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Dear Mum and Dad,

First of all you need to know that this is not your fault,
It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault,
Problems that I was never able to tell you,
Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through.

I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright,
I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight.
I can't take my depressing life anymore,
I realize I felt this way too often before.

I now know I'm not needed in this place,
Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face.
I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know,
Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show.

My life has no purpose as I can clearly see,
No one needs me and everyone hates me
I hate this world I live in, I hate how I feel now.
I try so hard to be accepted, but I don't know how.

I hate my reputation.. a fat loser.. a slut
So I'm ending my life, my wrists I will cut.
I want you two to know, that I really do love you,
But I hate my life too much, this is the only thing to do.

Suicide's the perfect escape for my problems to go away,
I don't think anyone will miss me, anyway.
Maybe, somewhere there's someone who loves me
But I couldn't find them soon enough so now I must flee.

Maybe, my life's not that bad, maybe this is all in my head.
But it's too late to tell me that, by the time you find thid I'll be dead.
I'm sorry it has to end this way, I'm sorry if you cry,
But I think this world will be better off, If I die..Goodbye.

PS:I'm sorry I had all this depression to hide,
If you want to see me, you'll find my body outside.
This suicide note is written to my parents..
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:iconthe-tickler-85-520:
The-Tickler-85-520 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2017  Professional Writer
HOLY CRAP ARE YOU OK?!?!?!?!?! :(
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johnthesavage8 Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2019
I looked at her profile, it has a note from 2009 saying she is okay.

(This poem randomly popped up in "more from Deviantart", I was also a little shocked by how real it looked.)
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The-Tickler-85-520 Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2019  Professional Writer
Ok good
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anime-wolf848 Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Are you still.....here? I know I'm a stranger....but I do care about every human beings life.....im looking up "suicide" to look up pictures,....but reading this.....made me very sad and I am crying. I never want to do this to someone. killing myself is never the option. I know it may feel like it....but its not an option. It hurts many others in the long run and for people who care are given a heartbreak forever. I know what it is to have heartbreak for a long ass time. It hurts. NO one, should EVER commit suicide......it's just sad. It's a sick world out there and a sick society that ppl think its okay to bully and treat people like shit to bring them to the brinks of suicide. Again, it's never the answer. Anyone reading this, please take it to heart. It means a lot. Because no one deserves this pain.....just get help....tell someone, get a friend and talk. get your parents, a therapist, anyone can save you if you really want the help.....im sorry 
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xXPSYCH0-G1RLXx Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Mind if I use this..
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:iconthelostrejectedsoul:
TheLostRejectedSoul Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2016
Real statistic here,
90% of suicides are a spur of the moment thing.
if you feel suicidal hold on, even just one day, but preferably more.
99.4% of people who want to commit suicide actually do.
that means 0.6% of people commit suicide.
in this scenario it's better to follow the crowd.
i beg of you please don't go through with it...
search this up in google "lost all hope"
and go to the website
it will help you commit suicide if you are planning on it...
but, this is your choice...
do what you think is best...
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Hiccaries Featured By Owner Edited Jul 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
OH MY GOD PEOPLE ACTUALLY FALL FOR THIS SHIT ?

If you are contemplating suicide ask for help instead of doing all this shit.

Unknownskank is a attention whore
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:iconreeses--peices:
Reeses--Peices Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2019  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
And you're an asshole bitch. It goes both ways, so quit being an ass and be considerate.
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Hiccaries Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
K
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CalmDownEmma Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Normally things like this IS a call for help, many people who have suicidal thoughts are stuck in a place they think they cant get help in. Calling suicidal people attention whores isn't helping the problem, people like you and the comments you make are the reason people commit suicide. Instead of making unhelpful comments why don't you say something actually constructive.
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Hiccaries Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
No one posts authentic suicide notes on deviantart 
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:iconreeses--peices:
Reeses--Peices Featured By Owner Edited Mar 13, 2019  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
Actually a lot do. I did, and no one noticed, so I tried to commit. If this girl tried/succeeded because of your asshole comment then I hope you fucking know that I'm not helping you out at court
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Hiccaries Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
My comment is a few years old at least. Chances of me being in court for this is around 00000000000000000000000000000000.1% 
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Reeses--Peices Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2019  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
I am aware of that. Doesn't make it any less shitty. Someone contemplating suicide doesn't need to be told that they just want attention, we question ourselves enough without that.
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OCMakerForLife121805 Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2018
Too many already have
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Whoever has been in a tragic situation and is reading this...I don't pity you. I understand. I'm not the person who will hug
you every second to make you feel better. Because who wants that? You'll have to choose. Life is like a game. You choose, if you choose wrong you have to fix it. Don't speed through life. Enjoy, take in every moment while it lasts.
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LH-AR Featured By Owner May 18, 2016
I understand everything about this, I've been there and the way you described certain things really speaks to me. Thank you
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scourgethecat1230 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Time to write my own now. See ya
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Sashimoka Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2015  Student General Artist
Oh hun... people say suicide is never an option, right? Well... when everyone looks at it this way, they never gave us one that we thought was worth fighting for. That's how I see it. :( I'm sorry you feel like that, so depressed. Just know that if you ever want to fight, just talk to someone. There are plenty who will fight by your side. 
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lalarose311 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
i'm so so sorry.
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Faraway-Shores Featured By Owner Edited Jan 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This desciribes my feelings fully...

