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I know I've been dead on here for quite a while, sorry about that peeps. I don't have a working drawing tablet rn and I've been focusing on more things other than art for the past year or so.

I started community college, and although my tuition is being paid for (yay, Rhode Island Promise!) the books and supplies for school are expensive asf. My job is starting to close for the season and I'm only on the schedule for one day a week, and I'm having a hard time finding another job atm. So I only get around $60 a week rn and that is definitely not enough to pay for all my books and things.

So if I sold traditional commissions, who would buy? 

They wouldn't be very expensive. I'm thinking $5 for a little sketch/doodle of your character, $10 for a detailed, colorful fullbody, maybe like $30-$40 for a whole ass colorful detailed drawing

Here are some of my most recent traditional pieces:
27072933 430569314026355 9178501303700121927 N by viixens

27655033 430569180693035 7439289086322766443 N by viixens

27867484 437108140039139 7251321196568629891 N by viixens
27337245 430569274026359 5097794361272929174 N by viixens

There's no furries or anything but I still know how to draw them! I'll draw pretty much any species.

I also sell stuff on Redbubble…

TL;DR: Help a broke college student pay for her books, school supplies, food, and caffiene. Plz.
I'll probably still post on here when I'm trying to sell stuff, just for more exposure, but I'm probably going to be posting most of my art on this account from now on: ghosts76

watch me if y'all want :3
someone on the internet: *insults me*
me: i don't give a fuck? lol go away stop wastin ya time
someone irl: *insults me*
me: *spends the next 2 hours physically restraining myself from bursting out in tears*
i need more irl friends who are always down to hang out with me even if we dont even do anything at all and jsut end up sitting in my room doing nothing. friends who dont act like im boring, friends who are proud of me and think i'm good at stuff and give me compliments and congratulate me, friends who actually listen to me tlak about stuff whether im happy or sad and actually act like they care, friends who dont interrupt me or disagree with half of the things i say, friends who laugh at my jokes, friends who share the same interests as me, friends who dont leave me out of conversations and always try to include me no matter what. i need friends who like me for me and hang out with me because they like to be around me, not jsut because theyre bored. where can i find friends like this. where. please. i just want friends who make me feel like a fun, valuable, loved person. please please please please pleaaasseee
i forget that some people on deviantart think im Super Cool and that some people even look up to me and its so weird because like. yeah im pretty cool online but. im literally the most awkward human being you will ever meet irl. i look very different than i do in pictures, i barely talk at all, i stutter, i space out often, and when i do talk im super loud and repetitive and obnoxious and i laugh at really lame things that aren't even that funny. also i'm too afraid to talk to cashiers and make phone calls but i'll make weird loud noises in public and yell weird things at strangers without batting an eye. also im always very very tired and i barely have the energy to do anything so i basically have to be dragged around everywhere. trust me if y'all met me irl you would see me a lot differently l m a o 
someone made a fake facebook account of me
messaged me some weird shit
then deactivated

i really really wanna know who did it

is there ANY possible way i could find out who it was?
its time to Ass

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Journal Entry: Sun Jan 31, 2016, 9:28 PM

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im not good at anything :(


i think another reason ive never outwardly fully identified as male or even started any sort of transition towards being a male is that i still have extremely feminine tendencies and sometimes admittedly do enjoy "girly" things (like i actually enjoy doing my makeup sometimes and sometimes i do like to look pretty) and if i identified as male and decided to go out one day wearing makeup and feminine clothes i KNOW for a fact that people would be like "i thought u were a boy?!?!!!? did u change ur mind!?!???!?!? u can't say u wanna be a boy if u like looking like a girl!!!!!!"

and yeah that's fucking wrong for people to say that and i know i shouldnt listen (plus if there are cis guys who like to wear makeup and look girly then why cant trans guys do the same?) but at the same time im just NOT ready to handle those types of comments. and i know if i changed my mind about it one day i would get SO much fucking shit. i just wish we lived in a world where experimenting with gender identity was a normal thing and nobody really cared that much about how others identified/presented themselves. but there are still judgemental transphobic fucks out there who, for some reason, love to take time out of their day to invalidate others. and it pisses me the fuck off and stresses me the fuck out.
I hate when ppl try to invalidate the way I feel about my gender...
no im not "faking it" and yes it's a phase but it's a fucking stressful phase
I don't know if I want to grow up to be a woman or a man and whenever I watch those ftm transition videos I cry so fucking hard because I feel like that's what I want to do.
But then other days I'm unsure and I think "maybe I do want to be a woman. Maybe I'm fine with my body. Maybe I'm faking it"
I go through phases where I'm fine with my body and presenting as a girl and I see myself being a woman in my future
And then suddenly the dysphoria comes back and I go through the confusion all over again
I've been confused about my gender for 4 years now
And I still haven't made up my damn mind on who I really am
I fucking hate this shit
but if you haven't saved the file, don't worry! i've stored all of the designs i've made here:
if you think there's a design missing from the folder then pls let me know!!
bc im cleaning out my gallery and its like 90% adopts and i wanna put them in storage so bad but if i do ppl will get pissy

idc though i might do it anyway........ im too lazy to put them all in scraps
i cant/dont want to sell/trade them so
comment examples of your art and the character you want

these are the characters ill give away: (pending) (pending)

i mostly like icons and pixels but ill take other forms of art too!!

