I feel...numb. Not the kind of numb where it is people not feeling anything, but they want to think that they would. Its like when you lose all feeling in your arm- you still know its there, and though you can't feel the pain, there is a tingle that tells you something isn't right. That's me. I'm tingly.
I let him in and now I don't know what to do. He didn't let me down, far from it. He didn't push me aside. But he didn't give me a real answer either. Still, the picture was painted by the way that he didn't want me to say it out loud, the lack of good-bye hug (though I know he would have given me one had I moved in).
I guess that really it