How many times has she cried, the day you left she never would have guessed that it would be the last time. The memories now are all that remain. The would haves, should haves, the "one more chances" , if she had known what she knows now would she continue this path or try and change it somehow?
Your Daughter is a constant reminder of all the things that should have been, of all the milestones that you'll miss. We know your watching down from your spot up above, is she making you proud? Is she doing enough? You weren't perfect but neither is she, this last year has been difficult as I'm sure you've seen.. what she wouldn't give for you to wipe these tears from her eyes. She's missing you Josh, give her a sign.
You were her first love, she was your last, memories from the last several years remind her of the past, You taught her so much about how to be strong, but she didn't think she'd have to be strong on her own. She didn’t know that she'd have to play both roles, of mommy and daddy, the plan wasn't to do this alone. She's had her share of good days, where she thinks she getting on fine, but no one knows the struggle, the battle that she fights with her mind.
The memories they come in flash backs, they come in waves, sometimes it seems like she's going to be ok. Other days she's barely hanging on, without Aubrey she isn't sure she knows why she goes on. Looking at that little face reminds her of you, of all the hopes and the dreams that you had for you two. She knows she has to fight, she knows that you loved them so, but still it hurts her heart daily that she had to let you go.
Hold her close, Josh, whisper in her ear… Don't worry my love, I'm always right here.
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Favourite photographer: Nuozek, myself
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