if its pending, you can still ask, and i will get back to you if it isnt pending anymore.

btw, you wont officially own the character until the art is done ;w; 
ive been finding myself hoarding characters again so ive decided on selling a few..
if youre a creator of one of these designs and dont want me selling it please let me know.
mainly looking for paypal but i MIGHT take points.


$3 / 300:points:

offer $ or :points: , buyout is 700:points: / $7
comes with 1 piece of art and an icon
is a closed species called kamuri

$7 / 700:points: (tentative, might not sell)

ok but i seriously dont ever see myself getting married, ill just be that one single friend out of all of my other friends who started families and shit, who all of the kids call aunt/uncle and don't know that i'm actually not their aunt/uncle until years later, and i always randomly show up at their houses on weekends out of nowhere with snacks and gifts like "hey it's me lol i'm here to take ur kids out for ice cream!" and whenever i babysit them my friends will be like "for the love of god river, do not feed them so much junk food, and do not let them watch rated r movies, please" and next thing u know as soon as they walk out the door im giving the kids my netflix account for the night and ordering dominoes like "i'm only letting u have the pizza if you dont rat me out to your parents ok" 
1: Name - river
2: Age - 16
3: 3 Fears - bees, vomit, trucks
4: 3 things I love - my friends, my cat, myself
5: 4 turns - i dont wanna go there
6: 4 turns off - Me
7: My best friend - maria, amber, justyn, alice, totounai 
8: Sexual orientation - panromantic gray-ace
9: My best first date - all of my first dates were SUcky and me and seb never had a proper first date if we did idk what it is>...????
10: How tall am I - 5'5
11: What do I miss - idk
12: What time were I born - 7:57pm
13: Favorite color - indigo
14: Do I have a crush - duh
15: Favorite quote - idk
16: Favorite place - my room 
17: Favorite food - mac and cheese
18: Do I use sarcasm - never
19: What am I listening to right now - tv in the bg
20: First thing I notice in new person - hair tbh
21: Shoe size - 9
22: Eye color - blue
23: Hair color - black
24: Favorite style of clothing - sweaters
25: Ever done a prank call? - yes 
27: Meaning behind my URL username - foxes......
28: Favorite movie - anything pixar or studio ghibli
29: Favorite song - anything by the nbhd
30: Favorite band - the neighbourhood, fob, adtr
31: How I feel right now - lazy
32: Someone I love - my fronds
33: My current relationship status - taken
34: My relationship with my parents - me n mom are Good me and my dad on the other hand....... eh
35: Favorite holiday - halloween
36: Tattoos and piercing i have - 3 shitty stick n pokes, one is a planet, one is an arrow, one is an x
37: Tattoos and piercing i want - so many
38: The reason I joined Tumblr deviantart - wanted 2 upload art
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? nah we still exchange memes
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - no
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? i wish
42: When did I last hold hands? probs a week or two ago
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - 20 - 30 mins
44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? yea
45: Where am I right now? in my room
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably alice, or totounai , all of my other close friends would most likely be getting drunk with me lol 
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? reasonable level, loud noises/music make me really uncomfortable and nervous most of the time (unless im at a concert idk)
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yes
49: Am I excited for anything? going 2 a concert tomorrow
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? justyn
51: How often do I wear a fake smile? a lot
52: When was the last time I hugged someone? idk
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i dont care lol
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? yeah
55: What is something I disliked about today? idk its only noon
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? idk
57: What do I think about most? idk
58: What’s my strangest talent? i can lick my eblow
59: Do I have any strange phobias? vomit
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind
61: What was the last lie I told? "im getting ready right now" im actually just doing dumb memes like this
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chatting
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? idk, yep
64: Do I believe in magic? no
65: Do I believe in luck? i guess
66: What's the weather like right now? cold
67: What was the last book I've read? idk
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? no
69: Do I have any nicknames? riv riv and the rest involve the name ppl call me irl so id rather Not
70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? my toenail fell off idk ive never had any Terrible injuries
71: Do I spend money or save it? both
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? no
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? my sheets
74: Favorite animal? fox
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? playing a game
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? idk
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? idk
78: How can you win my heart? buy me stuff LOL
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? no
80: What is my favorite word? Ass
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - no idea
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? "i would like a small loan of a million dollars"
83: Do I have any relatives in jail? yea
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? whats your gender
86: What is my current desktop picture? its just black
87: Had sex? no
88: Bought condoms? no
89: Gotten pregnant? no
90: Failed a class? yep
91: Kissed a boy? yep
92: Kissed a girl? no
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yep
94: Had job? no
95: Left the house without my wallet? yes
96: Bullied someone on the internet? yes
97: Had sex in public? no 
98: Played on a sports team? no
99: Smoked weed? yes
100: Did drugs? yes
101: Smoked cigarettes? no
102: Drank alcohol? no
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no
104: Been overweight? yes
105: Been underweight? no
106: Been to a wedding? yes
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? ye
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? ye
109: Been outside my home country? no
110: Gotten my heart broken? yep
111: Been to a professional sports game? no
112: Broken a bone? no
113: Cut myself? yep
114: Been to prom? ye
115: Been in airplane? yep
116: Fly by helicopter? no
117: What concerts have I been to? fob x2, warped tour
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yep
119: Learned another language? no
120: Wore make up? ye
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? no
122: Had oral sex? no
123: Dyed my hair? ye
124: Voted in a presidential election? no
125: Rode in an ambulance? no
126: Had a surgery? no
127: Met someone famous? no
128: Stalked someone on a social network? yep
129: Peed outside? yep
130: Been fishing? yep
131: Helped with charity? yep
132: Been rejected by a crush? yep
133: Broken a mirror? yep
134: What do I want for birthday? idk
1) What's their name?

