yeah, Im not in a good mood and I think I'll stay like this for a long time. I lost my best friend (to me) and Im feeling terrible. He flew to write here to leave some things clear, it will be no problem at all.... I'll not name names or anything, but you my dear watchers and friends will know who its... lets talk because the conversation is long and much has to be clarified
remembering that I will fight to have her friendship again and no ... Im not mad at her, just very hurt
I would like you to understand, dont be haters on both sides because the subject is very sensitive:
why we lost the friendship?
it was something unsustainable, I could not take it anymore! she didnt feel more at ease with me
Im a very easygoing person and easy to deal with. something happened that was no longer pleasing her and out of respect for her person we broke our bond
among them the fact that I was too sensitive and too caring. Im misunderstood by it!
Its sad to know that some people prefer violence than love.
Im crybaby and I cry for nothing, I hurt easily but she knew how to please me or at least she seemed
not that Im weak or submissive.... Im "needy" and this I will explain the motives ahead
and also ... the fact that I see her as a sister!
This is too heavy.
but why did you consider her as a sister?
well, we got the part I wanted to get!
I want all her friends to read this so you can understand
Until then it was only a matter of intimacy between me and her, but I'll leave it public once and for all!
Im good, fuck the world, now! I lost my "sister" or.... my onee-chan and Im feeling bad about it !!
I considered her as my sister and I liked to show this affection among friends very clearly !!
I have suffered a lot in the past, with a lot I mean..... a lot
thanks to it I have had a fast and effective recovery
if you dont know.... Im an orphan!
I lost my parents as a teenager (father, mother and older brother) and I freaked out!
I tried against my life and had to be hospitalized in a asylum for 4 months (because here the long-term hospitalization is prohibited)
I reached the point of deep depression and embraced my momentary madness
thanks to her art I began to detach myself from madness
she met me when I was still depressed
but why did you get to the point of hospitalization?
I was violent and wanted to kill me ...
but how so? Has her art helped you??
she draws my "vibe" which at the time was not something pleasant.
her art made me realize that yes! there are reasons for me to live and how beautiful life can be away from sleeping pills and anti hallucinogens
but is that why you see her as a sister?
I created a bond of friendship with her as soon as I let go of depression
It was the most beautiful thing in the world.
and as I knew my affection and my love grew together ... so I saw her as sister
She was my dear sister, my friend and my confidante too.
Ah, what else?
I was no longer being reciprocated by her
ended up becoming a lie-friend
I always saw her as a sister but she came to see me just as... a good friend
I became a nuisance to her, unfortunately... she never appreciated me (I felt it)
being that in the beginning... she always called me bff or lil sis
suddenly she started calling me by name... and things got totally cold
but who are you upset with?
with her! for not fighting for our friendship and not being able to move a finger for it
with her friends for being ignorant of not understanding
You have managed to destroy my heart!
I lost my friend, my sister, my confidant!
now She hates me...
Are you happy now??
How will it be from now on?
Like I said, Im fucking the world.
I will not be rude to anyone and I will never be, but I'll live for myself without arresting my friends.
I dont want to have other disappointments in life!
I was not valued and people didnt understand me
Im very sweet and affectionate I didnt steal your friend.
now you have them again and enjoy it!!
but if she wants to return to friendship... it will not be the same!
I think most are jumping with joy ....
Im fucking for you.
I lost my best friend who was perfect for me !!
I hope you can understand me !!
the majority who judged me or "confused" are ignorant and understand absolutely nothing of what I felt ... doubts? come and ask me!
well, Im very hurt and I dont know when I'll feel good.
Yesterday I cried horrors and today Im indifferent
I tried to talk to her again and I could not .....
if you read this ... Id like to reconcile, Im not a bad person!