I got bullied too on top of that, here, on dA.

I've already had to abandon 3 accounts as they always find me....
my main one of which a gifted 12 year PM and 2000 watcher because im so poor...


god, this planet is terrible...
time to write my own...
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Crysmol Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Same....
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:iconxcrystal-chanx:
XCrystal-ChanX Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm glad to see you're still here, love.
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Phoenix8640 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2014  Student Writer
I agree.
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TigerCubby Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel this way most of the time
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SacredDeath Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Reading some of these comments make me sick. For real. People asking you to join their groups...suicide groups. People asking if you did it and how would you etc. Do you guys not clearly see that this person is HURTING. They don't need you to sit there and tell them not to do it..or ask them to join groups etc. Or even say this should be my suicide note XD. THIS IS NO LAUGHING MATTER AT ALL!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS! This person obviously just needs someone there for them and not just for a second or a minute, but for a long time. Ugh people like some of you guys make me disgusted with this world.
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2snails1shell Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Please don't? Stay and work "it" out !YAY! :hug: Kirk & Kiki :heart:
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joysoy56 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2014
This is what I'm going through don't kill yourself find a different escape like me I still suffer but I do it for ... Well I don't even know any more maybe you can help me, what if your supposed to be my savor and me yours how will I go on so stop and think maybe u were made to save people fellow grey bird our wings clipped just answer my call before I die to
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celest-koneko Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You did not kill yourself right I mean come on there has to be at least one friendat your school I feel the same way as you except I don't have my parents anymore I only have one friend but please be alive.
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Crazyartist78708 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2014
This note isn't real, is it?
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Hiccaries Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Attention Whores
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:iconguisey:
Guisey Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Glad to see you're still alive
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crysthecreator Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Student General Artist
Hopefully this isn't real...
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:iconhiccaries:
Hiccaries Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Its not dont fall for this persons activities
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BiohazardBeauty Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow...I can relate greatly to all of this. Great writing.. :)
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hetastickers Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
this is my life except the slut part
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:iconattduke:
Attduke Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013
This made me cry :'( .-. Harpo
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:iconlily-loves-anime:
Lily-Loves-Anime Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013
Well I have the same feelings too...
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SGT-Stories Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013
This expresses everything I'm feeling right now. I can't believe how much I feel this, how much I can understand you. If you're still alive I would like to make sure you're alright, so please please answer this message.
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deimudderseigsicht Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
if i wasnt such a coward i would have done it long ago.
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XxmonsterinsidexX Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013
O: This is just amazing! Great job. I know how you feel, but the slut part. Great job.
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thunderwolf1324 Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That is everything in my life except the fat and the slut part.
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lost-n-found-again Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013
when it says "i;m sorry how i has to end this way," it reminds me of 'The Light Behind Your Eyes' by MCR.
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GrimtalesRachel Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
this should be my note XD
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Firefliy Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2015  Student Writer
Suicide is not a laughing matter and it never will be. You should have more respect than to say, "this should be my suicide note XD"
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GrimtalesRachel Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2015
Yes, of course it's not. I was not making fun of suicide, I was trying to say something in a light hearted way.
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GrimtalesRachel Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
you`re not gonna...
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L20010 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Student Photographer
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GodzillaKrueger Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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BlackButler-Fan4Ever Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Amazing; Sad and dark, but amazing.
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