2) Do you get along with this person all the time?
um we usually do but there have been Difficult times that will be worked on >: )

4) How old is the person?

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?

6) Is this person the same age as you?
no hes younger HAHAHA

7) Have you ever kissed this person?

8.) Have you ever laughed for longer than 2 minutes?
yes probably

10) Are you really close to him/her?
yes ig

11) Nicknames?

12) Do they have a nickname for you?

13) Have you and this person been outside the country?

14) Do you think they will repost this?
no hes lame

15) Could you live with this person?
probably i think

16) Why did you pick this person?

17) How long have you known this person?
since 9th grade but we didnt talk till 10th 

18) What's your favourite thing to do with this person?

19) Can you name one favorite memory with this person?
idk..... probably the second time we hung out and went to the movies w our friends (and didnt actually end up watching any movies we just walked around for a few hours and yelled a lot) OR when we went to autumnfest and got really stoned with a group of ppl and acted super gay that whole weekend (we werent even dating yet and we were SO GAY)

20) Have you ever joint bought something?

21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?

22) Have you ever written a song with this person?
idk i think i wrote a poem abt him once..........ttwice......... a few times

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
yes lmao i dont wanna go there

24) How many piercings does this person have?
uh idk a lot 

25) Would you date this person's siblings?
no WTF

26) Have you ever made something with this person?
we did a really dumb drawing collab once

27) Have you ever cried with this person?

30) Write something only they will understand.

31) What's something special you share?
a gay

32) What's the nicest thing they've ever given you?
he bought me a candle once 

33) Have you ever worn this person's clothes?
yes i own so nmany of his clothes now LOL

34) What's this person's favorite food?
anything asian

43) If you could spend a day anywhere in the world with this person, where would you go?
probably fucking japan because hes a big weeb and we both have always wanted to go to japan 

44) What are you looking forward to be doing with this person?
im going to his house today Nice!!!

45) What makes this person feel happy?
anime and coffee

46) Do you and this person talk a lot?

47) Can you describe this person in one word?

51) What are your names?
river & seb 

52) How old are you guys?
im 16 hes 15 hes a CHILD!!!!!! 

53) Cool! What are your favorite colors?
mines indigo idk his thoiugh
am i the only person who cant FULLY connect to a character unless i actually made them
the only characters i can connect to that arent made by me are delia, maru, jaspar, kira, and i guess toraburu (even tho she was partially designed by me) but its mainly because delia, maru, jaspar, and toraburu are all part of a story i'm writing, and kira has a complex backstory, and they all have very distinctive personality traits that i worked pretty hard on.
i can SLIGHTLY connect to other characters that arent made by me, but i usually just end up trading them away after a while because they just end up laying around collecting dust

its kinda funny too bc all of the designs i make for myself are so generic...... looking at my adopts you'd think my characters would all have colorful complex designs to but one of my fursonas literally is just.. a gray cat. with blue hair and a purple sweater. but he's still complex in his backstory- shit, i have an entire fucking 6 part story with him as the protagonist. his backstory is so complex that it'd probably take me a really really long time for me to sit and tell you- and it's still not even complete. it's not his generic design that makes him special to me, it's all of his traits and his story.
having bpd is SO FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :D :thumbsup: :D :D :D