because when I am alone, sometimes living in this world is for me exactly like being crouched in a void sleep. If it fades into a nightmare, they come and start again to fill this emptiness, whispering shouting crying repeating things that tortures me, because they know appallingly well how to hurt me. Well, I guess that...I simply don't like to be alone when I am depressed.
Anyway, I have to get away from this place.