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Falling

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Falling

it is not depression but the edge of happiness that makes my heart turn gray and start to crumble until there is nothing left it is being so close, having a light within reach, but not believing that it truly is close enough, or that i even deserve it i do not trust myself to grasp at it and not fall, because i am so afraid of f  a   l    l     i      n       g and it's an awfully long way to the ground and so i do not try. i let myself be swallowed by darkness and misery and i think: "at least i'm not falling," but maybe this is worse.

Questions

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Questions

question 1: what is the probability - the words blur and my pencil drops. is this what it's like to remember my name, and awaken? probably. no, probaBILITY. what is the probability of someone like you loving me? hold on a minute, i think i can figure it out. should i multiply by five? oh, no, i carry the one. that isn't right. what about square roots? must be the order of operations. wait, if i add this, then i wind up with this! maybe subtraction will work. division? multiplication? coordinates. it's gotta be coordinates. nope, guess not. i think i'll just skip over this and keep going. question 2: if a train leaves the station a

the hero always gets the girl

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the hero always gets the girl

The little fellow stood before the assembled crowd, who had come only to view his failure. "What I have is a masterpiece," he exclaimed, fluttering about like a trapped hummingbird. "I'll believe that when I see it," said the producer. "You lie!" The director cried. "Oh, do get it over with, won't you?" sneered the actor. "Don't listen to them. I'm sure it will be lovely," the secretary whispered, as the film flickered to life on the screen. The very picture of poverty walks calmly over the tops of perfect gray boxcars. He does not care about money, only where he will sleep tonight, and where he will sleep tomorrow. He falls, but th

Twisted Reality

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Twisted Reality

I never wanted this to be my own twisted reality. A romance made of bubble-wands and off-key serenades. I can't breath, wrapped around your manipulative finger. Third finger, left hand, which will never, ever bear a wedding ring. I am a captive, chained to the cold walls of my eternal prison. Your heart is impossible to enter, but more so to escape from. I never wanted this to be my own twisted reality. A romance made of nothing but lies, by which I am forever bound.

That's what it takes

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That's what it takes

She awkwardly applies mascara, getting some in her eye. She carefully puts on lip-gloss, gagging at the taste. Because that's what it takes to be pretty and popular, she thought. She swishes down the hallway, smiling flirtatiously. She winks at all the boys, her eyelids dripping mascara, believing she is drop-dead gorgeous. Because that's what it takes to make him want me and love me, she thought. While he is wondering whatever happened to that girl he used to know.

Missing: One Heart

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Missing: One Heart

i lost my heart in third grade It ran away while I was slaving over what seven times eight is and how to tie my shoes. I didn't notice as you were chasing it down the halls and around the playground. you brought it back to me I told you to keep it, since I would only lose it again or misplace it. So you tucked it away, next to bubblegum wrappers and pokemon cards. it broke "I didn't mean to" you said as I swept up the shards and threw them out. It didn't matter though; a heart can't be fixed with Scotch tape and Elmer's glue.

Why am I still here?

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Why am I still here?

 You don't control me. Maybe everyone else grovels at your feet, but I don't. I owe you nothing, so why are you still here? I am just a last resort you are content to kick away. You think you know me - go ahead, use my fears. They have long since faded, much like yourself. Maybe everyone else adores you, but I don't. So why am I still here?
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Falling

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Falling

it is not depression but the edge of happiness that makes my heart turn gray and start to crumble until there is nothing left it is being so close, having a light within reach, but not believing that it truly is close enough, or that i even deserve it i do not trust myself to grasp at it and not fall, because i am so afraid of f  a   l    l     i      n       g and it's an awfully long way to the ground and so i do not try. i let myself be swallowed by darkness and misery and i think: "at least i'm not falling," but maybe this is worse.

Missing: One Heart

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Missing: One Heart

i lost my heart in third grade It ran away while I was slaving over what seven times eight is and how to tie my shoes. I didn't notice as you were chasing it down the halls and around the playground. you brought it back to me I told you to keep it, since I would only lose it again or misplace it. So you tucked it away, next to bubblegum wrappers and pokemon cards. it broke "I didn't mean to" you said as I swept up the shards and threw them out. It didn't matter though; a heart can't be fixed with Scotch tape and Elmer's glue.

Taped Romance

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Taped Romance

 If you stopped me, here and now, I'd tell you how I want to rewind. For us to be actors, with a taped romance. So what if it's corny? At least it would be something. To rewrite the script, so that anything I ever said or did to hurt you would all be a dream. I want to tell you everything you mean to me and how I couldn't bear to lose you especially now. But first, we would have to meet. And I don't think the script calls for that.
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I'm Katie, and this is where I prove to the world that I have no skill whatsoever :)

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HEAD, Outward Bound, Three Ages, Modern Times, The Sheik, It Should Happen to You, The Talk of the Town, Singin' in the Rain, Me and the Colonel, and It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World. Oh, did I mention Head?
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Updates and things...

Updates and things...

So I realized I hadn't written anything since the start of school, and I figured I should freshen up my page just a bit. Anyways, this journal will be completely pointless and random, so you don't even have to bother reading it. School sucks. I hate it so much. End of story. We have a new horse now. His name is Colorado (not like the state, no. Think Ricky Nelson in Rio Bravo), and he's such a sweetheart. I love him... but I'd still rather have a bird than all these horses Mother keeps bringing home. Because after my last encounter with a horse... well, let's just say you're never gonna see me riding a horse ever again. God, I am so tired.

Back to school again......

Back to school again......

 This year I'm gonna be so lonely. Wasure (https://www.deviantart.com/wasure) and Gagafamelover (https://www.deviantart.com/gagafamelover) are both going to different schools......fun fun fun. Aaaaanyways, I just finished the finishing touches on my binders. Now, when I open them, the first thing I'll see will be either Rudolph Valentino, Buster Keaton, Harpo.....you get the picture. Stan Laurel has a whole binder to himself though. Not much has been happening right now. I've been practicing my orchestra music with vigor (Only took me a week to be doing it two-handed. I'm improving...) and I am now a proud owner of a crisp, new 100 dollar bill. Oh, don't I feel special. I should probably start loading

Oh lord.

Oh lord.

I just downloaded all my photos off my cemra onto my computer and.... SO. MANY. FROGS. :frog:  And some of them are just adorable. Don't be mad if I spam you with frog pictures. (Although I would highly recommend looking at them....because....I am really in love with frogs now.....)

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Thanks for adding "Songbirds" to your collection! Means very much. :D