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How long have you been on DeviantArt?
This account has been around 2 years, but I've been lurking around DA for like 5years ago since I started getting interested in Graphic Art, I can't retrieve my old account.

What does your username mean?
Vanmhei was one of my first OC during highschool, Vanmhei, the Pteron Knight, which means the Knight of Feathers.. During that time, my signature always has a feather symbol. I was inspired to make that OC because my penmate that time has an OC named Fallon, the Moonstar Princess.. 

Describe yourself in three words.
Silent, Realistic and Romantic

Are you left or right handed?
Right Ayt!

What was your first deviation?
My first upload was Underwater Yoga…
Though, it was not my first digital artwork.. 

What is your favourite type of art to create?
Portrait. I usually draw people, human face always has its distinct aura and emotion that makes it unique and interesting.

If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
Digital Painting! I'd love to learn it but too bad Ive got no enough time for it. 

What was your first favourite?
It was Dragon by MrLukeHman…

What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?
Usually women or game Digital Painting and Anime fanart

Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
If based on artwork, I definitely admire the works of sakimichan and ToolKitten. But if in terms of my connection with them, Ive never been close to anyone in here as much as with Gentlewolf :)

If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? 
I actually started a silly personal mission this year, I randomly sent notes to DA artists from different countries and asked to be friends with them, hoping that one day, my dream to visit places around the globe will be possible, and I'd get to visit the friends I made here on DA. So hopefully, if in few years or even a decade to come, if Im still talking with them and they truly become friends of mine, I'll get to meet these wonderful people:
U.S. (North-East) Gentlewolf 
U.S. (East) shaynaJreddick 
U.S. (South) WhiteWolfGirl91 

Indonesia dellput 
New Zealand Cat-S-Dragoness 
Germany KrissiIstSoCool 
Poland delusive-dreams 

How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
A lot, especially recently, being able to talk with my fellow artists from different countries, cultures, descendants, interests, etc. I've learned new things, how vast yet small the World is. 

What are your preferred tools to create art?
When I was still a student, I use pencil, technical pens, and oil pastel. When I started drawing digitally, I used Photoshop and mouse, though I also have a Bamboo Wacom Pen which I seldom use.  

What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
At home, I prefer to work outside, where I could feel the wind. But for years, I got used to make my artwork discreetly at work. :D

What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
So far, whenever I hear Deviantart, I remember how I started off as mere part-time Computer Shop attendant, learning Graphic Arts by myself through tutorials and inspirations I saw through DA then for 3 years now, Im already working as a Professional Graphic Artist. Thanks to this Community I've become who I am today :)
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Inevitable Loop

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    Attraction is never a choice; we don’t always get to choose who we love. There is never a time or place for love; we might fall in love with the most unexpected person, at the most unexpected time. Poets may say that it occurs accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment, with no explanation, without definite reason – This is how exactly I could define my experience just few months ago. There’s this woman; young enough to be considered as my little sister, but in anyway we never felt that gap; and beautiful enough to make feel awkward being with, but somehow when we’re together I don’t feel ugly. There’s just something about her that makes me happy and sad at the same time, she can make or ruin my day, and she is giving me butterflies and headaches for the same reason. Obviously, I got smitten badly and I can’t deny it.

    I am not stupid to assume; I am just being brave enough to risk and break my own heart.  Because sometimes we need to fall before we fly, and sometimes to really live, we've got to try. We can always find reasons to work things out. In the end, maybe we’re going to find, if what we feel in our hearts is real and mutual the whole time. We should try to open up our eyes, and hope to find who we are, and how worst or best we can be, with someone we dear. We probably won't end up together, I know that, no one could certainly say.  But why not live like we're forever? Cherish and be happy for every moment that we’re given to share and keep. Memories live within our very soul; good memories often stay in our hearts and make us think better of the future. We may part, but I wanna be that someone to cross her mind and leave a smile on her lips after.

         Some of us were afraid to entertain our heart’s desires. Because there could be a lot of “what if’s” and “but’s” to cross our mind. Our own or the other’s past experiences, heart breaks, fears, and personal concerns. People always have something to say. Yet there are things we don’t need to understand, we can’t always try to change everything. Sometimes, it is not meant to be understood, not even always possible to just forget. But it could be simply, accepted, because after all, whatever people around us may say, it’s our life and it’s our own happiness at stake. Worries they say are only the products of our wrong imagination. We shouldn't let our fear hold us back from pursuing our dreams. One must stop being afraid of what could go wrong, and start to think what could go right. There comes a time when our mind tells us one thing and our heart tells us another, then before we try to do anything, decide first whether we have a better heart, or a better mind. Does make sense, right?

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Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don't even recognize that the change is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or unto someone who can explain it to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it sees to break out of its shell on its way on becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant.

But what is more unpleasant is the not knowing what is really happening, forgetting that the very shell that we're breaking was once part of us, that for long it has been our home that covers, protects and hones us into becoming someone; not knowing that we are losing ourselves because of excitement, that just because we found a new light we become insensitive of the things that we will break around us in the process.

We have to live with our mistakes, but we don't have to regret them. Regret our actions but never regret the consequences. We all make our own paths in life. Everyone we meet, everything we do, it changes us. It makes us who we are. And if we're lucky, we're given the chance to make things right again. But that doesn't mean we could deny our past to justify our mistakes. Because we have learnt lessons from all our experiences, no matter how good, bad, or crazy it was.

Its scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all your attention because they're what you thought might make you forget all bad that's going on in your life. They become the first person you want to talk to so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, good for you, yet scary for the people who are losing you, who has lost you; to the people you have started taking for granted; how easily it is for you to take your happiness and forget that for once, there's that someone who has filled up your emptiness.

If you leave someone at least say goodbye, because what's more painful than being abandoned; is knowing you're not worth a piece of farewell.

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