Well, probably because I don't think I fall in love with these people O_o I kinda treat them superficially. I would rather be attracted to someone intelectually, but I meet very few people who share my views on life/ideology and interests
And if I ever meet them, they are so physically unattractive to me, I just can't imagine a romantic relationship with them
I KNOW in the end of the day it's just me and my cat, forever (until we both live that is >.<)...
sad, but it's better to accept loneliness, I think , and enjoy one's company, than forcefully look for a match :/ And even if one does find a soulmate, people change, and will the bond be as meaningful in years as it is in the present moment? I find it hard to believe, given my pesimism and scepticism
So if there's no true, eternal love, what's the point to hope for it?
I think it only exists in fiction, Disney and fanart and enables the release of one's hidden hopes and feelings for own love
. I know that when we have a crush on someone, we feel differently and optimistic, but -at least for me- disappointment comes so fast that I become disillusioned
too bad I have that damn high sex drive.... I swear, If I could, I would switch it off and not be distracted by it anymore... >.< it's just a waste of energy.