UltimateSonicART

Greetings all friends, watchers, or whoever might read this. It's been a long time since I've made a journal since I'm more of an artist than a writer. But I just wanted to share how I've been feeling not just today, or the day before, but almost everyday. Normally I post things that are very lighthearted and silly, but just for this day I wanted to be serious and frank with you all. Hope you all can understand that.

Although on the surface you all know me for my high quality, colorful, and expressive posters and drawings and welcoming demeanor, in real life I'm just an introverted creative guy who just uses fiction as a way of escapism. I don't share too much details about my personal life as I only share it to those I fully trust but if you want details I'll share a few. Growing up I was the quiet kid who just liked to draw, and being such I was often the target of bullies which forced me to grow thick skin and stand up for myself as I had to be strong and never back down, and that was during elementary as my high school days were pretty decent after that. So yeah elementary to high school was rough but it was worth it as I got to graduate with good grades in the end.

Speaking of being a quiet kid, people will always say the usual "Why are you so quiet?", "You should speak more" and that really bothered me more than it helped. Then again I don't expect any random strangers like classmates to understand the nuance of my world. Luckily I wasn't alone as I was able to make great friendships that lasted even after we've departed from school from each other. I always keep in contact with my irl friends to know what they're doing and glad to hear that most of em' are doing well!

I don't talk much to anyone especially online since I fear I might be invading their space and not respecting their boundaries which makes me feel a little awful and self-loathing. But as of now at present day, here I stand feeling a bit stagnant, down in the dirt, and a bit empty along with a heart sinking feeling from all the mistakes and regrets that I've done but I learned that moving on and learning is the only way to move forward and improve myself for the future. Which is why I try to be optimistic, even if I feel cynical sometimes.

Through all the struggles and hardships I had to go through I still always made it through and never gave up even at the hardest of times, because in the end I'm human and that's what makes life worth living. Thank you for listening.

Sincerely -Ultimate Sonic made at: 27/06/2026 11:30 pm