Okay An Explanation

So yeah, after my last journal entry. I feel I should explain things. I don't want to go into a LONG fucking explanation because...honestly? I'm tired of explaining shit. I really am. It's just...gotten so tiring so I'm basically going to summarize everything. At least try to anyway. If you guys have any questions then please message me or comment, I'll try to answer things the best I can. 

A lot of stuff has happened since my absence here. I've been through three jobs. One of them being absolute hell on me physically and mentally but I stuck through it for three months before I finally quit. 

I've moved to two different states. Currently staying in Missouri with a friend of mine and having to pick my life back up again. Which is kind of in shambles at the moment. I finally moved to Idaho to be with the love of my life but back in January, that love ended and I had two choices. Move on my own terms or be kicked out and be forced to go back home with my near abusive family. 

I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety and moderate depression from an actual doctor. Putting me on antidepressants which right now I feel that they aren't working because my thoughts have just gotten worse. Course that could be my own thing. 

I got rid of all my old OCs and I have new ones that I'm proud of. I'm trying to create new ones with my roommate who's trying to get me into DnD but it's a bit difficult right now. Considering I'm just kind of in a state of barely hanging on. Some days I'm okay but some days I just want to fucking die. As that's my state right now. 

So yeah, that's basically it. I've moved. I've been through the ringer and now I'm having to basically start over. 

I need to actually get into drawing again but that's been hard. I'm trying but...yeah. 

Anyway that's all I wanted to say. I'll be fixing things around when I can, if I remember to. 

Just yeah...anyway talk later.