and thinks it's fun. So why does it feel so dangerous to admit to people?

I am terribly afraid of being judged by others so whenever my art is brought up with people I dont know I always play it off as a dumb hobby of mine and that I know how to draw "real" stuff too before I even show them anything. Maybe I'm talking down about myself before they do? Maybe it's to show they don't have power over me by telling me i'm childish because I already know that I am? Probably. 

It's a anxiety filled roller coaster that always leave me surprised when people out in 'the real world' like my stuff. 

Putting it in text like this really makes me realise that it's just destructive towards myself to assume that everyone is going to dissapprove of my drawings before I've even shown them. I'm not looking for people to tell me I'm great and cheer me on so please don't (even though that is very kind of you) I just want to share and better understand myself by sorta rambling/venting.



Me limiting myself don't really stop there though as I have found that there are certain things I'm actively avoiding when drawing. Lop's journal made me realize that there are things I would like to draw but don't in fear of being called wierd since I haven't seen much other art on the subject. Body types are one of them. I have actively been avoiding doing certain body types such as plus-sized characters for fear of people pointing out they are wierd or made as  some sort of fetish-fuel.  

I also have some limiting issues with markings and the fact that I avoid appaloosas and dots as much as possible for some reason. 

So here we come to the point of this whole post. I particapated in the challenge to make a "cringy" design for me based on things I would never normally do and I feel... liberated




In all honesty, I love her.
I will keep pushing myself to do more of what I really want and not worry so much. Take pride in my colorful horses and stop belittling myself for the art I love drawing.

We should all stop worrying and just have more fun. Loosen up a bit and do what we want. 



EDIT: you know what I'm feeling empowered. I am going to share my gallery with some people who doesn't know what I draw and just show them my sparkly rainbow colored horses.