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Faye by unforgivenlife Faye :iconunforgivenlife:unforgivenlife 2 4
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Every time
Every time I see that line, I get so excited.
Every time I tell you, your face lights up.
Every time we start planning and dreaming.
Every time I hope this one will make it through.
Every time I get let down, false hope all around.
Next time I won't get excited, I won't have hope.
For I can't stand to see your face so full of sadness.
I don't think I can bear anymore false hope.
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Dying inside
Dying inside for years, can I pin point the exact moment?
My heart hardening and becoming jaded with each passing moment.
Living each day like a mechanical doll, going with the flow but not truly alive.
Hours passing by and minutes ticking down, when will this pain subside.
Hating who I am, hating what pain has turned me into.
It's a different kind of pain then I'm used too, a void I can never fill.
A spark of life I can never get back, a piece of myself left that day.
Watching the world turn and constantly moving, while I've stopped waiting for my time to come.
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Just me II by unforgivenlife Just me II :iconunforgivenlife:unforgivenlife 4 10 Just me by unforgivenlife Just me :iconunforgivenlife:unforgivenlife 3 2
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hope
You came into my life and gave me hope.
I didn’t know I could love this deeply again.
Then it happened and changed our lives.
There was no talking about it.
I kept getting worse and no one noticed.
It got out of control, and I pushed you away.
You are gone now, and it’s all my fault.
There is no more hope left in me.
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I never knew
I never knew how much my heart could break, till the day I lost you.
So excited the day we found out, telling every one the good news.
Wondering would you be a boy or a girl, green eyes or brown.
Go to my first appt maybe see an ultrasound, doc says we need to run some test.
I get worried as he says come back in two days, I go home and hope the worry is all for nothing.
Go back and he says your not pregnant anymore, I try my best to hide the tears.
He goes on in his speech, I can't hear over my heart beat.
My world is broken, my dream ripped away.
I've cried so much, I thought I would drown.
It's been a year now since I've heard those words, not a day go by that I don't wonder what I did wrong.
Hurting so much as everyone else has their babies, why couldn't mine have survived.
It's been one year and nothing has changed, one year full of doubts.
I never knew how much my heart could break till the day I lost you.
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Endless pain
I lock myself away in darkness.
Never showing my true feelings.
Afraid that once the thoughts begin they won't stop.
Thoughts then leading to tears.
Tears that show the world my weakness.
The weakness of knowing what I have loss.
Knowing I may not ever get it back.
The emptiness that haunts my thoughts daily.
Eating away at my very soul.
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my darkness
Bottled up and stored away, waiting for another rainy day.
Kept under lock and key, for fear it will get away.
Tears running silently, on the empty pillow case.
Alone in the dark, fearfully awaiting that it will come awake.
The pain that manifest itself into bitterness, with time taking its toll.
Quietly night turns into day, a new mask is dawned to face another day.
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One day at a time
Trying so hard to hold back the tears, but letting them fall freely, when alone.  
Trying to keep a straight face, holding on to the mask tightly, for fear its cracking.
Breaking down silently, as to not hurt the one you love.
Hoping one day the pain will go away, maybe lessen in time.
Your heart that was so full of joy, now shattered on the floor.
As you and your love try to pick up the broken pieces and move on with life.
One day at a time for the healing to take place.
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shayla and kevin by unforgivenlife shayla and kevin :iconunforgivenlife:unforgivenlife 2 5
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too much
Friend against friend, family against family.
In this war we have all created.
Tearing each other down, slandering each others name.
What once was caring turned to bitterness.
How did it come this far, how was it not seen?
People change, and people become distant.
What once was love turned to an ugly black.
Trying to help calm the storm, but now stuck in the middle.
What's right, what's wrong, turn left or right?
Time does not heal all wounds.
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Inner self
To turn back the hands of time.
To un-show me what it is that I know.
So that I may move forward again.
Without fear of the pain and hurt that I bring.
Without knowing the downfall that I will ultimately cause.
So that I may know true happiness without fearing what I have become.  
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silence
They say silence is golden, for most people.
When you are a child, it can be the worst thing.
When this child is forced to be silent, or else their family will be broken.
When at the age of seven, you lose your innocence and forced to not speak of it.
When you are silent for nine years and no one has noticed your pain, or the abuse you have suffered.
When you finally speak, it's in the written form not meant to be found, it's louder than your voice ever got.
So they say silence is golden, but only to those not forced to keep quite.
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found
They say when one door closes another door opens.
Who knew this to hold true, even in the darkest of times.
The end of one relationship gave birth to an even happier one.
Questioning who I was, and where I was going, to say I was lost was not sufficient.
Then to find someone who understands you so well, inside and out, without questioning everything.
The end of something might not be the worst thing, but it may bring about a much happier beginning.
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Well it's been a long ass time since I wrote here. Lot has changed as per normal.  But every year I write my gains and losses so here goes.
Losses we lost a roommate who stole and screwed us, not sure it was a true loss. We had another miscarriage this year.
Gains we gained a cat from the loss of said roommate. My neice was born. My biggest gain is February of 2017 we will be having a baby girl!! It only took three years and two losses but our rainbow child will be here soon. Even though this pregnancy was rough and I wanted to kill everyone I can't wait to meet my little Faye.
Sorry it's been forever since there was an update but I just think since I've had writers block I'm not here as much.
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Thank you so very much!!
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Happy birthday!
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's November 3rd which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Thank you so very much!!
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